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I've been dealing with this addiction for many years. I've been trying to stop for good for many years. Right now, just after I relapsed once more, I feel lost. I feel empty. This condition is ruining my life in so many aspects. I constantly have problems getting erections when trying to have...

Hey guys/girls, Trigger warning: ocd, so-ocd, anxiety first off, let me say thank you for allowing me to join your forums. My name is Jeff, and I am a 40 year old male. I suffer from ocd (specifically SO-OCD), and that can take me some pretty scary places. The other night I was sitting on my...

This shit is soooo tiring and sooo draining, my heart breaks more and more with every “relapse”. We have been together 12 years and have 4 children together. The addiction has been a thing the whole time, he wants to change, he wants to stop. I’m looking around the group a bit to see if this...

I've discovered nofap 2 years ago, I kept trying to stop, and I really cannot, even I know it's really bad for me, I am now in the step where I can't control myself any more, my longest streak was almost 40days, I really want to stop porn and fap forever, it damaged my whole body and my mind, I...

I have tried thousands of ways to get rid of this And still believe that those ideas can work but somehow these urges find a way to trap me I don't know what is life without fapping I am weak mentally and physically I don't want ideas I just want to feel lighter after sharing this shit on...

I broke my 37 days streak on 30dec And since then I have fapped 3 times I know what to do But I have lost all of the determination I had when I started to use this site first time I have reasons to quit this But I don't why I those reasons seems to work now. I need my seniors(who are...

Hi, I've been doing NoFap for almost 2 years now and I still feel like a complete failure sometimes My longest streak was roughly 7 months long, it was around the time my friend with benefits "broke up with me" and I slowly started falling into really serious depression (mainly because of...

I am not able to quit Masturbation since 8years I am 20 Now. I no more have energy to fight against these urges and thoughts. I am feeling so helpless. This has become part of my lifestyle very badly. I eat ,sleep, take shower, do some work and masturbate. This is that difficult for me. When I...

I am 20 but I am masturbating since when I was 12 . it has been 8years, There was only one time when I was able to quit Masturbation . And that too because I was busy in school and I didn't have my first phone. When I got my first phone, I again got trapped in this trap because I introduced...

This is one of the longest that I have gone. But as previously I am not feeling too much ashamed or bad as I previously. Previously, it was 100% then it was 30-40%. The reasons, 1. I am feeling very lonely for the past few days and feeling very desperate to talk to someone. I have people but...

I just lost my streak watching porn, I want to know if the benefits that one presents when losing the streak are lost or are still in play

I spent over 1000$ yesterday on escorts, I feel disgusted with my self and I can’t believe I spent so much on this. I didn’t sleep and I spent the whole night pursuing escorts. I had a hard time getting an erection and I think from the years of porn addiction I’ve killed my sensation on my...

hey guys, so I'm writing this to start over again and journal myself. so I started watching porn when im just a 12 year old boy going through images. And i became aware of my porn addiction in 2019 i was so consumed by it, it left me broken after a break up with my girlfriend. it affected my...

Im gonna be honest here, my source of my addiction is that I struggle with homosexual thoughts, and they are strongest at night when im about to sleep. To cope with this I watch porn so I can feel secure, but since I haven't been watching it the feeling comes full force and I lose control. Im...

I'm new to nofap and i recently created a thread at the bottom of which it shows 399 days and i believe it means the number of days since ive been rebooting which is false in my case.how do i change it or what does it mean

I am not new to NoFap. I have known about it for a few years but didn't start taking it seriously till last year. I have had multiple streaks throughout my year and a half of participation. 21 days, 5, days, 30 days etc. My highest so far has been 41 consecutive days no PMO or sex what so ever...

Hello, first of all thank you for reading this. Actually I'm suffering from this shit for one year and I'm struggling to quit for 6 months still I could manage to go to 2-3 days. Yesterday I relapsed two times first in the morning and second time in the afternoon. Is it binging?? I need your...

There are a few areas which I am insecure about with my life. Part of the reason why is because of PMO that makes me feel as though I am impulsive and that it's a good thing even when I am on a streak. I try to make an identity out of being 'spontaneous' and having multiple interests/ not having...

I don't know if anybody else is feeling this right now. But this week I have really felt lost... I have lost my passion for making music, lost game for talking to woman. Especially from the hurt I've been threw. I literally have spent my afternoons sleeping after work and then feeling fatigue...

