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Hi 42 gay male here. I have been addicted and using sex, masturbation and porn since I was a young teen. It has always controlled me, and been my escape from reality. I gives me the feel good hit I need, but also the isolation and escapism from real life I crave. I have had lots of therapy, and...

I'm a 47 year old gay man who has masturbated every day, but over the past couple years it has really gotten out of control, mainly as a result of my obsessive p- consumption. For the past year or two, I've been having an average of 3 PMOs a day, which wasn't so bad, one when I woke up, one...

Heeey everyone, Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I am a gay guy from the Netherlands. Single and 33 years old. I am at a good stage in my live. I am feeling stable, but I found it very difficult to get away from online fun. I like to tease online with messages and sending...

Heeey everyone, Thank you for taking the time to read my message. I am a gay guy from the Netherlands. Single and 33 years old. I am at a good stage in my live. I am feeling stable, but I found it very difficult to get away from online fun. I like to tease online with messages and sending...

To preface, i'm 16 and fighting a porn addiction. I started around 11-12 and struggle to quit. From what I can remember, when I first started watching porn women did turn my on, but I can't recall a time where I had a strong erection with a real women. When ever I'm with a real girl my erections...

Hi I'm gay 17m looking for an accountability partner. My goals are to watch, jerk off, cum, only once a week. I have a very large sex drive (multiple times a day) and I want to slowly ease into my once a week goal. Why? I'm a very passionate, academic-driven teenager who will be applying to...

Hello guys, so somehow since last week when I had a big relapse I am relapsing again and again. I also seem to develop a sissy and trans addiction, I text with some random girls about anal stimulation and anal sex which is performed on me with a girl with a strapon or even a guy. So basically...

Is it true that after a while, you stop having the desire to watch porn? And that you no longer need to masturbate? I read here that after 90 days you have already overcome everything and I want to know if it is true, or if the desires never really go away. And those who no longer see it, do...

Hi all. Been here before with not much success but as No Nut November coming round the corner, it feels like the right time to try this again. I’m a 38 year old gay male who quite frankly has had a porn addiction since my early teens. It has been just fairly a constant addiction which I never...

Hi all! 31, male, USA, gay, engaged. I'm here because after a 90 day streak, I went on a 3 day binge last week. This is a true addiction for me. I specifically got into gooner/goon porn recently, which feels like an ultimate low. Glad to be here. I hope to join you all in succeeding through...

Hi :) im really stuck in a cycle of shame, which fuels my bad habit because i'm very into humiliation...im 24 and gay. I like tv, movies, music, nature, politics, travelling, arts, fashion, design, and cooking! I am also trying to get into yoga and working out. Some of my favourtie artists are...

New to NoFap and committing to Hard Mode (MPO) from today, for 30 days. Why? I've been using MP since my early teens, multiple/several times a day. My consumption of P has become more extreme in nature, and I recently resorted to risky sexual behaviour. The consequences this has had on my life...

Hey guys, I'm new to NoFap. I'm here to share my story which I bet, would be the most interesting story ever. For the preview, I'm a gay male, 31, who never had proper sex because, I gave up on my sexuality, romantic relationship, and any intimacy. I'm an Asian born in such a conservative...

Hey so how do I start. I’m a 37 year old gay man that has really known porn most of my life that I can remember. That has changed over the years for sure. I come from the time where dial up internet porn was king! Pixelated images and videos that took forever to load. All the control I needed...

As a 15-year-old gay/homosexual teen who has been doing NoFap for months, it has come to my attention that a lot, and I mean A LOT of people have tried telling me I might not be gay, etc and I might actually be heterosexual/straight, due to various reasons, such as pornography. First of all, I...

Hey Everyone! I'm 27 years old and I want to quit PMO. It's the first time I'm joining the community here. 4 days ago before signing up here I told myself I was gonna stop and I did for the last 4 days not a single fap but then I relapsed today and I just couldn't control myself. I didn't know...

