lonely

I'm embarrassed to admit that this is my latest vice, every time I get closer to freedom, something seems to come up. It's different having a "real" feeling conversation, and became another escape for me. I know this isn't healthy though, and it's just pathetic. I enjoy having the experience...

I've come to realize I don't like myself, for the ways I keep making mistakes and falling into temptation and sin. I beat myself up over little things. I mean, I feel I've been struggling for too long. It's my fault, and I hate I'm not like the other guys thay can "man up" and overcome this. I...

I let my desires and thoughts of intimacy linger because I get pleasure from touching myself and edging. I won't play victim anymore, I have the power to stop but I'm stupid and choose to fall into temptation. I hate my desires, but I follow them because they make me feel good. I'm need to...

I don't get it. My streaks are long at 3 weeks to 2 months, but I haven't been able to go 90 days. I'm really disappointed... I work. go to class, and work around the house. I have no free time other than sleeping. I don't understand... I know loneliness may be a factor, but I'm starting to...

Learning a lot about myself and the way other people, and the world, works on this journey. I no longer desire porn, and am doing SR, so P and O are starting to become less of an issue. However, I've got an issue, and I don't know how to feel about it. I probably need to stop this habit too, I...

I’ll try to keep it short and sweet. I’m on day 16 of no PMO. Visually the most I’ve looked at is IG and feet pictures while scrolling. I’m on this journey to reset my sexual energy and become more aware if it. I’ve been married for 15 years and it’s not going great. Porn addiction has...

I think I've been burned out for a couple of months now. Been constantly working this year. I've heard of scheduling breaks and vacations , but I think I'm at a point now where I accepted, life is work, and the pay off will happen one day. Being uncomfortable is growth in most cases. But that's...

Hi :) im really stuck in a cycle of shame, which fuels my bad habit because i'm very into humiliation...im 24 and gay. I like tv, movies, music, nature, politics, travelling, arts, fashion, design, and cooking! I am also trying to get into yoga and working out. Some of my favourtie artists are...

what am i doing man, i sit in my room all day when i know it’s just gonna lead to relapse…i’ve been on no fall for a year..and my longest streak is 35 days, the rest of them are 2-10 days…i do the same routine when i relapse..get tired, go lay in bed, start getting bored, peek, relapse. Nows the...

hey guys, i've been struggling with loneliness. Its been years since I've had any success with girls. When I do start talking to one, my anxiety amps up to 11/10. I overthink and overanalyze every text message. I start to wonder if I said the right thing, (ex. does she like me? Am i being too...

Hello, I'm 30, from the uk and I'm suffering with pied big time. I really need someone to talk to. this isn't my first time doing nofap but its hitting me pretty hard this time round. I'm gay, from the uk and would love to meet likeminded people to talk to and, in return, also support on a...

I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I don't have any friends and no ability to make them. I just work and try to read the bible. Lately I have been watching porn instead. I need friends to text or if you're in Massachusetts possibly hang out with.

Hello... like many of you, i'm in this fight of trying to kill porn out of my life for many years, trying again now, i'm on day 4 (i know is to early to take any conclusions, but i want to share anyways), this time though i'm under some different circunstances, i dont know if this has something...

Okay I've got to get this off my chest. I've recently made it almost 3 months on a streak, then slipped up once, twice, and now a third time - all within the space of a few weeks. I've moved from the big city to a relatively small town for a job. The work is good, the people are nice, and I...

i only get urges when i’m bored or not occupied with something else..anytime i’m occupied with something else or thinking about someone or something i never even think of p. but i can’t be occupied 24/7 i don’t think.. so what is there to do in my bored time like when i’m laying in my bed...

Hello guys, I never had a GF, or sex beyond foreplay. The few times I was able to date or kiss during parties/in nightclub they were the ones doing the first step, and because my friends were telling me they were clearly showing interest. On the one hand it reassures me that there are at least...

Me: -Not handsome, but not ugly either -not dumb but also no genius -23 years old -nofap since 13 days when i was younger and had some friends and as i was growing older i had this feeling that i am not fitting in and beeing different cant describe it but i cannot make deep connections (i...

After 25 days of semen retention and no pmo i gave in and i cant get back on track.... Every 6 days i pmo like crazy... also i am feeling very bored and frustrated....Any advice would be helpfull!!!

I will be a virgin forever because I am a zoophile. Sometimes I have romantic and sexual fantasies about dogs. I don't know what to do about it. I will never live with anyone. I can't even live with an animal, because then I would want to have sex with it. I want to be with a human, just not...

