depression

My anxiety is through the fucking roof, the smallest things give me panic attacks. Like right now, I'm just laying down and my anxiety won't go away. I also feel like I'm constantly on the verge of tears and I have no motivation to do anything. I hate this so much, why can't I just be fucking...

Hi guys!!! I'd REALLY appreciate your help here. I need your wise words. Meeting the girl Like two months ago I was chatting with a friend when he suddently said "do you want to know a girl?" (my profile image is not my reality, it's my goal, just in case) so I said "yeah why not". And he...

Hi, guys Today was the 31 and i relapsed for about 4 times within about 3 hors. İ couldn't resist the urge after first time although i relapsed without feeling urge. So İs this binging in relapse ? İ don't consider it binging because in the last few relapses i was masturbating till hurt myself...

I feel so trapped and I'm losing my fucking mind. I wish I had someone to talk to but apart from my family whom have given up on me, nobody even knows I exist. My anxiety is sky high and I'm too depressed to do anything. I'm holding on and waiting this out but fuck is this hard. I'm not even...

Hi, Here's another reason porn and masturbation are terrible, terrible. I have started myself at the age of 10. It is when my mental state got worse year after year. I was told to be - almost everyday - a bright kid, all smile, curious. All this fap has made it worse and made me a very angry and...

I relapsed to (PMO) on the 2nd of this month and since then I have been having a strange pain in my heart. The pain feels strange, unexplainable, more like a sad feeling without a known cause. I try sleeping so I would feel relaxed but no I wake up to the same feeling of pain. Am tired my heart...

I don't know if anybody else is feeling this right now. But this week I have really felt lost... I have lost my passion for making music, lost game for talking to woman. Especially from the hurt I've been threw. I literally have spent my afternoons sleeping after work and then feeling fatigue...

Hi, I'm 19 and I often can't stay focused while doing things. My mind often think some wild stuffs which I don't want to, but I feel like I just can't control it. I rarely watch pornography, but I still masturbate through fantasising, which is horrible. Sometimes I feel lonely because I just...

hi, I am in thick depression now. So cloudy that I am trying everything to come out of it. One major reason is my penis size. I am a virgin and I am fearing that my penis size is too small to pleasure a woman. When this thought occurs, my mind takes over. Extrapolating all the embarrassment I...

I’ll just cut to chase, basically I’ve reached 90 days recently and that’s great and all, especially because I’ve never managed to before. The only thing is I believe I’m still in a flatline and I haven’t fully recovered my morning wood. Now the reason why I’m frustrated about this is due to the...

İ was in the 30th day when I relapsed yesterday and i was completely depressed before the relapse but the depression increased after it. To that far i waked up in the night just to cry about what i did . But after crying i found myself relapse again although when i was watching porn i felt that...

Today i'm the happiest person on the planet ! I did a 15 day streak of no tobacco :emoji_grin:(cigarettes and snuff), i've started tobacco and porn addiction 8 years ago. The reason why i'm posting this on NoFap is I've found that the advice and information here is pretty useful and helpful...

(I am 17) I am only on day 15 and I am so fucking lazy... I can't even focus on studying for 5 minutes. Guys, have you experienced this kind of flatline on your third week? Oh my God, when is it going to stop? I need to prepare for my exams, lol. And the most important question: what the...

Hello. Iam 16 and I am not able to stop worrying about my PE.Can anyone help please how to stop worrying . It's been over 9 months that iam depressed due to PE. I can't eat properly . I've also experienced 2 panic attacks and an anxiety attack Please help. P.S: Sorry for bad english iam still...

Its amazing how I've been in the dark for so long, how the porn industry has kept the truth hidden for so long. My Journey of self gratification began about when I was 10 years old, Now I'm 24. For 14 years, I answered the call of dopamine cravings and gave into my primal urges, as a child my...

Hey fellas, I am quickly finding out how much weed smoking is keeping me from achieving my highest potential. And just as we are doing NoFap to become the best version of ourselves, we should truly consider what our best version as a future self would entail. Would that best version include...