I want to try and stop jerking off completely, and I have some questions: 1) I jerk off at least once a day (This November is an exception since I am attempting NNN). Is masturbating 1x a day okay/healthy? 2) I find that my jerking off might be unhealthy since I use it as a coping mechanism to...

I’ve been addicted to porn since a very young age. Even as far back in middle school I was already using porn compulsively. I didn’t have many friends and I always stayed in my house which led to doing nothing but watching pornography. Since then I can no longer get off to the thingsthat once...

Hello, I'm 30, from the uk and I'm suffering with pied big time. I really need someone to talk to. this isn't my first time doing nofap but its hitting me pretty hard this time round. I'm gay, from the uk and would love to meet likeminded people to talk to and, in return, also support on a...

I can't express how low and lonely I feel right now. I could really do with a friend who's going through the same thing to talk to, preferably someone also lgbtq+ but I obviously won't discriminate.

Hello everyone, i have discovered nofap and the fact that it is an addiction in december 2020. Now it is march 2022 and i am back at the beginning. Well not at the total beginning because I have gained alot of experience concering nofap and live improvement in general, but at the beginning...

I'm just having a little rant here cause I still feel some kind of contempt from being banned from a big nofap support group. I'm not new of s.r./nofap but I have been member of the facebook group for a long time. I was just trying to post a question if there were homosexuals in the group who...

Recently, I experienced my first episode of what I was told was dissociation. It came after seeing a guy I had gone on one date with and ended up giving me all sorts of mixed signals for over a month, to which I had finally pulled the plug and blocked him. Seeing him had brought up a lot of pain...

So I remember reading an article about 3 years ago where someone used their wife to quit porn. It would go something like this: Each week to two weeks you go up a step. Once a day at the most but no more. Do NOT try your hardest to cum, not the objective here. Only enjoy. DO NOT FANTASIZE. Do...

Ok so I've written posts about this before and I'm scared that I might be gay. Long stry short, I used to think I was straight, had crushes on women, dated women but had very little sex, instead I used to watch porn, show myself on cams etc... Eventually I started liking gay porn too, and that...

It's a closing circle. I finally reached 90 days of no PMO just when you decided to leave... So, this is my story. I came to this forum many times in the past years. In late 2019 I was searching for an AP group of gay people. In this group, I met K. K. has become my AP partner. We used to chat...

Hi all! Ive known for a while I should do something like this - indeed about 8 years ago I went through a successful reboot - and now it’s time for another go. I’m a 36 yo gay male in Australia. When I was 26 I was diagnosed with depression & anxiety and prescribed Zoloft. It’s been a godsend...

Hey, I feel smarter. My brain says maybe people who switch from straight porn to transgender and\or gay porn were emasculated or humiliated a lot in real life. Do you agree?

im a bisexual guy , i used to enjoy having sex with men and woman , i met a girl , she's the love of my life , we got married a year and a half ago , after that i unfortunately started using grindr , i had few months without a job due to covid crisis so had a lot of home alone time , i was on...

Hi all, I’m a gay guy in my 30s and I’m hoping to get a handle on my addiction to fetish porn. Vanilla porn does not interest me at all, I basically get off on anything which is degrading and disgusting. I’ve always been interested in piss and watersports ever since I was a teenager, but over...

I started looking at porn when I was really really young (like 7yo) the more I consumed the more hardcore it needed to be to get me off. At first it was a naked woman, then it was two naked women, then lesbians, then an orgy, then trannys Now I can only get off to gay stuff. The problem is I’m...

Hi, I'm a 25 year old gay male. I've been using porn since age 14 or so, and at least half of the P has been related to a specific fetish (macrophilia). I have been PMO once a day almost every day since then, and started doing PMO twice a day the last couple years, and I realized it was getting...

I know that title is super clickbaity but I’m pretty desperate for advice. I'm gonna try and be as brief as possible so you'll read through, but I'll elaborate on anything, just let me know. I am over 6 months into nofap hard mode(doing school remote from home so not much opportunity for...

Hey everyone, So this is my very first post, even though it's been some time since I've read some of the posts here and have really helped me through this journey of Reboot. First I want to talk about my personal experience with PMO. I read 'Your Brain on Porn' about two years ago and I was...