I have crush on two really beautiful and cute girls, I just cant do any steps to date any of them. Im too afraid and shy. I will be always alone.. how do you even get a relationship?

I'm such a fuck up, you know what I'm tired of hearing? I'm tired of hearing my school counsellor or my soccer coach telling me shit like 'It's in your head', 'Get out of your own head' and the most useless of all 'Combat/Challenge those negative thoughts'. Surely, one would think, if they were...

Hey guys, I tried NoFap last year and the longest I went was 7 days, so I beat my record! But I feel no different and have been more depressed than ever... No, this is not a flatline because I've been this way since day 1. I was kind of expecting to at least feel better or some motivation to...

I started NoFap at the very last week of 2019. Before then I didn't even know about the horrible effects of PMO on your mental and physical health, as well as your social life. I especially didn't notice the social life part of it because of the pandemic. But now that I've been going back to...

Hello everyone. Recently I have been really down and without any energy/motivation. I think that im in a flatline and on top of it i was sick 2 days. I peeked once today but didnt M or O. My mental health is in shambles, I go to a therapist and even though it helps my career is very demanding...

Hi everyone. I have always been in this situation. I have always been lonely. I had a small circle of friends before so I went out on saturdays but they were not real friends and chose to go out with other people and not to call me again. I'm happy because they were toxic people for me. It's...

Feeling defeated, as if I can never truly change no matter what. Sitting here at 24, so far behind.. no car, no dating experience, no stable job. I'm really fearing my future while constantly feeling the pressure from everyone to grow up. Why am I so damn afraid to do the ordinary? Get a job...

So, the other day I read somewhere over here the case of a guy who relapsed because of having been sexting with his gf back and forth and that got me thinking... For some reason I can't even get my "significant other" (not quite sure of calling her my gf, although I know for sure that she's not...

I have been doing nofap for a few months now, when I first started I easily got 2 streaks that were 12 days and then 17 days, but after that, I just kept relapsing more and more often. nowadays I relapse almost every night and I feel like im losing motivation to do nofap and im honestly starting...

As opposed to before hardmode.. My D was always in deadmode.. The good thing about this is its always semi hard now..im not getting MW or 100% erections..but yes it gets semi hard every now and then.. Just by the thought of sex or any erotic..it may be bad if thinking erotic stuff and sex with...

Hi, I have 2 threads going on right now. One just newly created about loneliness (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/i-am-lonely.295729/) and one about rebooting (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/reboot-journal-14-days-clean-and-still-going-strong.292856/page-4#post-2802212)...

Hi, I have a reboot journal over here (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/reboot-journal-14-days-clean-and-still-going-strong.292856/page-4#post-2802212). I am very lonely. Because of my P addiction and more, my ex-girlfriend ended our relationship about 5-6 weeks ago now. Right now, I...

i dont know where to start but im single for goddamn 3 years and i was trying to forget her and i involve my self in porn so i destroy my self by fapping so im trying to recovery if anyone could help or know something ....thaaaaaanks A LOT

I have to thank you all. My friends irl don't care about their addiction/habit to watch porn. I'm the only one who wants to get rid of this addiction that I know irl. And my friends' attitude towards PM certainly doesn't help. You know, your environment makes you, you. This community helps me to...

I don’t know why I know even here. I’m not dealing with addiction... my boyfriend is. And, it kills me inside. I feel so alone, undesired, unloved. I try so hard to make him happy on any way that I can, but I don’t feel like I’m enough to him. I’m so sad. I love him so much, but I can’t deal...

Hello great community, I am 18 years old boy, had been in some relationships but still virgin, and I would probably never have sex due to where i live ( no open-minded girls to meet or hard to find ) and even at college i feel loneliness and i have no girl to even talk to, i tried to do some...

You read the title, I have a lot of problems going on right now, but this is the worst. Despite wanting to start nofap, every morning the first thing I do is MO, with or without P. I sleep naked, and that combined with my soft sheets and intense loneliness and longing for a girl that I normally...

This is my first post here, day 5 of NoFap (longest I've ever gone) and for the past five years, all it seems I do in high school is screw up and I hate it. I never get invited to parties, everybody looks at me as the weird poser kid and I have no game. I know people say that it gets better...

I've been addicted to fapping since I was 10 and it has really consumed my life to the point where whenever I talk to a girl, I just imagine wanting to screw her or just see her getting screwed. Because of it, my anxiety and not being able to talk to girls properly has lead to me not being able...

Turbo(TBO) here, I'm going to help all of you young single guys out. I'm a married 28 year old man and I've gathered some knowledge about women that will definitely help you out. Keep a realistic and open mindset here. Most of the time women speak in codes to men. Here is a list of codes and...

