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I consider myself fairly open when it comes to sharing the specifics of my PMO struggle with others. I've told at least one person at some point about every single one of my fetishes when I've been asked to, including taboo ones (hentai, rule 34, yiff, even loli)... except for one. There's one...

Whenever I go to view the newest posts here, I find myself reading the first posts of newbies. After a while they seem to all sound the same: Argh, I’ve been struggling with PMO addiction for 7 years. My girlfriend cried when I couldn’t get it up, and now I’m depressed all the time and anxious...

Hello, I have been reading the forum for a while now, but now I have to write myself, because I need your help. Currently I am 19 years old, I started to mastrubate when I was 13/14 years old to pictures of women or fantasies. At that time my real sexual attraction to women started and I got...

Hi guys! I will try to keep it as short as possible. Basically, I'm a 22 year old college student, right now this is actually the end of my undergrad studies and I'm working hard on my thesis. The problem is, I don't know what to do next, I want to continue my academic career, but the degree...

Hi guys! I will try to keep it as short as possible. Basically, I'm a 22 year old college student, right now this is actually the end of my undergrad studies and I'm working hard on my thesis. The problem is, I don't know what to do next, I want to continue my academic career, but the degree...

Mostly people that I don't know well. Women more than men. I think it's more that I feel unsecure and unwell in my own skin when I meet with strangers that I actually fear the strangers. I'm not sure about my role, I can't express myself well, I reflect a lot what I'm doing instead of just being...

It's a closing circle. I finally reached 90 days of no PMO just when you decided to leave... So, this is my story. I came to this forum many times in the past years. In late 2019 I was searching for an AP group of gay people. In this group, I met K. K. has become my AP partner. We used to chat...

Counter: 378 days no PMO, semen retention It's been some weeks since I started to make cold approaches, it's my first time doing it. I used to be more into dating apps. So far it's being a success and I've become better and better as I do it more. But after the first approach to a girl I...

Hi guys, I was listening to Jordan Peterson this morning. He talked about fears and their important place in setting up your life's goals. Anyone else here listen to Dr. Peterson? Anyway, he talked about having to place some fears behind you. To have them right hot on your tail. So they...

(18m) I've been in flatline for around 40 days now, and its been getting to me real bad. No sex drive, more anxiety, light depression, broken penis, low motivation, cant think straight, etc. To make things worse I can't even get much sunlight nor socializing now because of quarantine in winter...

Very lost. Made mistakes. Not a troll. Just can’t communicate. Think I have Asperger’s syndrome . Alone all my life. There’s no purpose for my existence. HS sucks. Social anxiety sucks. Mental illness sucks. Pedophillia sucks. Being retarded sucks. I hope I die in a car accident. You guys must...

So here we are, relapsed again. A tissue full of cum in one hand, a tiny limp piece of meat in the other. Fuck this shit, i thought i slayed the dragon a long time ago but it still lives in me. This will be a story about falling down and getting up, because everybody does sometimes. Let me tell...

This streak has been absolute hell from the first week until now and I'm losing my mind. I have constant panic day in day out, I'm talking speaking in front of 100 people anxiety levels. Whenever I go outside my anxiety skyrockets and I get anxiety attacks. I can't even think straight, my head...

As I am typing this I feel like I am going to have a panic attack. Nothing is happening, literally nothing. I am just sitting here, typing this post yet my anxiety is through the roof. It's constant, day in, day out. Some days it's worse than others but it is always there, this intense...

So last night I found myself walking into the emergency room, on account of I had lost all sensation in the head of my penis 5 days ago. I assumed I was just diabetic because I had a lot of other symptoms commonly associated with type 2 diabetes (thirst, hunger, sweating, frequent peeing, etc)...

Hey everyone! I dont know if this was the right category to post this but here goes. I've been struggling with PMO for quite a while and I think that the main cause is my abusive childhood. I went through quite a bit of bullying and abuse and as a result I developed a subconcious...

Hello my name is OBY. I am a porn addict. I remember the first time I tried "NoFap" I didn't even think I was addicted it was more towards trying to get rid of a bad habit while enjoying the "NoFap Benefits" people talked about. My first time trying NoFap ever was 2.5 years ago. I was able to...

Something I've always noted being affected since my addiction started back when I was 11 is my self confidence. I've always been a quiet and somewhat timid person even before my addiction. But I've noticed since the addiction started I've had to work extra hard to push myself to do things. This...

There is a guy who bullies me everytime he sees me. And physically, I am stronger than him but idk why I can't fight back. This makes me feel miserable and causes reset/relapse. Please help!! How do I fight back. How do overcome the fear of fighting. I have never fought before with anyone.

Hello again, So. He promised that he won't do it again. (Just so it's clear: I didn't want him to promise that, as I knew there was a huge risk of him breaking that promise. He really wanted to do it. So he did.) But then he didn't keep it. We're in a long distance relationship, and since I...