Hola, queridos compañeros de lucha. Este es mi testimonio de cómo el PMO arruinó mi vida. Recuerdo que era acosado desde pequeño por mi orientación sexual (soy gay), a medida que pasaba el tiempo me fui deprimiendo y cogiendo ansiedades nuevas con respecto al mundo exterior. Recuerdo que a...

Hello, dear fellow fighters. This is my testimony of how PMO ruined my life. I remember being bullied since I was little because of my sexual orientation (I am gay), as time passed I became depressed and took on new anxieties regarding the outside world. I remember in my early teens (when I was...

Hi there! I am a 26yr old bisexual man. I began watching porn around the age of 13, but it was within a household that the very act was made extremely shameful and was not talked about. My sex education consisted of what I was able to teach myself from a set of encyclopedias we had in our home...

Hi, guys today is 30th of my reboot. İ used to have thoughts about being gay in every reboot and in some times being pedophiliac but i didn't write about these thoughts before only the thoughts of being gay. A few weeks ago i was watching a movie about gay and pedophile it was infographic, so...

Nervous af, but here goes nothing. Hey guys, newbie here. 36 yr old gay black man from Philly. Started (regularly) watching porn in high-school & haven't stopped since. It started as a way for me to explore my sexuality w/out actually "doing" anything. Over the years tho it's become an addiction...

You know this topic. Its like every other on here... I've been doing this since I was 16 and nothing I do can help me stop blah blah blah... Luckily I'm a pretty happy person. Although i can get depressed when I do it too much. I lead a normal life, but I am not married yet and I think its...

Hello! Writing this all in plaintext, since I'm lazy. A story about me, and probably about you: I'm nearly 20. Started with porn at the age of 14, got into hardcore porn at the age of 16. Always had an affinity for animals, which actually led me to get into Furry fandom. From that point... it...

Hello everyone, I’m 19 year old who has big problem. For the past two years I’ve been trying to quit masturbation and porn. Well it’s been kinda unsuccessfully. First of all I started masturbating when I was 10. I was introduced to the porn while I was 9 years old, but I wasn’t that much...

Me presento mi nombre es David y desde los 9 años que "jugado con mi pene" después de un amigo me indico porno y yo lo veía cuando podía a los 12 años comencé a ver a un mas cada día luego aprendí masturbarme y lo hacia mucho enserio mucho, por ver mucho porno me confundí sexualmente llegue a...

So I started going to therapy to try and help myself out and thought I would ask you guys to see if there really is a connection. In plenty of psychology websites they talk about how trauma in early childhood can lead to addictions of all kinds. My mom was very hard on me. Like very strict. She...

I'm been PMOing since 11 years old till now (22). I was addicted to straight/lesbian porn, and somewhere along the way I found transwoman porn and eventually gay porn. Now gay porn is the thing that arouses me most. I discovered nofap and hocd stuff around 2 weeks ago and have tried numerous...

First of all thank you for accepting me on this forum, I had a 43-day streak last year and I stopped, now I'm on a 27-day streak because I'm too busy to fap 2 hours a day. When I was 7 (2003) I found one of my sisters' books, it was a gay one, I read all of it, I thought it was gross but it did...

I started reading these kinds of manga when I was 15, I was attracted to a boy my age, he was short and feminine, after ogling him for months I realized I couldn't just f*ck him so I started reading those types of manga. I've just realized I like BL because it provides me emotional support, same...

Ok, so... If i was unable to have sex, and then started the reboot, and now i can atleast "finish" the sex, i should continue to do it, in order to help the brain rewire towards real sex, right? So my question is... Lets say im not able to "finish" the sex, because my p doesnt stay 100% all the...

I am really sorry if this post does not belong here. I have what I'd call a severe porn and crossdressing addiction. I was about thirteen or so when I started to indulge in pornography almost daily, and it has taken severe consequences in my personal life. At the start, it was just the vanilla...