Hi there! I’m 16 and this is my 39th day of NoFap and I’ve been feeling very lonely lately. It’s not like I have no friends in real life but I don’t have anyone supporting me doing this. I told a couple of friends but they don’t really understand why I’m doing NoFap and my girlfriend (who I...

So I study at a university and I always hear these guys talking about what a cure girl they met and went home with etc. And here I stand .. 22 year old guy that is still a virgin. I know that I am pretty shy and I don't have the confidence to talk to girl. I am well aware of that. The problem is...

Hi, 25 years old newbie (male) here. I joined NoFap two days ago but didn't know what to do. The pinned post on the newbie section was really helpful but someone should definitely make a video about it. The sheer amount of reading almost made me relapse on day 1. But luckily I survived! Look...

I want to talk about me and my problem,I come from china and i'm 22 years old,the first time i start wank and watch porn when i'm was 12. Because I am an only child in my family,i'm always lonely,i got no friend to play and can't go out,all my task is doing my home work day by day. And my...

Hi, guys I'm on the 40th or 41th day , I wanna know somethings 1/ within the last period I was freaked out of anything as long as it's related to sex and when I say this seance won't affect on me and I won't skip it or I skip because freaking out as child I say what heck with me it will never...

been working at new job for 2 weeks now. i am a 27 years old girl. i insulted last guy i dated in order to hurt him because he told me he didn't feel the urge to see me but didn't hate and kept always replying to me in a nice way but i wanted at least to stay friends as we were after he dumped...

All the single fellas here, this is for you. For the next 7 days, I want each and every one of you to go up and talk to a cute girl. I don't care if that terrifies you, I don't care if you're gonna piss your panties when you do it. Just do it. Don't ask her out, don't ask for her digits, just...

I have been feeling lonely for the last few months and not at all feel right. Feeling so lonely so now hate to stay in my house alone. I don't why I get upset about small things and tremendously angry but I am not like this in real. Why so?

Hello. The story of why I decided to start and how I failed is pretty deep, at least to me, so I will try to explain it clearly. About a year ago I started talking to my ex girlfriend again. I probably should've thought about my decision before doing so, but it is not easy to get close to...

August 2017, I move to a city to study Bachelors Degree in Law and Administration. Next month, I meet this girl at a gym center and I start to train there regularly. No contact were made. I look at her and she is the sex-bomb in the gym, the only hottest girl there, short and petite. She looks...

I have been stressed about multiple things, including things and people that can't be changed. Its been frustrating. I haven't engaged in pmo since around april 24 when I last posted a thread. I had also been successful in avoiding absolutely any form of lust until 2 days ago. I had almost...

The rate of suicide is highest in middle age white men. Men are 3 times more likely to commit suicide then women. The reason being that they have less social circles to reach out for support... ....and for having someone to listen and care. That's why it is important to surround yourself...

I think the most frustrating feeling during an tentation is when you realize your lack of women in your bed, how you guys cope with this? what are your thoughts?

Hi ,Till Yesterday I was a prisoner in the hellish prison of ma******tion. I was hopeless. I felt my life will end sorrowfully due to this evil. This is because when I was 14 year old my friend urged me to see porn. And it became an addiction. Then after some time I learned how to masurbate. I...

Hello there, I am a German law student and I have encountered a great problem. Too much fapping (using an onahole, guess its even worse since a hand feels like emery paper. No seriously. My life has been very well and I believe and hope I am absolutely getting a turn here since I discovered it...

There are actually only few things in life that leave a lasting mark on you. That you remember long after they happened. But they still feel like they just happened yesterday. And there is a quote I once read that perfectly encapsulates one of these moments for me. And it still moves me every...

Until you truly love yourself, you can't love someone else. I know it sounds cliche. But it's true. Until you truly learn to love yourself you will not be able to get over this feeling. Don't get me wrong... I'm not one of those anti-fat shamers or new-age bullshit pushers... If you have nothing...

the question above . I feel like i have friends and people who care about me (idk) but i still feel so lonely and i am only 17 . My day constists of me going to school and back to home being alone for the rest of the day . Idk i think my life is so fcked up everybody my age is so ahead of me and...

I am new to admitting I have a problem with PM to my girlfriend. It has caused PIED for me since college days. I’m now 37, and the build up of shame about my porn habit has eaten me up inside. My girlfriend doesn’t want to have sex with me because she finds porn to be “disgusting...degrading to...

I am a 21 year old college student in India, and there are three parts in my story of becoming addicted to masturbation, overcoming it and again becoming addicted. 1.1 I was smart and quite good at math in middle school. In India, if you are good at math in school and you are from a middle...