And here I am again... So hello everyone. I'm writing in one of these moments of panic, despair and doubts because of my bf's PA. Sometimes I feel like I'm running out strength to face this thing. I'm struggling with my body image and have obsessive fear of abandonment which doesnt make it...

Hello everyone, I'm just putting it out there in hope to find some clarity, if not some answers. My boyfriend's porn addiction is a struggle for both of us. He's one of the ones who recognized long ago that he has a problem and he wants to solve it. He wants to quit, for good, but so far, there...

I've been looking around on youtube and stuff for the cure to pied and I just gotta know if it is possible for pied to be healed over time. I've been smacking the chicken on and off for at least 5 years and does anyone know if that means I'm too far gone? AI've only just beginning my streak and...

Hey. I found this thread and decided to tell some of my problems with communicating with women. I was always afraid of approaching girls or even chatting with them , but then accidentally a girlfriend came to my life. By saying accidentally I mean that my friend invited me to a party and...

Hey guys, for as long as I can remember I've been afraid most things like all small children. In time, my friends would grow up to not be afraid of things such as horror films, unnerving images or rollercoasters but I am still so terrified of them. I've watched around three horror films in my...

Hello ın august ı was in gym and a dude stared at me and ı was really scared because ı thought he is gay.And after that day ı am really afraid of being gay and ım in paranoia.I know ım straight because ı have currently a crush and back than ı loved a girl but ı cant get over that.ın a web site ı...

I don't know why and how, but it happens to me that I get anxious when something associated with numbers 3, 6, 7 and the numbers containing the above the digits like 23, 26, 27, 33, 36, 37.....appear somewhere. I know it's nonsense to worry about these numbers, but i get anxious for no reason...

I've relapsed today and this is causing my OCD to get out of control. When I did a 26 day streak which is my longest in past 5 years, i got my OCD problem under control. But ever since I relapsed, i have been on a binge which is causing my OCD to get worse. Moreover I'm thinking that this is the...

Guys its been around 25 days since i started nofap. Even though i can get sex easily im doing hardmode to get the full benefits. Never thought i would reach this stage but i fell for a girl few days ago in my office and we talked and walked together whole time during breaks.That made it a bit...

I'm tired of PMO-ing every time I feel guilty or see something provocative. My inner critic is TOO LOUD. I'm 31 and cannot shut these thoughts. Guilt from staring a bit longer at a woman, guilt from procrastination, being late to a social gathering, not answering someone's phone call or message...

Hi, What I mean is that a lot of times I relapse, the thoughts right before are thoughts of "I have to PMO or else my life will be meaningless (or else I will be worthless, or else I will have succeeded nothing)...etc...illogical fears, but aren't they generally illogical? I need help still...

I will write my thoughts down when I feel afraid or anything like that. So I can see them and get angry at them and not myself. To see how much I suffer from procastination. In order to watch my thoughts from a distance to understand how wrong and emotional driven they are. I don't want to...

It's been a long ride... tomorrow will be your last day together with me... I know, I know ... you won't be gone completly but... that's okay :) Thank you... for trying to protect me... I know you never wanted to harm me in any way. You were there when I felt alone... Thank you... but you know...

I feel like I keep falling into the same traps over and over. My masturbation and porn addiction has been around for about 20 years. I started out with pictures in the late 90s and as videos became available I started downloading and collecting and organizing/rating them. 95% of porn videos...

I am 24 years old. I have been masturbating since i was at 8th grade. I discovered Masturbation by accident, i would say. The problems i face since then was..social anxiety..fear of public speaking...sweating heavily when i gather the attention of a crowd on myself. I also sweat when i talk to...

Hey everyone, I am currently on day 18, my longest streak ever without masturbating or watching porn, and I'm having a bit of a rough time. I'm not in any danger of relapsing, but I am feeling pretty down about everything. I have been feeling extremely anxious and nervous about my future, mostly...

My partner is now over 77 days PM free and in terms of his life, things are sincerely looking up. He has a new routine going to the gym and completing a daily checklist to make sure he’s on top of things he wants and needs to do. I’m pleased with his progress but I feel like I’ve been left by...

There are many reasons I've relapsed. Its frustrating when it happens after a good streak. If I've gone at least several days its not even triggers that cause me to go down the rabbit hole. I'm starting to realize now that there is a part of me that is scared to give up PMO. The urges and...

Hi there, I've been an excessive masturbator for 14 years (now im 26), and maybe 6-7 years ive been living with physical weakness, anxiety/panic attacks, and heart palpitations. I've been reading alot whats the side effects of masturbation, and the nervous system is affected also. When you get...

