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I recognised this when “that” part of my brain was trying to bargain with me. I know that the end result of a relapse is regret and dissatisfaction. What I don’t know is the part between the beginning and the end. I can predict what it’s likely to look like based off past experience, but...

Hello, I’m starting this journal as a form of public reflection and connection with others on this same path. I want to document and share my story and journey with others as I really set out to make this change in my life, and not only make the change but hopefully recover into connection with...

I've been struggling with porn addiction for about 10 years now, and I genuinely don't know how to get out of this cycle anymore. I've tried pretty much everything: quitting cold turkey, gradually reducing my consumption, the Easy.Peasy method, getting into a relationship, porn blockers, you...

At this point, the purpose of porn in my life is a distraction from confronting boredom or stress. Got nothing to do? Porn. Can’t get back to sleep? Porn. Anxious about work tomorrow? Porn. At times, quitting looks like a monumental task because it feels like my entire life would have to be...

There's one thing I've really noticed throughout my addiction: that is everyone (mostly young men around my age for the most part) are very open about the porn they consume, along with a lot of other degenerate things like "pumping and dumping" or straight up idolizing pornstars themselves. I've...

Why do I always get my strongest urges when I’ve just woken up in the morning? I’ll wake up and my mind will immediately start trying to make me think about particular models, videos etc.

Hey everyone I'm working on a tool to help with quitting porn, and before building anything further I want to actually understand what people here are going through, not guess at it. If you've tried to quit (whether it stuck, or you've relapsed a few times), I'd really value a 15-20 min...

Hey everyone I'm working on a tool to help with quitting porn, and before building anything further I want to actually understand what people here are going through, not guess at it. If you've tried to quit (whether it stuck, or you've relapsed a few times), I'd really value a 15-20 min...

Earlier I went for a run and now as I sit here my mind is trying to remind me of models I liked, videos I watched etc. What causes this? Is the mind more vulnerable after exercise?

I get morning wood daily. But, I never get hard seeing women IRL, and with porn it’s not much better. Where on the PIED-severity scale does this place me, and what does it indicate about my road to recovery?

I’ve started my journey of quitting porn this past week, because I’m addicted but also have PIED. Ignoring porn urges through the day is turning out to be okay, so far. The problems I’m facing at the moment are two things: my morning wood and the urges that are there when I wake up. I do have...

I also have a porn downloading and saving problem. Here is my story so it can help you maybe. I'm 24 btw. when i think about like the root of this thing this addiction it really comes from when i was in grade seven i remember like right away like just finding one video and being like this...

I have masturbated on 14 June 2026 and it is the last time ever I will not watch porn and not masturbate till i go for 90 days this addiction ruined my career ruin my life ruin my studies ruin my college life I get fed up of this addiction this is the last time the 15 days is my first step 29...

hey guys i'm very new to forums but i thought it would be a good idea to try i talked to my gf about wanting to stop, and seeking her support. she is very sensitive about the subject and this is why talking about it with people outside might be beneficial, as i can be less filtered. today i...

I've read many people here write that abstaining made them more focused and gave them the clarity of mind they were missing for so long. But, I have a curious case where I just can't focus until I do not masturbate. When I haven't masturbated atleast once in a day I just keep getting these...

Even though I know I'm not really what my addiction made me see or read, it still causes me great guilt and has brought me a lot of trauma. Sometimes I have guilt attacks that make me think I'm a monster, even though deep down I know I'm not really like that.

It's been a long time since I've written a blog post on this site, but I feel like now is the best time to come back. Recently, I've been making bigger and greater steps toward canning porn addiction and masturbation once and for all. I watched a few videos recently that helped me see a bigger...

My husband started intensive ERP at the peak of a hormonal storm (Basedow) after he said he wants to divorce, calling our sex life "trash". He actually had ED and desensitization after years of porn addiction. During his "chemical horny" phase, he spent weeks writing smut, erotic and romance...

Hello everyone, I am a game developer/software engineer who has been addicted to porn, masturbation and sex for the last 12 years. I was watching a video which told me that sex in real life is very simple compared to what was shown on the screen. I am trying to accept this fact but I am not...

Day 1. Feb 6 2026. Hey. I'm Captain Cold. I feel confident. I'm ready to NoFap for at least two weeks. But a month is the goal. Ive got my herbal smokes, zero sugar candy and a few other things to replace the dopamine with. I'm a little antsy. Constantly trying to pry my mind off sexual...