I've been in fighting this addiction for 3.5 years. The first time I stopped, I did hardmode for 50 days. It was easy. I thought I wasn't an addict, so I tried relapsing. Worst decision of my life. Not immediately, because after that I also had some good streaks. 125 days, 166 days, 70 days...

I was waiting all summer really excited to go to college to study furniture making/design. But today I found out that my course was cancelled and it's too late to apply for other ones. I was counting on going to that course for the past 5 years and now I dont know what to do with myself. I...

Hey everyone, most of us are alone. We have lost our friends. Well I'm creating this thread so that people who lost their friends can build some confidence. I request everyone who is reading this "Can we be friends?" We can connect ourselves. We can get back that lost confidence. Although we...

Maybe it is only my impression, but after a big amount of days, you stop experiencing those amazing benefits. I remember when I was in the first months of Nofap: the benefits where there, I could feel how my life changed, like day-night. I was still on Reddit, reading those amazing success...

Maybe it is only my impression, but after a big amount of days, you stop experiencing those amazing benefits. I remember when I was in the first months of Nofap: the benefits where there, I could feel how my life changed, like day-night. I was still on Reddit, reading those amazing success...

Pay attention, please because this can take a while, so grab a coffee and something to eat, as this is lengthy, but this is my 1 year and 5-month journey of really high ups and low downs. I know there are people here like me. Let me introduce myself first: My name is Dawid. I am half...

Hello everyone, 3 days ago i sadly lost my 61 day streak. My mom and dad are on vacation so, i am all alone at home. And now that school is over here i was bored and then i slipped. I was sad but also happy because i have been masturbating for 5-6 years and i never could go above 2 months. But...

I’m on day 320 and I’m worse than I’ve ever been before. I’ve been on and off of streaks for the past year and now I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m so stupid. I kept on going a week and relapsing and now I’m worse than I was when it felt like I was finally breaking free of everything. I’m...

I am a 28 year old woman. i have been sober since a year and a half (stopped watching p). my first reboot that lasted a year started few months after this ex guy left me 3 years ago. he left me for another girl that started dating at least 2 months before he left me officially. she became a gf...

So new to this forum, really enjoyed reading forums and seeing positive feedback from everyone. I’m 24, I’ve been off porn for about 1 week now and it’s not my first time trying to quit either. I’ve had a bad addiction to cuckold porn, femdom humiliation and I think it all stems from bad...

She said: I really am that person who felt like we could have left well enough alone with a lot of these franchises. I am die-hard fan of the original Star Wars movies, you know, and sometimes I think you can devalue the original content. I think that can happen and I would hate to see that...

Hey guys, I'm new here and I need a big help, can I? Well, 14 days without PMO now! I met a girl last week and that's killing me, she immediately started chatting on whatsapp and telling me so many things about my voice (that's changed I think), saying how much her feel horny about my voice and...

as i was running 27th good with my Nofap Journey and today suddenly a sensual pop ads came and as i was surfing not more then 2 min my heart rate was fast and i cum without touched or anything, i have to start over again? or i am in the same road and i am feeling totally wasted like shit. i...

I'm back after a two year break from NoFap. I managed to get a degree as a result of the harm reduction that recovery has given me. But now the degree is over, I'm falling back into old patterns. Need a recovery booster.

My longtime boyfriend admitted to me that he's been a PA for so long and He's been cheating on me for 2 years. And I had no idea. He hides it very well. I thought all this time that he was a good man and he loves me so much. I feel so lost right now, I am deeply hurt. I love him with all my...

Hi everyone I’m at 85 days no PMO/artificial stimulation, but have had sex during this time. As I sit here and ponder how I’m feeling today, I just wanted to share and encourage feelings and discussion. While I feel proud to finally be working on improving myself from this nasty addiction, I do...

My posts are always long and there's tons of information here, apologies, but it's my situation and I could use some help from people in a similar one. I went for 115 days no PMO last year and I got out of the P cycle, I've also taken out videogames (41 days free), violent/horror tv shows and...

Well, here it is. I'm an addict. By every term and definition. I've been needing to tell anyone but I have reclused because of PMO addiction and have no community or trust. The use of P*rn started out healthy and normal albeit I was young but it took a steep decline in my adolescents and as a...

