recovery

I use "avoiding" as that's how it has seemed over the past few weeks. I haven't even been counting the days (of course once I post this and see my counter I'll have a better idea of how long it's been). What has happened is that I'm feeling emotions a lot more. Every so often I'll binge on...

Thank you to whoever takes their time to read this, These past two weeks have been hard, but these next two weeks and beyond will be easy as heck. This post will be what success will look like for me and how I also want it to look like for you. I am in no way saying how you should live your...

Hi folks, one good way to assist in the overcoming of a porn habit is through the participation in a 12 step fellowship program, which includes getting a sponsor and developing a recovery network. Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous (SLAA) is one group that is friendly to all walks of life for people...

Hey everyone, just came out of a crazy couple of few days. New to the community and started my journey to change my life around 10 days ago. I just wanted to tell you guys how i overcame one of my biggest living nightmares. i was suppose to be on chill spring break for 10 days with family but my...

I'm over 6.5 months PMO free as of today. Most of what I'm about to say isn't new but I do believe individual experiences can be great motivators in pushing us to achieving our goals. I was in flatline for the first 34 days. Straight up emptiness, zero motivation or energy to do anything. I...

Hi everybody, I'd like to ask you when did you get your spontaneous erections back (without touching it). I've been severely addicted to PMO for cca 17 years. I'm in "hard mode" (no sex/no PMO) for 94 days now and still in total flat line with no real libido. I get morning woods now and then...

All, I am having trouble getting joy and happiness out of things after giving up PMO. I realize that my brain is still addicted to the intense high I used to get from PMO and everything else seems to pale in comparison. I have been sober for 7 weeks and I am hoping that this will get...

I need to know there is still hope. Going through puberty, I would often wake up with rock hard morning wood. I started PMO at 14 and I am now 31 trying to reboot. I have not had morning wood for many years. I don't have ED, just no morning wood. Is there anyone out there who has experienced...

Hey, I am Josh and a ex-porn user. I have not used porn since July 1, 2012 at 11:59 PM. I have fallen countless times and have gotten back up countless times. My motivations for signing up are meeting others that have struggled to get back up. This addiction has such a dark side, in that it...

I have to say I've relapsed but it was really interesting what happened. Compared to a lot of people I have been addicted to porn for maybe 5 years. I started nofap on January of 2017. I've had pretty long streaks and when I relapse I get back up. Anyway I had an urge and found myself watching...

Hey all, So my husband is new to the reboot, to get our history/my story - please check out my journal. Long story short, I've caught him PM'ing / lying /denying way too many times. He's on his last leg with me, us; our marriage. After our latest D-Day, he joined this forum in the hopes of...

This is something that Ive never done before, and with this I'm talking about writing a thread on the forums, even though I've been a self-proclaimed Fapstronaut for a long time. In any case, hi. Hope you've had a nice day so far, regardless of whether you got to add another day to your pmo...

My addiction to porn is coupled with addiction to sex and seeing life through a filter of sex. I ended up cheating on my partner over the Web with someone I knew in another country. Things were going very well for awhile, maintaining rigorous honesty and transparency, we started actually making...

In recovery from addiction, support groups are a great benefit to the individual in recovery. Addiction is about lack of connection and so recovery is about connecting with healthy persons, places, and things. Currently, I have attended 2 Celebrate Recovery meetings and 2 Sex and Love Addicts...

the trigger arouse in midnight and moreover if i am awake the chance is i will give in to pmo... this is happening me with many times this month ..... so i decided to use guided yoga nidra session every night by putting the bluetooth speaker in my room and to handover the smartphone to my...

I have an accountability partner and this has been hugely helpful in staying clean off porn use and manual ejaculation. Yet, I am still looking for other resources to better mindfully handle urges to use porn. (And I counselor people diagnosed with Opioid Use Disorder, so I know addiction and...

So today morning (36th day) I had the hardest morning wood since God knows when, and when I wanted to test out how effective the recovery's been, I did a sort of self-experiment, which most guys here would discourage me from, but I know my limits. I started fantasizing about the girl I love...

FOR some time, we’re talking about a few days, maybe even a week. I’m not sure how long to be exact. I concede that I’ve lost track on how many days to be exact. I feel that I don’t have the drive and motivation of late to do things. Yet, I don’t feel depressed and I have plenty of energy to do...

Hello, I look forward to this journey of recovery. I'm 24 years old, and I started PMOing at the age of 14. My friends from school introduced me to Internet porn. I've been using it consistently ever since. I wouldn't consider myself a heavy user, but regardless I'm still an addict. I've never...