I've been doing this shit since I was 10 years old, the first time I masturbated was when I was 11. I really started getting addicted to it when I was 12. I started watching increasingly heavy content, when I realized how serious it was, I was already at rock bottom. I am currently experiencing...

So one thing I've figured out is that I have more of a MO addiction than a porn one but porn is the trigger, without it I can't jerk off, so I was wondering if anyone knew of any good porn blocker apps that I can't disable through settings. I've had a blocker app that worked but I started...

Yes. I've PIED. Caused due to porn addiction of like 15 years. And its severely bad. I can only masturbate with watching porn. As I begin my journey to recovery, I thought I would share it here. Firstly to keep myself accountable. And secondly as a reference if any other fellow journeymen would...

What is PAWS? PAWS stands for Post-Acute Withdrawal Syndrome** (also known as protracted withdrawal or prolonged withdrawal syndrome). It describes a set of lingering psychological, emotional, and sometimes cognitive symptoms that can continue long after the initial acute (mostly physical)...

I am 21 years old and I have been addicted to pornography for almost 14 years. In the beginning, it was just excessive masturbation and normal porn, which gave me pleasure. Over time, my brain needed more stimulation, and things started changing. I got exposed to gay content, then femboy...

Hello everyone, I've been struggling with pornography and masturbation addiction for approximately the past six years, and today marks my first day attempting the NoFap challenge. I want to share the various negative impacts this addiction has had on my life: Sexual life ruined: Last...

Hello, how are you doing? I'm new here and I don't know much English so. I want to stop consuming porn, I've been at it for 6 years and almost daily, I've come to be in a very difficult state for me, I'm not doing anything for my life and I'm sinking deeper and deeper and deeper, I've tried to...

Join me for this challenge! The goal is to be Porn free (Porn free, not just PMO-free) for 7 days... This challenge is for those who need more than just PMO-free to feel good. :emoji_angel:

Hello, Scroll down if you dont want to read the entire thing just how I quit porn It’s currently 4 a.m., and I’m in a foreign country. As I write this, I feel like I’m standing at a major turning point in my life. So I’ve decided to share my story with you that’s quite unusual – in the hope...

hi all, new here and have had a masturbation addiction for over 15 years, starting to affect my every day tasks. I’ve skipped nights out with friends to stay at home and you know what, anyway. Let’s hope this is the start of a journey to nofap

Help, I can't stop peeking. I feel lonely, and every time I feel lonely, I peek, looking for stupid things without seeing any images, then I go into those sites and cover the whole screen and only see a gray corner... There I have a stupid slip, I close everything and feel bad... I have 5 days...

Many many years ago (before the pandemic) I decided I really didn't want to get involved with pornography anymore. It was probably when I first found out about all the horrifying shit that goes on in the backstage (abuse and rape of porn stars, to begin with). I also read up on the neurological...

So im 15 currently, this all started back when i was 8 already masturbating cause i thought it felt good. Fast foward to when i was around 11 i discovered porn and quickly got addicted. Ever since then ive been watching it for almost every day, i feel really lost. Over the years i tried to quit...

Hey everyone, I’m almost 47 days porn-free and I’m experiencing some extreme symptoms. I want to know if anyone else has gone through this. What I’m feeling: Severe anxiety and headaches, sometimes starting as soon as I wake up. Physical urges that feel concentrated in the brain, pushing...

Hi! 26 M, grew up watching hardcore porn from a young age (12-13 onwards). I have had issues with sex with all 3 of my sexual partners in my life. Specifically, I both: 1) Struggle to keep an erection. I am fit and healthy (clean bloodwork), but without a little bit of pharmaceutical help I...

I was born in the late 90s and discovered that thing called the internet in 2005 and never used it to watch porn until 2009 or so. That's like a decade of pure normal life... In that time, I remember my dad bringing those CDs and DVDs but never set foot in his business. I enjoyed my life being a...

I want to be as clear as the title, I didn't masturbate because it felt great, I did it because I was sick, got problems, didn't know what to do instead. This is what porn has made of me, an abnormal person, hesitant, tired... etc Now it's hard to masturbate, even though I get some temptations...

I really want to see a dominatrix. I enjoy the experience and want to try it again, but i feel like this is bad for so many reasons. It is expensive, the connection is tied with money and is limited, bdsm is viewed in a bad light by many, etc. I feel conflicted, but i dont know what to do. I...

I am married, have a 6 year old child and a smoking hot wife. I used to be very active but really since I started using porn as a crutch I have been lethargic. I don't know where to begin. I hate myself for watching porn, my wife hates it and it breaks her boundaries. Sometimes I have the urge...