Hey everyone, I'm a young male in my 20s who has been using PMO as a coping mechanism (or more of an escape) for anxiety and depression ever since my teenage years. It has been really bad at some stages (I'm talking masturbating 3-6 times a day pretty much every day of the week), pretty bad at...

I wanted to share an article about the possible side effects from meditation, so anyone who is recovering from PMO addiction can decide , if it is good idea to start meditation, or not! I think this is the fair play, just as people should be warned before they take medication with possible...

Not really too sure what the difference between PIED and severe PIED, but I am pretty sure mine is pretty serious. I have been watching P and M for 10 years, and even played some online games that probably didn't help with it (ERP games). I just want to know, will stopping PMO cure my PIED 100%...

Hello Fapstronauts, I developed a fetish with video game characters at a young age, specifically those in fighting games. This sexual abnormality has grown with me all the way from around 3rd grade to graduating from college. Throughout those years, I've had three girlfriends and sexual...

Brothers, I am but a lowly Fapstronaut Recruit roughly 2 weeks into my abstinence from P and M after using it chronically (1-2 times daily, sometimes every other day, depending on stress levels at the time) for nearly half of my life (29 yrs old). Since my start of NoFap I have been scouring...

I made this topic as I see many people who suffer from prolonged withdrawals, paws, and kindling often looking for help in the from of antidepressants. Please do your own search first about SSRIs's (antidepressants) long lasting side effects! "What is post-SSRI sexual dysfunction? Post-SSRI...

I am 27 years old and 21 days into NoFap. I'm really struggling with depression and anxiety since quitting 21 days ago. Porn has never been an issue for me- I have never watched porn. But previously I was masturbating 1-3/4 times a day. Physically controlling myself hasn't turned out to be the...

I was on a 400 day streak when i relapsed and PMO'ed. After that i was 30 days clean and fapped again (no porn), then three days later fapped again (no porn) and then a week later again. This week later was yesterday, and i relapsed with porn.. i felt like shit this last time i fapped. Is my...

I was clean for 400 days and then relapsed (3 months ago) since then i always keep relapsing after a week or two.. I just relapsed again with porn and orgasm. Help guys, i feel like shit again I felt amazing this entire day and now that i fapped again it got worse. Worst relapse I've had today

-I had the worst case of premature ejaculation and problems with keeping an erection to the point i would start ''masturbating'' to get it up,normally when that happened and i got to the point of getting the erection i would usually imediatelly ejaculate,i was living a nightmare and the worst of...

I'm such a piece of shit. That's it. I'm worthless.

Hey guys, understand this. Covering the following issues: 1. Dealing with performance anxiety. 2. Dealing with fetishes. 3. Dealing with PIED. 4. Feeling depressed. Solution guide step by step: It's all in the head, every single problem exists in your mind. It got there because of certain...

I can safely say that I managed to make it 32 days without PMO. Today I relapsed due to insurmountable waves of anxiety,dread and an overall a feeling of emptiness. The positives: *Deeper voice * A no-give-a-fuck attitude * A little more peace (possibly placebo) The negatives...

I'm gonna keep this short and simple. I'm 16, have pmo'd my entire life, and, obviously, faced the consequences of such actions. I have developed fetishes I did not have before porn, such as gay porn and transgender porn, however, I only find myself attracted to feminine looking types. I have...

Hi, my name is Rustam. I live in Uzbekistan. I heard about Nofap last fall. And since November I have not stopped trying. My record is 13 days. But rarely I can stand for even 4 days. Now it's my 13-th day I am 27 years old. i am an actor in theatre. My problems are depression, mindfog and...

Hello everyone and im happy i joined here. A year and a half ago i was diagnosed with depression,OCD,social anxiety,Paranoid schizophrenia and psychosis. I've been on many medications including zoloft(sertraline),fluoxetine,fluvoxamine, haloperidol,perphenazine and etc. I was faping since i...

Hello this is my first post here. So I am teen 15 years old and I have Social Anxiety,speech problems and depressipn.I was always shy when I was child but i think my shyness got worse when I started fapping (at 11 or 12 yr). I am fapping like 1-2 times a day and after i fap i feel social anxiety...