Hi i am 39 year old gay guy wanting to make new friends. I am getting bored i will put my Whatsapp number on here so you can in touch with me. Whatsapp number: +92 3086407304 Please text me i am getting bored. I will be waiting for you to text me.

So I've been feeling emotionally distant from my boyfriend recently. Btw I'm gay, not sure if that will affect the type of responses I get, but I welcome everyone. We've been dating for a month. For context, he and I went on two really awesome dates before quarantine while we were both on spring...

I'm a nerdy 27-year old dude who's never had any serious relationships (and afraid to get into one), can recount the few times I had sex as mostly bad memories, and for as long as I can remember I've always had a huge challenge with loving / accepting myself. After failing the 90-day hardmode...

Are there any gay/bi men, doing Semen Retention? (Preferably in the UK/London, no rebooters please) I've got some questions.

Recently I realized how often I was approached by gays in my life. When I was 17 it began with a guy who was really interested and was observing me like a pop star. Since then, it happens quite regularly that gays try to engage with me. Once I thought a guy just wanted to make friends and go...

I'm gonna keep this short and simple. I'm 16, have pmo'd my entire life, and, obviously, faced the consequences of such actions. I have developed fetishes I did not have before porn, such as gay porn and transgender porn, however, I only find myself attracted to feminine looking types. I have...

Not gonna give too much back story because it's pretty irrelevant but I'm a big guy 6'4 240lbs and 20 years old. I've always been attracted to girls but one time when I was 14, I was watching porn and to my surprise, the girl whips a dick out. Immediately I thought "oh shit, that's gay" and...

soooo im starting nofap because well ive tried before to quit pm before but have never been truly successful, my addiction i believe started after my time in the navy during dont ask dont tell being a gay black male on active duty i didnt have much choice but to use porn to get my rocks off and...

35yo gay guy here. It was a guy's story on my alternative IG account, flexing in the mirror and showing off his muscular frame, that he had attributed to working out daily and NoFap that made me google "what is NoFap?" Suddenly I was opened to this world of rebooting and abstinence that I...

i'm a 19 yo middle eastern guy that have same sex feelings and i have no idea what to do with my life. i feel in bad need for emotional and social support, i got no one to talk to

in the place i live, being attracted to the same sex is deadly. i was studying in a public area and there was someone else studying that i really liked. i think we looked at each other several times. we did not talk at all. i felt we had something in common. something we can never talk about...

This is my first time actually posting in nofap. I have tried NoFap a couple of times but have never reached the 90 day mark. A couple years ago I got to day 60 and then relapsed. I kept using PMO for a while and just recently was able to get to day 44 before relapse. Right now I am on day 4...

Hey guys, I am a gay man, 45yo and have been in a relationship with a very patient partner for a long time now. We live in a big city where I have access to anything I could want from a sexual or any other perspective. I have always enjoyed wanking to porn. Over the past couple of years, my...

Hello Guys! I was wondering how long it took you to escalate into things you think are disgusting and bizarre, because im really confused that as i can remember after a short period (like one-two months) of watching porn i started watching some shitty stuff, is that’s normal?! Knowing that my...

I've started pmo 8 days now. And I've urgent gay thoughts, of having sex with a man. I've thoughts of sucking and riding a dick. I hate these urges which i didn't notice their intensity before. I used to watch straight and gay porn. I hope that I didn't get a way of being a gay, from which it's...

Im sorry if the question seems weird and offensive. I got nothing against the LGBT community. I have had HOCD in the past and now I feel its coming back. Also, i used to be addicted to gay porn and it took me a long time to recover from it. (i still am recovering). All this had given me HOCD...

i have spent over a year overcoming addictions and compulsions. first, it was substance-related. i had large buy-in to knowing the detrimental risks that i was taking and it was definitely helpful in overcoming the substance issues. i also had to overcome a serious love addiction and exit out of...

Hey! Its my first day. I have always wanted to be the person whose mind isnt dominated by the sexual thoughts but somehow have never been able to achieve so. I am gay and on the path of becoming comfortable with my sexual orientation, i became quite promiscuous, started using the dating app...