Planning, planning, planning. On a journey such as NoFap, planning helps us to better navigate our lives. Planning helps us to identify goals. It helps us to identify any problems that might come up and take measures as appropriate. It’s true that even the best laid plans go awry. But is that...

Hello. I quit porn about two months ago and have been on recovery ever since. My long-time Internet porn addiction evolved into a sex addiction and I did wrong things. In last November I "woke up" because somebody on a dating site told me how wrong I had done and I told my spouse. Long story...

Where to begin! I've tried to wean myself off PMO twice before. Both times I failed. Miserably. The first time I tried I went 4 days. The second time I went 10, before an unexpected breakup blindsided me and threw pretty much everything out of sorts. Since then, I've worked on myself quite a...

hey all i keep reading that when one gives up an "addiction" - about 6 months or so later, debilitating depression sets in and subconscious issues "come to the surface." - the very issues addicts have been AVOIDING and DENYING by using porn, drugs, alcohol etc. I personally felt I've just...

I was listening to the most recent episode of the Death, Sex & Money podcast and they had an interview with a recovered addict. She's not a PA but a DA however she had an interesting thing to say about recovery. Here's a quote from her: I would be sitting there with like seven years sober and...

Well I've been thinking about what to write next, after my 90 days post I just tried to pay attention towards how my life was playing out and I think this is the first time I feel this kind of happiness. This week, I had to study a lot, gave my last 2 finals on thursday. Now i'm an architect...

still have my hesitations...worries...fears. i feel like he's being serious about this recovery, but i don't know if he's making/taking the steps. it scares me. what if he's hiding it from me again? i have all the precautionary things added (parental controls, etc.) i check his history and if i...

I use the word husbands but if your wife is the PA just change it to wife as you read. I think our husbands are the loving men we have always thought they were. i am trying to be positive i do not always think this way and i will not lie and say that its an easy thing to try to think this way...

I thought I'd start a thread where folks can put "soundbites" that have helped shape their recovery. Short, pithy and relevant, these statements should become a repository of helpful thoughts and words that you can grab on the run. Let me start with a few I saw today: the battle is winnable...

I was on this forum before but faded out, I'm back and want to offer support and be supported as a part of a community - very keen on connecting with people and keeping each other accountable. Aside from AP I was thinking of a group idea: I see there's now a 12 step one in the Groups section, I...

1. Does it really help your acne? 2. Did it help with anxiety? 3. Did it make your penis bigger in any way? 4. Do girls become more attracted to you? (I read that NoFap leads to higher testosterone, which leads to more pheromones you give off) 5. Do you find chicks that you thought were...

<Warning: Possible Triggers> Hi, I decided I might visit my ex-girlfriend yesterday as we'd not seen each other for a while. She said I could come over to her house and so I went over and we had some coffee, a little chat. She was touchy but we were (and remain) close. Anyway, long story...

I've been going through a few things in my mind recently and have some questions for people who have been doing NoFap for a long time now. Here goes: 1. How long do flatlines last? My dick feels like it's been dead for ages now and I'm starting to worry if my libido will ever come back. 2. Has...

So I've been addicted to porn/masturbation since I was 11 years old. I'm almost 18 now. Never ever had an issue with getting a hard on. This is so weird I just had a 5 day streak, which is an average streak for me the longest I've managed to get to is 2 weeks. I relapsed just now, and had a...

Warriors against porn and degeneracy! In this thread, tell us how you are waging war against this great evil to ascend to your highest potential. What specific actions have you taken? Help your brethren out! Research has shown that drug addicts who were successful in recovering fully were the...

Hi all My name is Lee, I'm from England and have been a sex/porn addict for around 8 years. I thought I'd share a few struggles and join here to share, open up and take some advice as I continue the path towards recovery. Over the years, my addiction has steadily progressed. It started as a...

Hello guys! I am going to share some quick advice for anyone out there battling PMO! I have been struggling for years now, but I would definitely be in a worse state than I am in if it wasn't for my religious attitude on life. I've been involved in this terrible addiction of PMO, but up until...

As a business student in college, I wonder if Blue Coat knows of the loyal psychographic men out there that use their product to help them overcome PIED. All thanks to @Awakening123 I've been able to very well find hope in myself with this program. It has allowed me to sort of make a game out of...

I apologize for the bouncing around in this post. For those of you that are new, my husband has PA, I want to help him, but I am I also going through some betrayal trauma. I don't want this stuff to bother me. I don't I don't want to think that it had anything to do with me. I don't want to...

I got a challenge for you guys, this thread is for November. Lets do our best to go the whole month PMO free!!!