(I'm sorry if I did any of this wrong please let me know if I did) It all started when I was young sneaking downstairs on the family computer, I hit puberty young with a massive sex drive, I thought it was a gift when I was young but now I understand it's a curse and I only ever made it worse...

I'm curious as to how many people here have considered talking to a doctor or therapist about this issue? I'm curious as to how many people are too embarrassed to bring this up or if they're fine with it.

Hey guys, so the urges are stronger than ever and I am reaching day 7 tomorrow which had been my record streak for the longest time but now I am committed to breaking it and moving forward. However, at random times of the day or night, sexual fantasies come in and dopamine starts to hit and I...

Holy hell I’ve been so frustrated because I don't feel good masturbating in the normal way after 16 years of prone masturbating, I'm 25 now. It feels so uncomfortable touching and stroking the head of the penis with the foreskin pulled back, the sensation is even crazier when it's wet. Imagine...

Hey guys, I am currently on a 13 day streak and in the last few days I have been feeling extremely horny. I made the fatal error of reinstalling my snapchat and talking to women and getting hard a few times. I even touched myself once or twice but not actually masturbated. Since I have been...

Hey guys, I am currently on a 13 day streak and for the last week or so I have only been able to sleep a maximim of 6.5 hours a day. I wake up feeling a bit tired and try to go back to sleep but it just doesnt work. I then just get up and go about my day. I still feel fairly normal throughout...

Before I begin, I am not trying to convince, convert or persuade anyone into any religion, spiritual teaching, cult etc. I just want to offer a spiritual perspective to addiction. I had a porn addiction that was literally crippling me. I was into fetishes that were shameful and disgusting...

Hey all, Making the first step to post here in this forum. I've been struggling with this addiction for the past year and I really want to stop. There's something about beautiful women being dominated by these hung men which makes me get off. I've also looked into QOS fetish, and I'm afraid...

Hi everyone, I’m struggling with betrayal trauma caused by my partner’s pornography consumption. We had a serious conversation at the beginning of the year, during which I made it clear that I consider pornography to be a form of betrayal and that I would end the relationship if it happened...

So I got 2 questions, 1. Is it possible to fully physically recover from regular masturbation & porn (weekly- daily) over the course of 5 years 13-18? 2. How long would it take to fully recover after abstinence?

Look i want to tell you how I feel coz i feel so sad depressed idk the feeling whenever I close my eyes i see porn generated by mind which means that my brain is damaged or something and i feel so down and sadness in my chest I feel like I already destroyed my brain and...

I've been visiting a massage parlour in my home town, but really its just a brothel in disguise. Anyway I saw this one girl regular and she gave me her number, at first, it was to say "good night" "good morning dear, then she asked me would I pretend to be her partner so she wouldn't get...

Ok I started counting today. If relapse I will report it on here and start over.

Hello all, !!!PLEASE HELP!!! Need your experts input here. I am 33 and I had porn addiction from 20 years I used masterbate everyday till the year 33. I was married at 31 till 32 me and my wife lived in different country so I used to still masterbate until she came to live with me. Later we...

i am not watching from a week and doing NoFap also at the same time but today i when i was sleeping at night i was having urges and sexual thoughts was coming in my mind and i released precum (transparent water)from penis will it be counted in relapse

Hi, I'm new to this site, but I do have a porn addiction. If anyone here considers themself a praying person, I'm trying to date again soon. Thanks. i-like-math.

i remember talking to chatgpt about porn recovery and it lead me here after a bit of digging around here, i decided to commit to it, so a new journey begins, out of curiosity andoneesle been lead here by chat gpt?

Hello brothers, I really need your help and don’t know what to do anymore. So my situation is the following: I have been watching and edging hours long to femdom, IR porn, sissy, etc (also “normal porn” ) and have been chatting on sexchats. I am attending therapy (we are working on my past...

I was listening to the "Art of Manliness" podcast (corny sounding name but seriously worth checking out) and he recently had a psychologist on who works with men who suffer from "enmeshment" with their mothers. Enmeshment means you put your mother's needs over your own needs, can't set...

D11 I masterbated yesterday after sobering 9 days. But i didn't want to fall for it. I will try again. I want it to give up this shit. Today no one is home except me and my brothers wife. Bad thoughts coming in my mind about her. I want to get rid of it. This will drive me to masturbate and...

Hi so I have recently discovered that I have PIED and it was a shock because Im used to having rock hard erections when I masturbate. But I have been trying to sleep around and so far when im with a partner it turns into a confusing mess on why Im unable to stay hard if im able to stay hard im...