Okay, so I have been practicing nofap on and off for around 2 years now... initially struggling to go more than a couple of days before relapse. this was due to pied and also escalation to transgendered person porn, to sissy porn and then onto gay porn which caused serious HOCD. Even though I had had...

Hey Everyone! I decided to join this forum after looking for support groups on meetup and found none. So, I'm going to give my basic overview and my current goal is to read through more Newbies posts and give comments, support, and encouragement. I'd appreciate any feedback and support that you...

So this is day 41 for me on hard mode and without any relapses. I just woke up with my pants wet, after the most weird dream ever. The dream was weird af as it had gay penetration and I'm straight. So I'm really confused what the fuck just happened. I could never even tolerate gay porn even when...

I hope this place can help. I am a biological male who totally identifies as being feminine in almost every way. It is a long story how I got here, but I will make it short. I realize now that, I think, I was an experiment in a very twisted household. Raised by a passive-aggressive...

Hi. I'm gay. I'm turning 21 on the 21st. I live at home with my parents. I've been living at home for the last two years after dropping out after my first year of college. My days consist mostly of sleeping, thinking about sex & men, often half-awake, browsing the internet and watching porn...

So I (20M) have been an addict to weird fetish porn since I started masturbating, and I recently managed to go 3 weeks without looking at any porn. However, I found myself replacing the porn by looking at my muscles in the mirror. I know it sounds extremely narcissistic and/or gay, (which I...

Hello brothers. My name is Donato. It is a rare hispanic name that was popular many years ago. My grandmother wanted to go "old school" when she named me. It was her father's name also. They say that Donato means 'given by God'. I am a college student and do some work part-time. I love soccer...

Okay, so I'm a student and a son, 19 year-old. I consider myself as a weird man. Yes, I am gay, since I was a kid I knew that I am gay. I knew that I was attracted to my same sex and by that I cannot really enjoy my life. I know I'm gay but there's something inside me that fighting against it...

Hi, everyone! Nice to meet you all. I'm very excited about getting involved in NoFap community. I'm 16 years old male currently in school. I've been using porn since I was 12. Ever since that, I'd always feel gross and very guilty while masturbating and/or watching porn, even though I know that...

It has been a very interesting summer. Hurtful but full of valuable lessons. My gf left me 4 months ago and I went full on to sissy porn, It lasted for a few weeks and I realised that I can't live like that any more. So I gave everything up. After 2 months of nofap everything was much much...

Hello everyone, after explain the situation i want to apologize for my ortogtaphy, english is my second lenguage. Porn is destroying my self esteem, every time I see myself in the mirror I can only watch a pervert. I'm in a relashionship right now, I can't have a satisfactory sexual...

I‘ve been on NF now for almost 2 months. It was here on NF I came across that issue of not knowing wether one is bi, gay or straight (due to porn). I read quite a few threads and posts of guys scared to hell and shitting their pants cuz they are so confused they might be gay or bi, mixed up cuz...

Introduction I have read plenty of stories of other Fapstronauts and mine is not all that different than most, but very different in other ways. When I joined this network this morning, my goal was initially to educated myself as much as possible and the more and more I have read the more...

Hey Guys I just want to ask you some questions, but before i must tell some things about my sex life in real life and my porn habits. One year ago i saw a video where they talked about cuckolds. In this time i was really into cuckold porns and they sad that the cuckold is bi or gay. Then i...

My nofap trip so far has been unbelievable. I shouldn't say nofap because it's a lot more than that and actually I've customised this process to fit who I am. For the first week the fantasies and urges were unbearable. I would constantly think of sissy fantasies and cocks and would sometimes...

Hi im very sorry if this post is all over the place im 22 male ive been addicted to porn for probably almost 10 years it started with straight porn then trans then pegging then sissy and CDs and then led to gay. Porn has caused me to do things i would of never done before im on sex chat sites...

Hi guys! I'm a 23 yo, gay Male from Brazil. I guess I've been addicted to porn since I was 13 or 14. I've always thought maybe my relationship with porn consuming was problematic, but had never considered it an addicition until 2 days ago when I started searching the web to find ways to stop...

