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Femdom is his priority, not me, never me. Once I woke up and got on the computer to find where he left off, on some skanky whore's feet. When I confronted him with it he tore my laptop in half instead of profusely apologizing. Maybe it's my fault too. I put up with this sexless relationship for...

Disclaimer: I just wrote this rant down a minute ago without a concrete goal in mind so it might be a bit unstructured. Felt like getting it off my chest anyways so here it goes: I'm on day 4 of my current streak. A few weeks ago I managed, for the first time in 3 years, to make it to a month. I...

The past week was a bad one for me. PMOd many times. However I realized that many things I was doing were working, considering when I stopped them it hurt my ability to abstain. Recently I began a morning routine. The first crucial step was that before I went to bed, I would put my phone out of...

25.04. Evening I want to use this journal to maximize my energy and mobilize as much activity as possible. I got hate comments on a facebook post I made, advertising my tutoring business. I offered a free lesson, three people wrote to me “free lesson, wtf then it must be bad quality”. I was a...

DAY 1 Hi, I am a 26 year-old trans guy from Germany. I M since I was 7 years old. I have been using P for 11 years. Over the years my consumption of P got more and more extreme. By now I PMO on a daily basis. Sometimes multiple times a day. I tried quitting PMO multiple times over the last...

AGE19, I have been addicted from last 4 yrs to this bulls** completely destroyed my will to study, to interact with people and see good in any event or any individual, jealousy , self doubt, self repression, sabotaging myself are only emotions i am actually acting on . IT HAS MADE ME FEEL...

Hey y’all. I figure since this will never go away ever again and I’m forever broken by this most recent DDay, I might as well chronicle my miserable life as means of very slightly alleviating my immense pain. I will write more of my story and where I’m at today, but right now I need to wipe...

The majority of this time will be me contending with the regret from yesterday. God Damn, why was I so stupid.

Critical Moment Today I gave myself the permission to surf the internet and reading useless books rather than actually working towards my goal of studying 6 hours daily for a big test that I have coming up. I gave myself the permission to watch productivity YouTube videos and then it led to me...

This journal is intended for myself, but I want to put it where others can see in order to release internal burden. I hope one day to be a man with no secrets, who can say each action he did throughout the day with pride, and admit to all his faults. I am not that man yet, but hope to get...

As cool as NoNut November is, we shouldn't wait for a month that starts with the letter N or a new year to try and better ourselves. Yeah it would've been cool to have a perfect PMO-free month and share my story about it, but I just had my 2nd relapse of the month. The new thing I did yesterday...

I have been here before, trying to reboot many times. Year after year I had one big new year's resolution: "Stop PMO". But it was only four days ago that my girlfriend found out that I watched porn and masturbated regularly. It didn't help that we are on a long distance relationship and she...

Hey what’s up everybody. I’m 27 and I’ve been jerking it for years ! I can’t remember when i started. Hell I can’t remember why I even got addicted in the first place but it happened before I even realized it. I didn’t have sex until I was 19 for the first time and it was with my now ex wife...

Hello everyone... I've been trying to remove this habit of M since 2 years now..my personal best was no pm for 56 days..But now I'm starting from day 1 and I want to break my old record and set free from this devastating habit. As a new habit, I will post my everyday experiences in here...Hope...

DAY 1 - PART 1 One day at a time. The roller coaster of emotions I am feeling is something I have never experienced before. It's enough to make me feel BEYOND CRAZY. I hear that journaling helps and I haven't done so in years. So here it goes. Today I feel weak, although I know I am strong...

I fantasized about having sex with this girl I saw the other day. I didn't watch any sort of pornographic content. I just opened up a text file and started typing whatever thoughts I was having about that. Nothing else. I had a stiffie. However, it did feel like I let out some steam mentally...

I’ve been on and off NoFap for a long time. Usually I would go a week or so only to binge and be entrapped again in the addiction like a dog that returns to eat it’s own vomit. I hit rock-bottom and at that moment I would have rather died than be a PMO addict. I’ve been addicted since I was 14...

I'm new to NoFap but I honestly just need a place to process what is happening in my relationship and my own head. I figured that, since my partner has been keeping a journal, I could as well. My fiance has been rebooting for the last twenty-or-so days, but porn has been impacting our...