guilt and shame

I am starting this journal because I relapsed last night and told my girlfriend this morning. It absolutely tears me apart to see her struggling with what I am doing, I can just see how much she loves me and how she is trying hard to put up with me, yet I am wasting her trust like this. I’m a...

I searched up two things on google. I didnt click on images, I didnt click on videos, I didn’t click on any of the search results, I didn’t see any porn, and I didnt masturbate. But it was definitely risky behaviour which doesn’t help me in any way. I felt the porn wiring being fired up, the...

Hi everyone firs time here. ill try to keep this short. I developed schizophrenia at around 17 but wasnt diagnosed until I was 20, that was about 3 years ago. I grew up watching porn since I was 12 and consumed it almost daily up until I was 18, at that point i decided I wanted to control myself...

I have been in hell from ever since I understood what the hell was I watching and I'm just so scared about my future. I'm scared that this filth is inside of me and it will never go away. I have been trying really hard but I guess not hard enough. The fucked up part is that when I'm in my...

So years and years of porn and sex addiction have finally suffered a fatal blow. I honestly thought I was doomed to be a seedy old lonely man sat staring at his computer, cut of physically and emotionally from the world. Constantly craving, constantly feeding the insatiable monster as my desires...

Since I joined the NoFap community, its my first relapse. My first and longest streak was 7 days. Thanks to the community i made it this far. However im back to zero. I feel very guilty and devastated, i couldnt control my urges. My one search from actress pictures lead to pornstar pics, and...

Hello guys, i really hope someone passing through this replies, i have been in a beautiful relationship for almost 7 months now with this kind and considerate woman that i was lucky enough to find. I am almost 18, i was pmo for a long time before my relationship, however i just started watching...

Im married and doing a hard mode reboot. Been using porn for 13years, 6 of them i have been in a reletionship and now married. My wife has only just found out how bad my pm addiction is, its has damaged her tremendously. But decpite this she has been amazing with me and supported me so much and...

Today is the first day after long streak of nofap, it was more than 55 days, i relapsed in 5 or 4 days in each day I was relapsing a lot,and today is the first day after these days,but I feel strong guilt and shame of my self, in addition to there is some porn pop up in my head it's weak but...

hello all, i recently developed this attitude of masturbating whenever i am stressed. i tried lot of different ways to stop myself from masturbating but nothing is working. I stop for a couple of days and i do it again. this is how it has been for two months. I am in a long distant...

Hi Guys, I'm relatively new around here I didn't post an intro but thought I should in order to be more involved with the forum. You can find my journal/log following the link below the more people responding and giving constructive criticism r even words of encouragement honestly would mean...

Hi Guys, I am 33 old from US. I am starting this journey as I am tired of daily masturbation and then feeling guilty, irritable and low on energy the next morning. I want to get more energy to do the stuff I want to do and achieve my goals in life. I am starting small with my first goal being...

For the past 7 days I’ve been going strong without PMO, the problem is 3 days ago I was getting flashbacks of when I did some not so good things. When I first turned 17 i had a 39 day streak going until a sudden urge hit me. But it was different, I wanted something different. The different thing...

I am a wife to a very good and loving husband. We've been married for a little more than two years, we have a beautiful daughter and I'm currently pregnant with our second. He's a resident and works so hard with crazy shifts and long hours. It's important for me that when he comes home he feels...

Im curious to what many answer because I am in a relationship and am just starting nofap

Hey everyone! I'm an 18 year-old guy from Montreal who joined the nofap community today. I watched porn since I was 13 and did so almost every day. It was and still is sucking all the energy out of me. Killing my mood and my confidence (esp. to approach girls). So I was on an 11-day streak the...

Hello, I'm completely new to this idea and community. I'm a 23 yo married college student. I've struggled with PM since my mid teens. I experienced what was similar to "monk mode" for almost two years. That was one of the best times of my life. I was learning so much about myself during that...

Hi all I am a 33 male from Egypt , i am married and have a wonderful kid only 2 yrs old . I am Muslim and always feeling guilty after the whole PMO . My birthday was from 1 week , and took a promise on my self not to watch porn again. Unfortunately I was watching porn from 26 years (9507 days)...

Earlier this year I went without masturbation for 178 days. Now I am implementing it back I to my life (without porn of course). The problem is, I feel extremely guilty about it now, and this has resulted in anxiety and depression. Before Nofap, I used to feel no guilt, but that has changed. I...

I voyeured a very close friend of mine about 22 years ago. I wasn't until recently that I figured out that I might have got caught, because we haven't really spoken since then, and she has me completely blocked on Facebook. My sex addiction has improved since then, but as I write this I realize...

I been addicted to porn for as long as I can remmeber. It began at an early age, being an adolescent exposed to it by another male that abused us sexually. Later on, I found some of my dads tapes and the cycle continue. Now, I battle lacking urges for my wife, and have even explored going deeper...

I got into a conversation with this girl offering to send nudes, and you can pretty much guess what happened. I won't go into too much detail as to avoid triggering people. Anyway, I feel so guilty about doing this. This is the first time I have ever done something like this and I feel filthy...

Today and yesterday I have been browsing a dating site. You can probably guess what I was browsing it for. Anyway, I got into a Skype conversation with this woman and she sent me nudes. I admit that was what I wanted. I ogled at the pics for a couple of seconds before blocking her and deleting...

Hi, everyone. I'm writing tonight because I need advice about something that has been extremely difficult for me during the course of my recovery: overcoming guilt. Here's the short amount of required backstory... In the last two years, I've broken up with two girlfriends. In 2016, I broke up...

Hi, I had been a masturbation addict for 20 years and I had completely refrained from it for the past 3 years. I'm 36 now and it was a slow transition from daily to once a week , once a month and finally quitting. I used to have an excel calendar that records. Some of the tips I could give to...

Hi all, I love my partner dearly and I'm afraid of upsetting her. I've relapsed with MO and she had specifically told me tonight not to do anything but with a sex addiction it's not as simple as that. I'm worried she'll see our relationship as too painful and give up. I don't want to feel like...

Hi, my name is Tom, I have been using pornography in different shapes and forms for more than 40 years. That sounds like a huge number of years! I am 55 now, so I started pretty early on. My stepfather who I grew up with was an alcoholic and my mum was trying to hold it all together. I started...

Hi guys I posted on new fap about a month ago regarding my p addiction and an incident that turned my life upside down. Just wanted To provide an update on my progress. The long and short of it is that I started watching p at the age of 12 and for 19 years, drifted through pretty much all the...

Sad to say, but as most would agree, pmo can destroy you and the people you love. Made me lazy, and had little desire to do things. I lied about the addiction as all addicts do. I was caught several times, used to watch in private mode on phone and tablet. I did cut down over time, but would...

Hey, I am hamad, I am new here and i am 20 year old. ... Muslim. I am at my worst ... I have addiction of pornography. I been through lot of blogs about quitting pornography and living a joyful life but for some reason i can't ... i sometime hold myself for a week and few days and then the same...

Hello guys and girls :) Appreciate being able to post on here and will do my best to stick to the guidelines and be courteous and respectful. I came across this site on a Google search looking at foods relationship to FAP and found you. It's great I have an outlet now. Little about myself...