Hey guys, I have an announcement to make. I relapsed after 60 days of NoFap NoPMO but with wet dreams. On the 60th day of Nofap (59 days completed), I had a wet dream and couldn't help myself cum into the dream. I felt guilty after waking up and had this feeling that I've relapsed. I hate wet...

Well, I've reached 90 days, for the first time in my life I have been porn-free for 3 months. I apologize in advance for the long post, but it's about how my mind and values changed thanks to the reboot. Maybe some of you can relate and be inspired to follow the same path. It's worth it. I...

I have been PMO free for 10 days today and i challenge myself and everybody to reboot. 90 days PMO free.. Anyone up for it ?

Last night, I went on a date with a friend and we ended up hooking up. I have to admit that it hasn't been 30 days, yet, on my counter. The time that I've invested in abstinence has paid off. We had sex twice last night, and two more times this morning. I was very pleased with my...

When you stay in a dark room for many years and finally decide to come out of it and see the bright light of sun outside, then initially you will find it hard and painful to open your eyes and let them adjust to the brightness outside and there will be moments when you would feel so...

Just relapsed after a 10 day streak, and this time around I am resolving to give up. Not give up trying to abstain/reboot, mind you. But give up trying to do so on my terms. Basically I have been caught in a cycle for YEARS now where I will tell myself that I will do whatever it takes, and will...

Hello all! I need advice again. This weekend me and my boyfriend were intimate but no penetration of course and i am wondering if what we do to please me helps at all with his recovery or would it be counted as a trigger?? In more details we like to spice things up in the bedroom since we are...

I recently achieved 6 months PMO free :emoji_blush: half a year of my new life, looking forward to reach my first year of recovery. It gets easier and easier :emoji_crown: I am an ex female sex and p addict btw. God is my strenght :emoji_church: Some sentences that I found mostly on R Tribe app...

Hey Guys, So I am 30 year old male and definitely had a problem from my early Tweens to early twenties 12-23. Would masturbate a lot to some really weird shit, but anyways at some point for some reason the wierd stuff stopped turning me on and I actually just started to want Vanilla natural...

Hi guys I am a pornography and sex addict. I have been watching porn since I was 10 after a family friend told me to go onto the playboy website. Ever since then, I've been hooked. Im now 25 years old (birthday was 2weeks ago) and can safely say that porn has had a significant negative in...

Okay, so I don't think I've ever really had a proper wet dream before. Maybe a small one once or twice. Lately though, I've been having a different type of dream. Lots of my dreams lately are just of me relapsing to porn, realizing what I'm doing, stopping before O, and then feeling really...

I wonder if there's any ? Now before any of you accuses me of "seeking an easy way" or "missing the point", I'd like to point out that I've been there, done that. I for one believe that you cannot cheat when it comes to NoFap : either you do, either you don't, nothing except sheer abstinence...

Hi, I am starting the fight today! Brief intro : - Male 26yo - Used porn since 16yo with different phases : Start : Family problems + Pain + ALone+ Aggressive Hyper Stressed Family + no affection + Conditional love + Stress for School results+ Teenagers Complex + Start of phone with...

Hello everyone! I just signed up to become a fapstronaut and am beginning my road to recovery from my porn and masturbation addiction. I am currently 18 years old and have struggled with a masturbation addiction for years. I've tried to quit multiple times but I always end up returning to old...

Hi. Since watching porn and jerking off becomes such a regular negative activity for us, to completely recover we need to develop a new good habit, that replaces porntime. For me, it is going to the gym.That's what I will begin from this weekend onwards.

At the onset of teenage, nudity itself is so much fascinating. The problem lies when we start ignoring how much we are drowning into porn, just for some minutes of ecstasy, ignoring our physical and mental health as well. Personally, it started on similar ground for me. Over the years, I dived...

Hey everyone, my name is Giovanni, and I'm 24 years old I've been struggling with porn for 12 years. Like the title says, and why I imagine most are here, I want my life back. I've been feeling a lot of the effects of pornography in my daily life for quite some time and I feel as if beginning...

We talk about willpower a lot. We often praise the attribute and talk about how much willpower we need in our recovery. However, there is just one problem with the idea of willpower: most people see it as a character trait that you either have or don’t have. For people that struggle with...

Well guys, it happened. I relapsed. More than once after setting myself a challenge to go a whole month in time for comic con. But I've learned something from this as well. The reason we get urges to relapse is because of our thoughts and how one thought can lead to another. This is why many...

Hey boys and girls! I want to appeal to any biology or anatomy geeks out there, by asking the question that brought me to my journey here at NoFap. It's no secret that many men suffer from various levels of ED, and more than a few of us came to nofap attempting to regain the sensitivity they...