So this morning is day 11 and I'm finding it super hard to ignore the urges, I'm succeeding so far but I was hoping things would start to get easier at this point. I think I've had a problem for maybe 10/15 years that's probably escalated in the past 7/5 years and now that I'm recently single...

I've had a panic attack 1 month ago due to nofap withdrawals and the binge ive had right before it. It slowly got better and in third week i felt completely normal. That 'normal' also brought back my pmo addiction and i started binging again amd again this time not even being able to go more...

OK, I'm back after a few (more) failed starts. Basically, as far as I can tell, I'm pretty much hooked on dopamine. I've been using porn and food to give my brain a boost and buffer low emotions. This is worst in the winter (I suffer from reasonably severe seasonal depression) and tends to lift...

I've been a porn addict for 20 years. It's escalated over time and gotten really bad. I'm convinced that I have PIED, but that may be all in my head. I have a lot of difficulty trying to initiate relationships with women. I've had very few sexual encounters in my life. I feel hopelessly behind...

It's been quite some days since I started my current streak. but the problem now is, during sleep I'm getting these images of naked women. And while watching just normal women on social media, I'm getting these traces of semen at the tip of my penis. Not ejaculation of course. I swear I didn't...

What was the one moment, the one thing, that made your entire self conscious go downhill? And I don't mean necessarily whether that means you're still depressed from it or not, or if it still affects you. But something that definitely changed you, and made you go down a downward spiral that...

Today marks my 48th day of abstaining from porn, masterbation and orgasm. However, my brain fog is still severe, my depression hasn’t improved (arguably worse than before) and I have very low energy levels. I wouldn’t say I had a PMO addiction before beginning this journey but I always felt...

Hello. Tomorrow I'm going to school ending party. I'm nervous as hell. I'm on NoFap since 38 days but still have some social anxiety issues. I don't know how to dance. I never been really drunk, I'm scared that I might vomit or loose conciousness or do something stupid... Maybe it's all in my...

Hi everyone, I am new one here and this one is going to be long, probably, but I hope it will help me just to get this out of me. First of all I am completely confused and you will probably think that I am retarded after reading this. I may have some serious mental and psychical problems...

I'm 19 years old and I've been masturbating to porn daily since I was about 12 years old. At first I could get really hard erections without touching myself but now I can't get an erection normally without porn and I can only get a weak, fading erection if I touch myself whilst watching it. I...

Hi guys, I am new to the nofap community and i wanted to know what would it do for me if i stopped watching porn and masturbation, the only reason I am here is because i have several problems like... 1. lack of energy every day + i can't focus and commit to my everyday goals 2. anxiety, repeated...

Hi! I love to do pixel art, music and animations and would like to do this professionally. Last year I accomplished some minor success on Instagram and I feel like I am on a good way. I also play drums and reached a good level where I can make money with it. Not enough to make a living but a...

Male 52 years old My first experience with PMO was when I was about 10 years old. I went to stay with a family (for about two weeks) while my parents traveled overseas. I knew the family, not well, but well enough. What an eye opener that was! They lived on a farm, I lived in the city. They...

I've been doing no PMO for 7 days, and felt more energy, but also became weaker (at the gym). Then I relapsed 6 days ago, and now I don't feel the same effects than before. Since two or three days I feel awful. I got much weaker, need much more sleep and have no appetite. I don't enjoy anything...

Greetings from Czech republic, it is already 3 days that I think about writing short story about me here on nofap forum. For those that are trying to stop obssessive masturbation or watching disturbing porn videos or pictures I want to say that just to stop isn´t the ultimate way for the most...

Hey everyone just wanted some advice if possible. I started PMO back in around 7th grade or when I was 12. I’m 20 now and a lot has changed. I had absolutely no problems before I turned 16 or 17. That’s exactly when I started edging to porn though. I would do it once or twice a week for an hour...

Hey everyone, I am writing this to seek help to reboot myself from PMO addiction, and most specifically, side effects to the addiction to sex chats. I have a long (10 years maybe) history of roleplaying on sex chat platforms. I fapped every time I roleplayed. Over a period of time, my...