Hey all, I’ve been doing well on my journey for a few months now. I’ve abstained from all social media and thoroughly vetted everything I watch on tv to avoid triggers. My therapist recommended the last one for at least a while. I really want to be able to watch my favorite shows but some of...

Hi guys, I'm a YouTuber and I make good videos on YouTube. For God's sake, I have so much potential and everything in my life is going well. I earn a good amount too (touchwood). However, I've been struggling with PMO (porn, masturbation, and orgasm) addiction for the last 11 years. I went to...

•d2 I am a college student. Most of my expenses bear my brother. My father only depends on pension. It's my responsibility to show a better output to my brother by showing a good result. I can't waste that opportunity by PMO. I must do that! There is no alternative.....

I remember when I was 15 years old I used to sleep with my mother. When everyone slept I discovered some kind of noises in bed. Generally I have seen dad with mother in night having sex. But with little light I seen that that was not my dad. That was another person and the person was my brother...

I smoke when I visit some places near our town. I never smoke in my home or my home area. I want to quit that too. I keep watching women when I smoke and fantasizing about their body parts and smoke a cigarette or two sometimes keep staring at women and thinking negatively about their bodies...

Hello everybody, I'ts been a long time for me struggling with porn and all what it concerns. Now i've became an adult, with family and children and this problem is still here. I would like to share with you my theory about this thing and the main reason why do we fail. Basically we were all...

I forgot how to make my own journal through this website. So I'll just post this publicly for now. I decided to cancel my account to this site a few months ago because my views no longer aligned with the NoFap philosophy and to be honest, it still quite doesn't. I believe that PMO is ok if you...

I need professional help, but I’m too ashamed to ask for it. I’ve been trying to quit porn for over a couple months, however during this summer break my motivation to end all related to it increased. I deleted all my Twitter, Quora, Reddit and Instagram accounts which I used for masturbating...

So guys i’m 26 yrs old and have everything set in life in terms of money but that’s the only thing i have. From 15 years old i have masturbated almost every day , the max i did was 5-6 times in one day. I had a girlfriend for 2 years which was a live in relationship and things were good sex wise...

With all this porn everywhere on the internet my sex drive is almost never ending so many women and fetishes and sexual fantasies to indulge myself in what a decade to be alive.

Hey my name is Rasmus, I just wrote a book about addiction & and its reality. In the book i am to give a new perspective on spirituality and how it relates to porn use. The book's name is, Porn The Serpent That Took The Pride of Man and you can find it on Amazon. It aims to break the cycle of...

If not I understand, but please point me to the right place to do some writing and get some feedback. I have a history of sexual exposure/trauma that I am trying to work through so I can beat this disgusting, evil habit, and need a place to write and get feedback and encouragement. I'm also...

I edged by looking up porn when I shouldn't have. I wasn't even masturbating or touching my penis, I was just looking at porn. I definitely got precum or some type of fluid coming out of my penis when I was aroused when I was edging myself. I ended up eventually masturbating, and when I did...

This thread is to gather all the lies we have been told by porn, about porn & for porn. In order for us to help each other not get deceived by porn and all the lies surrounding it. I will share my own lies and illusions about porn and how this affected me so far. Actually those lies are what...

When I say inadvertently peeking, I mean does seeing a hot girl on social media or a sex scene in a tv show or a movie count as a relapse if I'm on a no-pmo journey. I don't deliberately look up porn. I have taken that out of my life, for good. I don't go on private mode or incognito mode...

Hello, I have done it to get away from porn, but also masturbation. Now in the recent weeks, I have heard from many people and Social-Media, how bad it is, to not masturbate. Is it true? Should I stop my streak? I am feeling very good since stopping, but now I am feared of developing some...

Hi, I'm 21 years old and I've been watching porn for about 10 years. I grew up watching movies with my parents, and when any kind of minimally sexual scene appeared, I felt curious about it, but at the same time I felt nervous, nervous about talking about it with my parents, or indicating any...

I am new to this community but my goal is same as you all present here I want to be free from this never ending addiction of porn and masturbation I have tried before in the past but I was unable to stop this addiction so I herd about this community from my friends and thought of giving it a...

Hi all, thought I would share ways that have worked for me getting over PIED and what I have observed from people trying to recover. I will start with the below because people are going to ask “but how sever were you?” Or “how long did you PMO?” Or “what type of porn we’re watching?” I am 35...