Hello everyone, I'm doing this thread in desperate need for advice and help. I am currently dating a beautiful and wonderful young lady. We celebrated our 1 year anniversary not too long ago, and we've become really close to one another and very much connected spiritually, and emotionally. I...

Hello all I started Nofap a couple months back. I wanted to leave my masturbation/orgasm/porn (whatever they are all the same thing) behind. It was easy at first but now its just impossible to do. I have binged twice and whenever I get back up, im always at square one. what do you guys...

I've been struggling since porn since the age of 13, now I'm 18 and I've been in NoFap for 2 years (Jan 10, 2016) I've never kissed, touched, nor had sex with the opposite sex. I'm honestly lost right now... I'm not sure where my life is headed. I'm still in high school (I'll be a senior soon)...

Hello everyone! :) I've been PMO-ing for 2 years now. I started beacuse I tought I'm in control, it hurts noone and I was bored. I did it about 3-4 times a week. Last year I got depressed very badly, my social anxiety just grew stronger, I'll talk about it later.* So I did it more often to...

Well I PMO twice today in the last 2 hours. Back to zero for me. I know why I did it. It's 100 percent my fault. I'm not going to throw blame, or try to reason to myself. I would like to discuss maybe this not resetting my clock, but just chalk it up to normal masturbation habits. Just a normal...

Hi fellow fapstronauts, I'd like to ask you if you have experienced and how you resolve feeling of guilt during your reboot. I've met with my old college mate today. She has a lot of things going on in life, nice partner, career in law, great social life... I couldn't help myself but to become...

Yeah I edged... Felt good on those 3 weeks because I was horny af for REAL SEX. I wanted to massage a girls body and booty with coconut oil. I no longer wanted to be the cuck watching. BUT. Its Valentines day. No date. So I edged..... I couldnt help it. Will this effect my erections? Will this...

It is hard for me to deal with this disorder and having no one to talk to about it.

A while ago I relapsed after a 134 days streak of no Porn. I realized it wasn't enough and since I've been trying to do the no PMO challenge to overcome my addiction. However, things aren't going very well. After so many tries and relapses I lost all will and motivation to try again, but...

As you see from my other posts, over the past few years I've had difficulties with watching adult videos, m******ation, and o****ing by myself. At first I had a lot of trouble rebooting; stopping the videos was the easy part, the physical release was the harder part. I had kindof a wild period...

I've been a gamer my whole life. PMO, drugs and games played a major role in my life but since I discovered NoFap I'm getting tired of this shit. Like really, what am I doing with my life. I'm wasting all this energy in front of a screen. I could use that time and money for something productive...

Hi guys my name is shadi and I wanted to turn my life around as I have just started uni and fapping is something that I've been doing since 4 th grade and I feel like I've been doing it for a long time and that makes it nearly impossible to quit it any advice on how I should start. I do it once...

hi everyone, I've been visiting the website on and off to look for ways to stop my addiction (porn+fapping) and I've like the fact that its active .. so Im here ! here is a little background of me : Im a college student , Im a muslim and thats mainly why Im here ,I want to stop forever and free...

I am struggling with this OCD long time ago, now every porn i see seems way to wrong and i try to relapse to soft things to 'clean the mind' man i feel lost in the point of the journey :( I feel way more guilty and ashamed than before, i don't know if this is good because in the end i will find...

Hi everyone, how are y'all? I'm new to this and it's not really user-friendly. Kind of lost on where/how to start. Can someone please help me? Thanks! I'm 19 years old and have had a bad porn addiction since the beginning of my teenage years. I might go on streaks, but it feels like I always...

So I relapsed twice to day, both times to porn which is unusual for me, and I lost a 5 day streak (fuckkkk) but that's not what I'm posting about. Basically, I know what I want to do right know. I know what I want to achieve in life and with NoFap, and I know that I want to get rid of my porn...

Whats up everyone, just wanna know if theres anyone else out there who lost most, if not all friends when they turned 20 haha. Im trying to push forward to create a better life even if it means going completely solo, anyone got any advice? NoFap was a start now I gotta keep making changes

Okay, So this is my second thread on Nofap because I couldn't find exactly what I was looking for. So forgive me if this already exists but I need to get it out. One of the mains reasons I choose Nofap is because nowadays, I can't feel anything! No emotions , No regrets, Reduced care for my...