Hi guys, I'd just like to share an inside I got from a close school times friend of mine, who happens to be a md and a pharmacologist now. I read about chemicals being released during orgasm before, but didn't know how to connect all the dots. I told her about my past addiction and the symptoms...

When I first discovered edging, I thought that here was an escape from my depression. I thought at that time, after all, that depression and anxiety caused by PMO were linked mainly to the "O". And at first, it seemed I had in fact stumbled on something almost miraculous. I would edge while my...

I will list activities that I found work best for me against withdrawal symptoms, and help my nervous system to recalibrate, so i do not have to rewrite these in seperated posts for people. My goal to offer valuable activities, and tecniques to anyone who whish to help their recovery...

Hello, I am new to this community, 21 years old male and addicted to catfight fetish. Here's how my journey of this addiction started. At the age of 10-12 i used to enjoy watching WWE Women's matches. Never had access to internet at this age. At the for 13 I started reading catfight stories on...

Hi guys, today is 14th day This period I'm having a strong frustration, depression and sadness But the most hard thing I'm facing is being unstable emotionally For example I met one of my friends I feel she's good and feel I may full in love with her but when I go away and think about her or...

Well hello there, fellow fapstronauts. For the sake of anonymity, just call me David. I'm a german 26 years old guy from germany, currently in an IT apprenticeship. In my free time I play the electric guitar (Metal, Deathcore and stuff), I'm even playing in a band right now and we just released...

I'm in such a deep hole right now I've no clue where to turn. I've recognized that I have a problem. I am addicted to porn and masturbation, but previous solo attempts at nofap have not yielded success. Just recently, after some bad experiences trying to get into the dating game, I've fallen...

...today I got hit by severe depression...almost feels like crying and feeling like sh*t. Still falling down this well of feeling alone...but I know that this kind of cold turkey treatment may be necessary...falling back to old habbits may cause more depressions... Fortunately I never lose my...

Cheers dudes! Almost cried this morning at work because of nothing. Was also anxious all day. Went to the gym in the evening and beat the shit out of that bloody basterd son of bitch flatline!!!

When I first started nofap I managed to have my longest streak. It only took one relapse to get right back where I started. I feel like there’s no way out. I used to get on here and post things or comment on others. Now it seems like I just get on here to change the day counter. My depression...

It's gotten to the point I don't even feel lonely, depressed, and anxious BECAUSE of the addiction, but now it's the only reason I even go back to PMO. I feel lost and confused. I don't know who I am. I look in the mirror and see a complete stranger. I'm such a mess... I feel so disgusting when...

Does anyone else really feel like a lost soul or am I the only one? Relapsed again... Right now I'm feeling kind of like a lost soul. I'm struggling with friendships right now and socializing with people. Nothing good or bad is happening in my life and it feels just like a fucking flat line. I...

Okay listen.....the USDA website claims that magnesium deficiency is rare, But if you look on any kind of peer reviewed science journal, majority of them claim that ~48% of people in the US are magnesium deficient. USDA claims that the normal human being generally eats ~300mg of Mg per day...

Hey guys. I have made an experience worth a new thread: If I don't fap to porn (or fap without) for one or two week, I felt like on the Streets out there, I am way more aggressive. I don't feel very comfortable with that. I know that everytime I get back to PMO, I get depressed, get headache in...

Hey this post will illustrate what I've gone through and provide some insight into what I've noticed about Nofap. Started watching porn age 12-13, grew up alongside high-speed internet. My parents had money so we had a computer early on. I used to alternate between gaming late at night and...

Hi, After nearly a thousand attempts and failures, I have realized that I probably do not have enough willpower to quit an addiction. 12 Days now, Goal 90 Days. If I don't see any benefits after succeeding, I'm done with Nofap. Starting Nofap to Pre flatline- Good and bad days( mostly bad...

Hi, What I mean is that a lot of times I relapse, the thoughts right before are thoughts of "I have to PMO or else my life will be meaningless (or else I will be worthless, or else I will have succeeded nothing)...etc...illogical fears, but aren't they generally illogical? I need help still...

