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Hi guys! It’s been a while since I posted on forum, so here we go. Let me just start by briefly summarizing my situation. I’m 25 years old, got my major degree last year and currently working remotely at a large company. I’d say it’s my first serious job, despite me working couple of various...

Hello. I am a new member. But more exactly, I already have been on this forum. Briefly, when I was 16 years old I registered here and started my journey. I didn't have problems with abstinence. But after 2 years I gave up. It's a reminder for those who think that after a long period of time...

Guys, I wanted to ask you if you have similar experience. I’m a 23 year old guy and I honestly believe that I’ve been depressed 80% of my life. It’s getting more severe and worse with age obviously, but at the same time you feel stability and comfort when you consider yourself a piece of shit...

Don't waste as much time as I did. Life is short and we need our sex energy: 1. Porn does major damage, but we CAN have something better 2. Relapse with "wholesome" regular masturbation is much less destructive than porn- but can provoke porn urges if one is not prepared, and it can easily be...

I am getting super frustrated. I keep bingeing, all because I feel like I have nothing better to do and life sucks. I have little to no motivation, and I fell like that had been killed by being in a shitty life and job and everything. I feel very low about myself, and when I try to make...

I've been trying to figure out how to write about this for an hour now, the simple version is, I think I have AGP fetish. I've had it for a long time now but never actually thought about it. I knew it was just a fetish and once I finished it was forgotten, but a couple of days ago I thought to...

Hi guys! I will try to keep it as short as possible. Basically, I'm a 22 year old college student, right now this is actually the end of my undergrad studies and I'm working hard on my thesis. The problem is, I don't know what to do next, I want to continue my academic career, but the degree...

If you can't address the trauma, then you can never truly get rid of the addiction. It's simply a self-medicating mechanism to cope with emotional pain. I have been an addict since I was 13 years old and I'm 21 years old now. I completely understand the mechanisms of addiction and I have been in...

I have pied and I’m a compulsive porn user . I have severe depression as well. I’m 30 year old now but I’ve had pied since I was 20 years old . Today is day 1…. Again for the 80 millionth time . Theirs a sex I’ve known for about 4 years. I haven’t seen her in two years because she’s moved on . I...

UPDATE: So, now that I'm not masturbating like before (5-6 times a week) for these past two weeks, it's suck major fuckin ass but, what would be the LIMIT of nofap? Like...what would cause me to SUPER RELAPSE? I couldn't fall asleep due to abstaining but, I watched non-nudes (yoga pants) and...

I hate myself. I hate myself with all my heart. As a result, I hate those who overcome this addiction. I hate them because I'm weak. I hate them because they're bragging with their 30+, 40+ days streak, and I can't even go two days since the end of January. I don't know what to do, this is the...

Any folks with bipolar disorder want to share how it changed their relationship with porn? I've always had issues with porn but after my bipolar diagnosis, its been extreme issues with porn. I'm quite well medicated at this point but do have hypomania and depression at times, both of which amp...

ATTENTION! I FEEL REALLY ALONE AND THIS IS MY RANT! I must release the steam so I won’t go crazy. Sorry in advance It’s one of those days again, I relapsed and I feel like shit. Not going to lie I feel like shit almost all the time however when I relapse it’s different. I feel lethargic...

Hello, I am a 19 year old male looking for girlfriend or possible wife. But lately I feel there is no hope for me. I do tend to be an introverted loner (no close friends) but I can get a long with a lot of my fellow men we have a lot of the same interests, goals and hobbies. Heck we even have...

Have you ever been tired of failing over and over again with overcome this addiction? These urges are killing me! I have been watching mast., porn and hookers over 10 years. I have been reduced doing all that activity. What I mean being sick of tired of being tired is putting all the effort to...

Feeling defeated, as if I can never truly change no matter what. Sitting here at 24, so far behind.. no car, no dating experience, no stable job. I'm really fearing my future while constantly feeling the pressure from everyone to grow up. Why am I so damn afraid to do the ordinary? Get a job...

I think: Attempting to subconsciously seek out lewd material. Increasing feelings of anxiety, depression, and irritability. Increasing sexual urges. Each one more intense than the predecessor. Questioning your decision to quit. Are all signs of an impending relapse. What other ones would...

Listen, I’ve been at this for a while so maybe a lot of this is projection and self-talk, but if it helps one person out there it will be worth it. I’m gonna tell you something that you need to hear: Stop taking other people’s advice. I was going to post here so many times about what I thought...

Dear Fellow NoFappers, I have recently relapsed from PMO after about 10 months, but this time it is different. If you would like to know my backstory, I highly recommend my other post "My Masturbation Leads to Evil," but in a nutshell, here it is. I have been exposed to porn at a young age...

I, am a fraude. A lie, that is yet to be exposed. For real, who am I fooling ?! I keep relapsing for the most stupidest reasons, being fully aware of the consequences. I know how I am going to feel aftwrwards, yet I still choose to act out. I Am digging my own grave by my will. There are times...