Hi guys,i'm new here,i felt the need to do a post since i'm like going crazy right now.I'm 26 years old and i'm in a relationship with a new girl right now since like november.The problem is the 1st time i tried to had sex with her i had no excitation at all,and obviously i had no way to have...

Hello everyone, While I am not completely new to the idea of curbing sex addiction, this is my first time being apart of the NoFap. I am a 27-year-old male living in Washington D.C. I would say I am 70% gay and 30% straight. I started regularly watching porn and masturbating from 10th...

I heard about NF on an NPR radio report on sexuality & decided to look into it — the contact information was in their show notes. I downloaded Getting Started but only read a few pages. Also the Emergency App, but I’m going to remove it asap since my wife sometimes has access to my phone. BTW...

so tonight I had quite a relapse. Again I got quite drunk and everything was ok until my way home. As I was walking, I was opening my jeans buttons knowing my pants would fall. Also I lowered my underpants below my ass and dick and let my open jeans to fall down. The streets were empty most of...

hello. I started my nofap journey not long time ago - 20 days porn free, 11 days fap free. I generally feel good, very awake. I had some exhibitionism problems in my past - I got aroused from stripping down in my gym’s changing room alot, masturbating in the shower, stripping naked on the...

Not to sure where, when to start, how much to tell. I'll be soon 50, great familly with kids, been struggling with hidden bisexuality issues .My problem is not porn as such but going on video chat where I engage in sexual activities with all sort of people, mainly young men. I have councelling...

Hey NoFap community. I’ll keep it short : Always loved women not told to like women just happened naturally so it’s not conditioned. Pretty sure i’m addicted to porn Got HOCD HOCD >> Because of gay porn escalation Before i got HOCD was jerking off to solo male stuff but liked women then...

Hello everyone, I've been somewhat of a lurker, but never taken the step to commit to something like this. I'm gay and I'm been into porn since the 5th grade and its caused so much trouble throughout my life. I think been part of environment where i felt extremely shameful of my sexuality has...

Hey Guys, I am really into Porn. It started with normal soft Porn, than harder Porn, than feet Porn, than Cuckold and Sissy Porn. So i ask myself if these kind of porns ( the cuckold and sissy ) means i am gay? Because there are porn where i be forced of the POV to suck the Cock of a another...

So I'm a 20-something gay male who has for a while had the feeling that my masturbation habits might be counter-productive to my goals in life - when I have free time that could be used to be creative, I fail to do that. When I am busy and have a lot to do, I use it to procrastinate. And before...

I am dl gay. I been addicted to pmo and did it daily since i was a 10. I've been trying to stay away frm pmo for a few months now. Been doing it once a week mostly. Longest streak i had was 2 weeks. My biggest problem is my loneliness gets to me. Especially when i drink. I like to get on the...

Hi there, this is my first post on nofap and as of now I'm a bit of a mess - looking to see if anyone has had a similar hocd experience and ways to deal with it. First off I have massive respect for gay guys, i've lived in gay friendly cities, gone to gay bars and drag shows with my ex...

Ever since I was very young I have watched porn. I began watching at a very young age and have grown to rely on it whenever I'm bored, depressed, lonely, etc. I've also experienced a lot of sexual repression due to me being gay and very closeted. In the last year my porn habits have gotten...

Hello everyone. Its time I try this for real this time. Please excuse any bad grammar as I'm not a very skilled writer. A little about myself I guess. I am currently 20 years old. I come from a culture and religion where anything relating to sex is taboo. So when I first got exposed to it at 7...

Hello! I'm new to the forum, even though it's been a while since I've been trying NoFap. I'm a 21 yo guy and I'm currently on my longest streak (20 days). Most of the times I end up masturbating on the 7/8th day. I'm trying to resist and test my willpower. I've never been highly addicted to...

Hey just joined. Just feeling my way around and reading so I don’t post something against the forum’s norms. I will say I want to quit porn really bad. I am still sexually active with my wife and I love masturbation. I’m not sure I am here to quit that. Maybe looking for some support form some...