Addiction and hoarding. My BF has had an addiction since late teens which he is struggling with, but we think he may also have issues with hoarding - storing large quantities of P, not letting go. This has likely caused issues with previous reboot attempts and I was wondering if anybody else has...

Hello all, My boyfriend has been using P since his teen years and has spent the last 2 1/2 years in and out of recovery (mostly out). In May he decided to re-boot after I discovered another relapse. He was binge viewing and downloading. He started a reboot which lasted 59 days. His initial...

I am mainly addicted to softcore and nude models. Often, the model is wearing what looks like an engagement ring and it really depresses me. I realise that they have a boyfriend and a real life and are probably just doing this for money or attention. Then there is a loser like me who has been...

Heya, I'm currently on day 47, and recently I've been feeling quite depressed. Some days I feel like I don't want to do anything. I feel irritable, then angry, then sad, for no reason. I've read up on the flatline multiple times, and assumed that I've probably reached this stage of the NF...

By bipolar I mean every hour you swinging back and forth from feeling euphoric and like you're the king of the world to feeling like absolute garbage with no hope for the future. This always happens to me for a day or two after breaking the streak. I know that drugs can exacerbate the symptoms...

Hi guys. This is the thing: I didn't know where to write this, as I'm kind of a noob to the forum, so I put it here, as I think it is part of "rebooting". First of all, please, ignore my bad English. Sometimes, I don't know how to express my thoughts, and I say this because this has turned on a...

I never saw myself resorting to an open forum for porn addiction. I’m 26 years old and have been attempting NoFap for about 2 years at this point. I’ve Never been a compulsive fapper but a steady 1-2 times a day fapper...since I was 14 years old. I feel the symptoms of anxiety and...

Hello guys.. hance I dont want to waste your time by explaining the whole story so let me get to the point.. I`ve been struggling with anxiety issues for past 5 years so far, I used to have pure OCD (repeatively thinking, ruminating about things insie my head).. also had other assosiative...

Each one of has has a different way to go through in this journey of Nofap. In our healing we can recognize similar patterns, also similar benefits and so on.Now l am at 42 days hard mode. Not refapsed, not edging. Not peeking. But tempted. When it comes to Flatlining l am experiencing something...

(Sorry, if my English is bad.) I relapsed today again. It was just too much pressure. One year ago, I learned about NoFap and started it. In this year, I had about 20 relapses and always felt bad about it (one time, I felt so bad, I wanted to kill myself). Before every relapse, I distracted...

Hello, this is my first publication yesterday I relapsed after my best streak of 7 days PMO, it is very little, but it is not easy to get there for an addict, yesterday I did PMO 3 times in a span of 24 hours. I am afraid of not being able to get out of this shit and make the situation worse I...

I relapsed 2 days ago with an 25 day streak. Now I am having extreme difficulty getting back on the streak. I am trying to abstain from porn but i find it extremely hard now. It is a lot easier to relapse. I think my brain is thinking "Fap not or otherwise you will start a streak and stay away...

Hey Ladies and Gentleman. This is just a post that I'm just feeling kind of like a loss at life right now. Mainly as if I'm going no where, but trying to enjoy things the best I can. It's been difficult this past year as many of my friends and family members are all getting married and either...

Part 1/4: Hello all fapstronauts! This long post (or novel rather) is dedicated to all of you out there who are: currently struggling with PMO-addiction, those of you who are getting control over it and to those of you who have more or less mastered it. I make absolutely no judgment based on...

Hello, first of all I'd like to introduce myself as I'm a complete newbie on this forum. I am an engineering student (at university). Sorry if this post is a bit too long or contains unnecessary/redundant information. I am posting it here with hope that somebody who was (is?) in a similar...

As you can see from my counter it has been half a year since I've stepped on the monk mode path. I have mixed feelings when looking back. It has been far from glorious ride so far. It's more like a steep exhausting mountain climb, without sight of the top. Here are some my observations so far...

I feel like I've tried everything to get through this but the main thing getting in my way has been my self. It always has been. I almost went a whole month this time but I fell apart. Here's my mini story. I'm 25 years old and every since I was about 8 I've suffered from both anxiety and...