I tried to explain to my boyfriend how much porn hurts me, how I see it as a form of cheating. I’ve tried to be as nice as possible about it, but he says that there’s nothing wrong with it and ‘like all men do it’. Other times he says it means ‘nothing’ to him. If it means nothing to him, why...

Hello everyone! I am an 18-year-old Indian male. I am presently studying at one of the elite engineering colleges in my country. I have changed for worse through all of the time that I have been into it. I have not been performing well at various spheres of life which I could have performed...

Hello everyone! I am an 18 years-old Indian. I am an engineering student from one of the elite institutes of my country. I have come back to this platform after nearly two years. Last time I wasn't much ready to leave pornography, masturbation, and orgasm. However, I believe, that this time I...

This is my first ever forum that I've joined. Porn has had a pretty nasty effect on my life and I absolutely cannot stop myself from using it. So I'm here and I need support. Since high school I've used porn and I've ventured into the deep depths of content just to get my fix. It's a sad...

Hi everyone I’m at 85 days no PMO/artificial stimulation, but have had sex during this time. As I sit here and ponder how I’m feeling today, I just wanted to share and encourage feelings and discussion. While I feel proud to finally be working on improving myself from this nasty addiction, I do...

I dont have many friends, maybe 3 really good ones at the most all of which I haven’t seen in years, since high school basically. We talk every now and then but that’s about. I’ve always been the quiet, kind of shy, loner type but I still managed to have a few friends. A lot of the times I feel...

Hello friends let me share my feel. im indonesian 22 and now im unemployed. more than 15mouth im jobless. i dont have friend to share my problem dont have friend to talk and laugh together, i feel my life is trash so lonely. i dont have a job, no money, no girlfriend, no friend and im addict...

I just joined after doing PMO an hour ago. My biggest trigger is loneliness. Glad to find people from around the world. I'm looking fir some one to whom I can talk when I get the urge.

I feel like there's no reason and no one is there for me to live my life here,I masturbate 3 times daily and after some time it got worse

I'm a 20 year old guy and I am desperate for a friend, male or female. I'm a nice guy

When i was a kid i had bad relationship with my parents. It made me close up, not trust people. No one is to blame really, but even if i could legitimately blame someone that wouldn't solve the issue. Later i rationalized my reaction by painting all people as bad, evil and untrustworthy. I made...

It's been a difficult 3 days. It's hard not to think about sex. I have this insatiable urge to PMO because of feeling lonely. My ex screwed my car so I can't go out until it's fixed. It's frustrating when the heart wants to reminisce and arouse me thinking about intimacy. Trying my best to keep...

Hi NoFap community, to start things up: This is my first post in this forum. Also, I'm not a native english speaker, so please excuse grammar errors that could follow. I'm 27 years old and until last monday, I was a virgin. I'm at the end of studying, I just completed my master thesis a few...

I see people leaving their stories so ok here's mine... I was exposed to porn at age 8..was molested at age 11, lost my virginity at age 18, was raped at age 19, dad was violent with Mom, saw and heard lots of verbal and physical & sexual abuse...I had 2 kids from a 9 year relationship...

I'm only 15 but i already feel extremely lonely, not just because I've never had a girlfriend, but because i find it difficult to maintain a friendship.

Lately I been missing the only form of entertainment I have kept for years. Which is P. Sigh! But, I feel more of a man without P. Whenever I PMO I feel like a lonely sad teenager.

So much has happened since I last posted. I had gone 56 days before I had a relapse. At this time, it was just MO so I didn't want to count it as a full-on relapse. However, 1 MO relapse became 2, and 2 became 3, and then P was introduced again, and now I'm back in a cycle of PMO every few...

So guys I been mastubating for all my life which lead me to have a unproductive,useless,worthless life. I always had internet and full privacy even when i was little, I soon started looking for nude pics to categories even i'm ashamed to name. Daily masturbating, somethings even 3-4 times.As...

Hey, So im new to this, thus i know about NoFap for along time now but im taking baby steps. So im 20ish hetro male didn't have any relationships with the opposite sex or didn't do any effort realy since the beginning when i was asmall kid i liked a girl in my class and it was like an admiring...

Today was a bad day. Because of several incidents my mind was not in the right place. Felt a huge vacuum in my gut, eating away and I needed to be with someone in whatever way. Went to a massage studio where I got a "full service". In other words, massage and sex. Didn't feel anything while...

Day 34 of my nofap journey I have really zero plan to make my day better. I am bored and I am boring. I have so much things i want to do but I have no idea how to do that. I have no urge today and I have no motivation. I have zero social interaction with people and I feel like I am lost and...