Hello all, I haven't posted until now but I'm pretty shook about this. I'm about 7 days in and had multiple nightmares last night, all deeply terrifying. When I'm not on nofap I don't dream at all. But now that I am dreaming it feels like a curse with these nightmares. I had one where I...

I admitted to my wife that I'm addicted to porn on Saturday night. Since then, it's been a struggle for the two of us to communicate, and it feels like every time we have spoken, some new piece of information to her has emerged that has pushed her even further away. The result of this is that I...

"A man's mind may be likened to a garden, which may be intelligently cultivated or allowed to run wild; but whether cultivated or neglected, it must, and will, bring forth. If no useful seeds are put into it, then an abundance of useless weed-seeds will fall therein, and will continue to produce...

So last week sorta out of the blue a colleague offered me a job at his startup with a sizeable equity stake. This never would have happened when I was still PMO crazy. I sent out an email asking him for a client reference due to a job search that turned into an offer within days. It's still...

Hello lads, I am not sure if my post belongs to this category. I havent had sex for 3 years +something more. The reason was low confidence because of weight gain and loss of interest because of psychiatric meds. Now i have quit the meds and losing weight gradually, but my self esteem and...

Hi Everyone, I have recently recovered from prone masturbation habits and am currently on day 11 of my NoFap journey. Currently, i do feel strong craves for porn and some anxiety, but i am holding it down nicely. Anyway, ever since the age of about 15, i have always been stuck in my head! I...

I haven't masturbated since Sunday. Which is good; I'm happy about that. I felt like I had to start "hard mode" because porn was really causing serious problems in my life. I feel like it's always caused problems. I found myself masturbating for 3-6 hours sometimes. It ate up massive portions of...

English is not my first language, hope it makes sense anyway So basically I am reading this book called No more Mr. nice guy by Robert Glover, and in this specific chapter he talks about how sexual shame and fear are some of the biggest reasons as to why nice guys rarely have satisfying sex...

Hey. I really want to improve myself in many ways during this journey. I started to vape instead of smoking cigarettes, decreased the amount of weed weekly, I'm eating better food and drinking a lot of water (I used to drink, like, a glass of water per day??) So I want my next step to be some...

It's only been 4 days since my dad left me. I'm sharing my story on this forum because I've found it's a space for me to open up. Little context: my dad was 58 when he died of a sudden heart attack and I'm 20 years old. Pretty young, huh? I want to document this stage of my life to be able to...

Hi NoFap community, Hi everyone this is my 9th day of no pmo and I have started feeling withdrawal symptoms they are really worst. I am feeling anger, anxiety, nervousness, depression, and totally unmotivated I am fed up of this. This is totally as shit. I wanted to know till how many days...

hi, masturbation has involved my whole life. I also masturbated as a child rubbing myself with a pillow. now the situation is getting worse. I'm addicted to sissy porn and submission in general, I use masturbation and junk food to punish myself (fortunately I do a lot of sport and I can keep...

I am suffering from brain fogs. It's depressive. I can't think properly, my memory is low almost gone. Trouble remembering etc etc. I'm terrified and I got panic attacks because of this. I always worry I have brain tumor or other incurable disease. It makes me can't function normally and people...

I'm planning on going back to the gym today after 4 months off. The reason I took 4 months off was because there were these 2 other guys there that always put me down. They put me down because I looked better than them and they were jealous. Everyone in the gym knew me as the "jacked teen." I...

I want to improve my social skills and get more comfortable in any social situation. I think a good way to do is, is by talking to strangers. This way I will go out of my comfort zone and I have an opportunity to practice small talk. Therefore, I decided to create this challenge of talking to 3...

Hi, I'm a teenager. I'm addicted to PMO as hell. I couldn't stop it. When I tried to stop, it happened for a while. It took me back with twice affect. I fapped again again and again so hard. I was like mad on it. Each time after I'm done with that I regrets as usual. After 5-10 mins...

ive been sober for a while now, and I have little to no craving for PMO currently. I do still have mental lust and some fantasy if I see skimpy clothing etc... Yesterday and today I have had almost panic attack moments that I’m afraid that because I’m feeling a little better it is me just lying...

As Bruce Lee once said, you have to be happy but never satisfied with who you are. This means that in order to always go forward in your life you need to A) be at peace with yourself and B) always look for more. We always have goals and dreams in our life, so what we do is create expectations...

Familiar phrase right? Maybe you've heard of people going through a lot of shit in their day by day life, when everything just seems to get worse everytime until finally they get where they wanted to be. I've heard from people who hit "rock bottom" as in poor, no home, no food, no friends, no...

Hi guys, Trying this out. 24 year old male with a really good life. High paying job, decent looking, get to workout every day and stay fit. Should be really happy, but I'm not thanks to a lingering porn addiction that I realize now has been stifling my potential for years. It's gotten its...