Hey all..I am an 18 year old guy and it's been about 80 days since I started nofap. To be honest, the journey so far has been shit. And it's even worse now. My sexual desires are so high I can't even focus on my studies. In addition to that, I get bouts of depression occasionally. Also I broke...

To start things off I have never been suicidal so that's not the case here. I instead feel empty and lost in life. I just came back from a four day college tour trip which ended with going to a large theme park along with over 70 of my best friends. I just graduated high school on May 31 so...

Here goes my story: I'm schizophrenic. I take medication but angry, mocking, cruel voices are still there all the time and the truth is, I can't bring myself to believe they're not real. I also have chronic depression which brings suicidal thoughts and a crushed, awful feeling of pain and...

Hi guys, It's my 42nd day of no PMO. I've had some streaks in the past that lasted at most two weeks. I was addicted to porn since I was about 15. I was in denial about how addicted I was. When I tried dating girls, I noticed things weren't working out. My addiction had changed my perceptions...

Very shortly about myself - 29, male, had porn addiction since I was 14. Screwed up by gay porn. HOCD. Fell in love big time with a girl when I was 17, was too anxious/shy to initiate sex so it never happened. Another attempt to have sex at 22 was a fail - I was very very drunk and couldn't get...

Hi there, This is going to be a confessional and rambling post. I'll try not to tell my whole life story but it could get there! I'm 22 years old and recently started a challenging job as a teacher in the United Kingdfom. I can't be more specific. I am I suppose technically a virgin - more on...

Has anyone ever felt a sudden overwhelming feeling of sadness. I'm usually an optimistic person but ever since my "friends" cut me off and blocked me on social media ive been feeling very lonely and betrayed. I'm currently day 2 of nofap and on a journey to better myself but today I felt really...

Hi fellow fapstronauts, I'd like to share a thought that crossed my mind while my depression and anxiety deepens on daily basis. I've been in monk mode for 4 months now and one thing became clear to me. Abstention removes blisters covering your mental wounds. Unaddressed problems resurface and...

Hi guys, I joined a while back but was not able to stick to this. The last few days I've been really trying to stop but it's consuming me. A bit of background, I'm a hard worker, spending most of my time working, however, as a student, that work is done at home, which is a prime spot for...

Hello guys! Im 19 years old i have been on my rebooting process since like 5 months first streak was 24 days, second was 30 and now im at day 90 of my third streak well i had some benefits at the begging but after like day 40-50 i started feeling like shit im too weak, no energy, anxious...

Hi fellow Fapstronauts I'd like to ask you how to stay on recovery path when depression and anxiety hits you hard. I've had preexisting depression/social anxiety which I don't blame PMO for but some childhood trauma (well, long daily binge PMO sessions for nearly 2 decades made it even worse...

It's my 3rd time reaching past day 50. The longest streaks I've had were 62, 60, and 42. Each time, I had brain fog between days 30-40 which always cleared up and I felt amazing afterwards. This time [DAY 56], I had some fog at day 35. Around day 46, I fell really sick and still recovering at...

hey guys, I just wanted to introduce myself and wanted to say what a supportive community you have here. I have been dealing with porn addiction since i was 12 years old. I am now 29 married to a beautiful woman and expecting a bub soon. Porn is ruining my life. I have tried abstaining for a...

Hi all Just found this place and wondering if my porn addictions are connected to how I am with women... I’m 38 never married, had several long term relationships but they have always got to the point where I’m bored of the sex... in between these relationships I’ve slept around, and it’s like...

Hey guys, I have been dying for the past few days. I just was randomly hit with a wall of anxiety a few days ago, out of nowhere. I wasn't even slightly anxious before that. I have been having panic attacks and been fearful that I am going crazy. I have dealt with this some in the past, but...

I swear that any time I spend time on the computer I get restless legs. I'm already in serious nofap withdrawal and am limiting my EMF exposure for this reason. Apparently EMF radiation poses certain health risks. From what I've read online Steve Jobs prevented his kids from spending too much...