Feeling lonely, longing for someone to hug me tight just made me relapse. For a couple of days, my heart has been so heavy! I can not find someone that i feel like gets me. So i push all the others away. Is that wrong? I dont want to be in a relationship where I dont feel the other...

Hey guys, 11 days into a new streak after caving at the end of a 2 month streak - disappointed that I couldn't make it a completely porn free year but trying not to let black / white thinking mess me up. Anyway the craving for p hasn't been terrible yet (although, as always, it will be). I...

I'm on day 4 tomorrow and am feeling uneasy. I was very confident and I have a huge goal of meeting an online brother in the spring. I met this friend on experience project when I was dealing with depression and rejection. I think rejection drove me to masturbation in the first place and keeps...

Okay so when i was really young i was goofy but shy. As i started liking girls i realized i needed to be more out going (i realized this about the same time i discovered porn). By the end of freshmen year of highschool everyone knew me as the crazy wild out going guy who was pretty popular and...

It is hard for me to deal with this disorder and having no one to talk to about it.

Okay guys. Here we are. All of us have lost something or the other. Some of us have our partners or crushers, whereas some of us have lost ourselves. Personally speaking I have lost both. Today was the day I cried my heart out when I gave up on pursuing my crush. FUCK PORN. THAT SON OF A BITCH...

Hi, I'm new to this site and this is my first thread. I need help and i'm looking for different perspectives so I can fix myself. I'm a 29 year old male virgin and its been bothering me for the past 9 or 10 years. i want a relationship and sex. Someone who knows and accepts me for who I am...

As you see from my other posts, over the past few years I've had difficulties with watching adult videos, m******ation, and o****ing by myself. At first I had a lot of trouble rebooting; stopping the videos was the easy part, the physical release was the harder part. I had kindof a wild period...

Hi all. I think this is the right section for this thread... I was listening to a podcast earlier which talked about the correlation between social intergration and longevity. I found it pretty interesting and thought I'd share it with the community. I thought it especially important as one...

I am currently on day 4 of no PMO. I go home and get rock solid hard-ons after work and feel like giving up. One time I've done a little under two weeks no PMO and I drank and ruined my streak. Then after than it's been like 3 days, 4 days, 2 days streak, you get the drift. How do you manage to...

So I've decided to quit fapping and porn addiction starting from right this moment. I hope this platform will enable me to get through a little easier. I decided to start this yesterday but relapsed immediatly...So it going to start from tomorrow!!!! Wish me luck

First time posting, my boyfriend and I have been together for almost 3 years. From month 6 he knew how I felt about porn and that it made me feel pressured and uncomfortable. I know he's felt terrible about it since than, and a couple months ago joined NoFap to help him. At first he was going...

I'm having trouble getting motivation to not P or PMO. I haven't PMO'd in a long time, but for 95% of this streak, I've had something motivating me to not do it, most of that time being a girl. Saving myself for someone gave me a lot of motivation to not PMO or P. And I got the equivalent of...

This is a story of many ... You are tired and sick of what you are doing, you are feeling shame and guilt, you are feeling weak because you have drained your body of its essence, your bones crack, muscles hurt, you are worried about your health, your future, potential opportunities, feeling...

So I relapsed twice to day, both times to porn which is unusual for me, and I lost a 5 day streak (fuckkkk) but that's not what I'm posting about. Basically, I know what I want to do right know. I know what I want to achieve in life and with NoFap, and I know that I want to get rid of my porn...

Could someone please suggest a book or a blog to help deal with the type loneliness we deal with when in involuntary hard mode. Thank you

Just a heads up, this is going to be long, boring and depressing :) I'm just sat here soon going to bed and I'm just reflecting on my life. I relapsed twice today but this isn't about that right now. I'm 16, and I just finished school, and the only thing I have done all year is sit on my...

İ've been trying nofap for a little at first i relapsed second day than i had 5 days and this time im at 7th day even wasn't registered. İm going to somewhere woman wear hijab. Im not so aged so it considered not well for me to have any kind of fun including sex. My parents are literally happy...

Being straight and being on Nofap is hard enough. it is SO much harder when you're gay and on NoFap. I am the only gay guy that is out of the closet at my school. It also doesn't seem like many other guys at my school are gay except for one ugly dude that really annoys me and the anti-social...

In this culture, abstaining from PMO can be a lonely thing. It has become so normalized that people who don't do it are the ones who are left out. It should be the other way around. It might just be me, but abstaining is kind of a lonely thing. At least in my case, not many people I know know...