On Friday night, I realised that I had spent 5 hours masturbating. I even forgot dinner. As I lay on my bed, naked and ashamed, feeling dirty and guilty - I realised I needed to make a real change. A meaningful one. This is the start of my story. I am two people. The person I am to the world...

Hello guys. Please let me tell you my short story: I am 25, and have been an addict for 15 years. At the beginning I would watch just some very basic porn. But curiosity led me further and further. Later curiosity turned into a need. When wanking 3 times a day, basic lesbian stuff wasn't...

Hello guys Again I have to deal with some anxious thoughts. This time I think a lot about my college and if I can succeed or not. I always try my best to study but actually going to college has been a big issue for me. Previous year (way before NoFap) I had a very specific anxiety which I...

What you have done to me has caused irreversible damage. Damage so deep even i cant find it within myself. No matter how much i bandage it or put it past me, it bleeds its way to the forefront of my brain as if i could see the pain visually with substance. There is an irrefutably empty hole...

I lost another battle again today. Spent money on porn and masturbated. Afterwards, my body went in this sense of stress that caused body parts to twitch or move on their own. I am not an expert of what happens in the brain due to YEARS of unhealthy sexual habits, but has anyone else...

I just reached a full moth of NoFap, a freaking month. It's so amazing. I'm improving on a lot of aspects of life, and having been away from PMO for so long has made think a lot more about life and how we live. This post won't be about tips, advise, dating, social anxiety, or other type of...

still have my hesitations...worries...fears. i feel like he's being serious about this recovery, but i don't know if he's making/taking the steps. it scares me. what if he's hiding it from me again? i have all the precautionary things added (parental controls, etc.) i check his history and if i...

Hello, I've been masturbating many times a week since I was 9. I discovered porn at 13 and I started PMO it was nearly eveyday, sometimes even many times a day... (Up to 12) It was just so normal whenever I couldn't do somthing whever I felt bad or stressed even homework or some shitty games it...

Hi, my name is Tom, I have been using pornography in different shapes and forms for more than 40 years. That sounds like a huge number of years! I am 55 now, so I started pretty early on. My stepfather who I grew up with was an alcoholic and my mum was trying to hold it all together. I started...

Hi, everyone I am a newbie to the concept of NoFap. My longest streak and that too at the first trial was 30 days(felt really proud about that). Since my relapse after the first trial, I have never been able to reach up to that mark, have read posts here also about relapse and motivation and...

Hello to all, I just signed up and glad that I found this community. Despite being 30 years old, only recently have I realized that this is a major issue and a big problem. Having read a lot of material about the issue I have to confess that I feel terrified and grasping for any strands of hope...

I posted this in another category and I am pretty sure it was the wrong one so I brought it to here. I hope it is appropriate now. I have been struggling with PMO for almost 14 years and in my times of abstinence, I am greatly aware of the improvements. Yet sometimes, for reasons that do not...

Hello my fellow Fapstronauts, I've heard and read many times that disclosing our addiction to a trusted someone is an absolutely crucial/important step in successfully overcoming PMO addiction. However, the thought of letting a friend or loved one know about my addiction absolutely terrifies...

I just made an account because I can't handle it anymore. Over the past year I kept trying to stop watching porn. A few times I achieved a month without it, but like a rubber band, the longer the streak, the harder the relapse. With every relapse the stuff I watched became worse and worse...

PMO is an addiction. The drug? Lust. We use Lust to cover up unpleasantness. This can include anxiety, fear, loneliness, anger, etc.. But what of the superpowers? Our first and natural response to quitting PMO is hope. We discover some self-control over that which seemed uncontrollable...

Earlier today I received some notifications of people that read posts about the book 13 Things Mentally Strong People Don't Do by Amy Morin. Those posts were old (almost a couple years old) and I decided to go back through and read my old posts. It became more and more apparent that I have not...

I will try to keep my story as short as possible. I am 25 years old, Male. I have been masturbating since I was 11 so it's been like 14 years of this curse that is plaguing my life. At 17, I left home and went to university. I thought I would stop masturbating since I might not get proper...

I don't know if this is the right place to write this, but i must try. This my problem: i don't use my pc for porn because my parents some time need it. So i use my smartphone and i can find everything on that and it's hard to stop because i live with my phone: i have e-mails, ebay, amazon...

Yeah.... There is a huge elephant in the room and it is so awkward. The problems are; She is really shy, which makes conversation difficult I am not generally shy but I am when trying to communicate with her She is only 15 so I think I need to wait anyway. But I really like her, she is very...

Well I have heard of this movement for a while and have attempted this about a year ago, but my porn viewing was not overly excessive. For a couple of months now though I have had issues with getting an erection and even when I do get one it is only semi-solid at best...I also have had lack of...