Hey everyone. I jerked off twice to violent porn and after feeling shitty, obviously, I googled once again how to quit it and it brought me here. I loved reading the posts. And in general I thought wow this is amazing, not to be alone. For me nighttime is the worst because I know I will do it...

↑ This tread is about Mantak Chia Taohist 'sexual healing' techniques combined with pornography, how this is a dreadful combination. Please let me know what you think. ¨Out of interest, how did these techniques fuck you up?¨ My response to your question is very late I'm sorry. About the...

I think it is worth watching the full video before commenting/posting. There is a lot of information here.

Even if all the people of the world become corrupt and immoral, your mind should not be occupied with them; Because each human being is "alone" in front of God and must be accountable for their actions: "And the coming of the Day of Resurrection tomorrow" At all, suppose that all the people of...

I was thinking earlier about accomplished men of the past (inventors, writers, painters, composers, architects, generals) and about how the celibacy or abstinence from sexual activity of quite a few is well documented. For countless examples, look into books like Brain Gain by Danavir Goswami...

"love the people, hate the sin" in this thread i'm planning to gather all the reasons to hate porn. i learned that the problem we still attached to porn is not because of loneliness and stress and other excuses. i know it happens. i felt those too. but so does all free people. so the...

I did 52 days in patient care for depression anxiety but I also did not masturbate or watch pornos as well as a benefit. Such clarity such peace, I feel the serenity it is surreal, please focus on your purpose and sacrifice. Mental health is important.

Hi, I'm new here. I wanted to write out my journey with porn addiction so far as much for my clarity as anything else but also to ask for advice moving forward as I'm not sure of the best path. Although I have been a regular porn user for the entirety of my adult life over the last 8 years it...

Does anyone think they deserve to be cheated on because of all the porn they've looked at? Sometimes I think that. I'm single at the moment and I sometimes imagine being cheated on in the future. If I were ever cheated on I think I would accept it because that's what I get for looking at porn.

Hi, I'm 25M and have been watching porn since 12. I spend way too much time watching porn, which is now affecting my work and personal life. I want to get rid of my addiction and hence joined NoFap. For most of my life, I have been very lonely, which I believe is the primary reason I watch...

Anyone else know what I mean ? It's as huge sexually exciting rush but then after I just feel board and disappointed and sometimes disgust After what I just looked at and got off too.

I'm an 40 yr old, who has been watching porn since I was a teenager. When I first watched a DVD I bought from a sex shop in London, I never knew that it would change my life as an adult forever. I recently ended an eight-year relationship with the love of my life. I struggled to feel anything...

How does looking at porn affect your parenting? Back in the day when I would listen to Pastor Mark Driscoll, he said that men who look at porn will withdraw from their daughters when they become teenagers (due to how porn sexualises teenagers). For anyone who's a father have you done that...

Does anyone remember him? There are still videos of him up on YouTube.

I joined NoFap journey in december and today it is around 75th day without PMOing, I stopped countung long time ago, sometimes I have urge but I really easy avoid that. I think I am done with P forever. The thing that is going around my head is that I watched BDSM much more that “normal” P and I...

The podcast Your Undivided Attention did an episode on AI porn. It shows how AI is changing porn and not for the better. In the podcast, they talk about how it's being used as a form of revenge and street cred. How this type of porn has come about with the advancement of technology and women...

Has anyone been made aware of certain porn sites from a thread or post in this forum? I have. One time this guy mentioned a certain porn site by name and how it made him go into debt. Out of curiosity I visited the site and got quite addicted to it. I'm not blaming him for my addiction to it, I...

What do you do when you really want to look at porn? About 60% of the time I have no interest in looking at porn. During these times I'm so focused on doing important stuff that the thought of looking at porn doesn't cross my mind. But there are other moments when I really want to look at it...

I don’t know what is wrong with me, I have lost all respect for myself, I don’t know what the fuck was going through my head but I ordered a fleshlight and relapsed after 35 days. I feel incredibly ashamed and want to die, this is the most painful relapse even worse than one I had after 120...

Hi everyone, I am not even sure where I should start from, so I guess I'll just start from the very beginning and let my thoughts guide my fingers over the keyboard (WARNING: is going to be a long post, maybe not even a cool one, but I really need to do this). To give you a broad idea of how...

My last post was in 2017 when I discovered nofap. Since that time, I had failed constantly up until now, December 2023 where I am currently on Day 93. This is a miracle to be honest. I have no idea how it happened. I cannot give anyone tips. All I can give you is my testimony. I am a...