Hello everyone I am 21M, in 11th day Hard Mode. 4 months ago, I took TCA antidepressant for only 5 days. then stopped taking it. but it was too late. I lost everything. now I have anhedonia (feeling no emotion), pssd, terrible memory, lack of concentration. I had genital numbness and 0 libido...

I have been a porn addict since I was 12 years old, I am 21 now and I want to quit porn. I have emotional numbness/blunting, anhedonia, brain-fog for almost 3 months but I started nofap yesterday. has anyone had success feeling emotions again after they quit porn ? I haven't felt sadness...

Hey guys. Sorry for the length but I really need help. I just turned 31. I used to be a musician, have a lot of close friends, and get a lot of girls... but long story short I had a really painful relationship with my father, and when he died 6 years ago I went off the deep end and became a...

When I first got on here I made it nearly a month, 27 days I think, but after my first mess up I can't seem to make it more than three days. I can't get sex out of my head, all day random thoughts pop in without any provocation. Eventually it leads to yet another relapse. Rebooting seems so far...

Hello, We're going to attempt a trial separation. Background...sorry if bores you. The love of my life has been struggling with P addiction since his teen years. In and out of recovery for 2 1/2 years - mostly out. His initial reboot, 18 months ago lasted 120 days. This May he started a...

I am scared what I have turned into. I have lost my entire confidence. I struggle having a good conversation. Porn has ruined my life badly. Don't know what happens. An urge. And i end up in the mess. Losing life. No matter how badly I try can't make it more than 5 days. Been doing since 14. The...

Im so lonely and unloved, never had a relationship, never felt love - this hits me like a truck. Today it was my 8th day on hardmode. I was feeling really good whole morning, then in a train, i heard a girl calling with her boyfriend... And again, same old thoughts that were in my head entire...

I have been addicted to porn for almost 9 years or maybe more (i do not remember!!!) I am 24 now. I have stopped PMO for almost 6 months and no improvement in memory were there. I have stopped again for almost 8 months and yet there was no improvement. I have started to believe that the damage...

Hi my name is Edson I’m from Mexico I know it may sound like a cliche but I’m a porn addict, I been dealing with this situation most of my life, to be honest and its not easy to say but I can not remember the last time I didn’t watch porn for a day, its even sad to say that that day might...

Guys, I really could use some help and feedback. I’m in my early 40’s and have been struggling with porn addiction since adolescence. I didn’t realize I had a bonafide adddiction until I was about 27 and met with some therapists. Since then I’ve seen well over a dozen different therapists with...

I was doing really well for two months, I had finally reunited with my faith and become closer to god. I was thinking about him every day and had hardly any temptations for two months. I had faith in the future and everything was looking good. Then, about 4 weeks ago something happened that I...

have a listen to this interview with Kim Phuc. She talks overcoming the past, letting go of hatred and helping children who are victims of war. Bad things may have happened to us in the past but it doesn't mean our lives are over.

Battling negative emotions Some of us have problems with negative emotions: Self-hate. Worry. Sorrow. Frustration and anger, apathy, hopelessness, feeling like a zombie, and many more. These are things that happen because the mind is out of sync with the body. By the mind I mean the conscious...

I attempted to see if I could go past 3 days but it seems I'm stuck on it (can't go more than three). I'm feeling extremely hopeless. I'm wanting to cure my PIED within 20 or so days before I see my long distance girlfriend but knowing how things are I feel as if our relationship is going to end...

Where do I start? I met my husband in high school. He and I were just friends. We reconnected eight years ago (2009) on Facebook. Both married. He was in the long process of a horrible, bitter divorce from a woman who cheated on him with at least ten guys WHILE he was deployed and I was in a...

I’m not a very good SO to my PA fiance. He’s trying. He’s making/made huge changes. It’s been somewhere around 75 days since D-day and since he’s been PM-free. I still find it so hard not to be resentful— blaming him for how I’ve allowed myself to deteriorate in self-confidence and spirit. I...

Hi again folks, anyone here experienced intrusive thoughts when fapping? like sexual images who you don't want to think during orgasm? i feel like i need to fap again until i orgasm without having the thoughts again, if i don't do this 'ritual' i have no will to do anything, also i feel i cn't...

i have been with my BF almost a year and a half, living together since August 2016... and feeling like shit since I can remember. I only discovered his PA maybe a month ago. The disclosure is trickling like a nosebleed. He goes through the reboot "motions" seemingly OK, but I have this nagging...

Hi, I've already tried this once before, and had a lot of success! I almost have a girlfriend now and how turned into a more developed and confident version of myself, but I've fallen back into the same hole I started in. I'm pmoing once every couple of days, my confidence is shit and I'm...

Porn addiction has completely ruined my life for nine years. I am a Christian so it is against my faith, beliefs, and morals. It has also made me hypocritical as a Christian. I feel helpless. I have tried self will, praying, fasting, reading my Bible, worship, abstaining, etc... And on and on...