I found out two days ago that my boyfriend of over a year is addicted to porn and has been in the throes of his addiction for two years, and has been watching porn since the age of 13 (he is 19 and so am I). Here is the content of the thread I posted when I first found out: "I found out that my...

I can certainly say that at this point, the rebooting process feels much better than 30 days ago. 30 days ago, I experienced some tough withdrawal symptoms such as depression and social anxiety. Today, I have more confidence in myself and around women, more energy and motivation, less anxiety...

Hey guys. Just had my first wet dream of July and my first wet dream in nearly three weeks. Sad thing is that I was feeling the best I had felt in this entire process, like I had finally succeeded. Was getting erections, but wasn't really that aroused and didn't think about sex at all almost...

Day 1 I have decided to create this thread as a means of ensuring that I will visit NoFap daily and keep myself accountable. This thread will serve as my new journal as well as a medium for others to seek/give advice and to offer suggestions and words of encouragement. My initial goal is to...

When I mean SFW I mean visually safe. Because a lot of the websites I visit about Karezza have a lot of triggering pictures in their article. I'm too worried that if I spend too much time searching for a proper one I'd eventually end up looking at too much triggering material. Thanks

For Mac users, you can have a live Day Counter on your desktop! See your streak every time you open your computer! Pay attention to your numbers and not the porn! It's called Countdown Widget. You can customize it however you want to: size, color, icon, title etc. See link...

Hey Friends, The first time I was exposed to pornography I was 12 or 13 years old. I was at a friends house surfing the internet and we accidentally came upon a porn site that we quickly shut off. When I went home that night I couldn’t get the image out of my head and I was curious enough to...

I want to share this video with every sex addict. Both males and females. I bumped into this video randomly about a year ago on youtube I was trying to understand why I became a sex addict, the causes that brought me to sex as my main addiction. Why did I turn to sex instead of food, drugs or...

This thread is mainly for me to look back on for motivation when I'm struggling, but I hope those who view this will also find strength. I am a 20 year old, born-again christian. My faith is my top priority and I'm tired of the guilt from living an unholy life. Masturbating has truly scarred my...

Have you ever been triggered and felt a strong urge to watch porn or masturbate? While ignoring (suppressing) an urge may temporarily put it under control, it will eventually come back. It's like trying to hold down a beach ball under water. It’s not too difficult at first… but the longer you...

In the red circle we put the sexual behaviors we want to abstain from, the ones we consider “acting out.” These are the behaviors that we identify as addictive, harmful, or unacceptable for us. In the yellow circle we put behaviors that may lead to acting out, like triggers, or that we are not...

Hello, my name is (not) Ignacio. I'm 19 years old and I've been using online porn for 7+ years. Porn has only had a negative influence on my life as it clouds my vision to see God's grace. It has caused me to remain as shy as I always have been and has changed the way I view everybody. My porn...

Thought i'd drop a little message on here since you guys have really helped me get to where i am now. A little history... started pmo very young, started with mags, graduated to internet videos and you get the rest. Did this for 10+ years... i'm 25 now. Had multiple girlfriends when i was...

Hi everyone, I am excited to be part of the NoFap community and walk with other Fapstronauts in this journey to recovery. I'm a 28 year old male. I discovered pornography when I was hitting puberty around 12 yrs old. I've been hooked to porn and masturbation since then. During my years of...

I hit 14 days without PMO today and actually ended up having sex. I had been M 6-7 times per week usually involving long sessions some with death grip. I'd been finding it hard to near impossible to orgasm during sex due to these actions. I'm going to keep going and want to hit 90 days without...

So, I've been on this road for a few months now without any P, and approaching my first month MO free as well. I've been working on active recovery a lot lately (reading, introducing life and behavior changes, evaluating choices, exercising control, talking to others about it), and I totally...

Hello my fapstronauts.:) I was reminiscing on my battle with porn addiction and all the problems I've had with it. We often suffer from embarrassment, anxiety, loneliness, self-esteem issues, Erectile dysfunction, etc. I want to ask my fellow fapers a question: What was the hardest thing you...

Hello my fapstronauts.:) I was reminiscing on my battle with porn addiction and all the problems I've had with it. We often suffer from embarrassment, anxiety, loneliness, self-esteem issues, Erectile dysfunction, etc. I want to ask my fellow fapers a question: What was the hardest thing you...

Greetings to fellow members, I am 21 and my story is almost embarrassing when I think about it. I started PMO at the age of 12 or 13 if I have good memory. It feels sad when I realized that for years, I was really doing it. Sometimes I will MO 3 times a day and others time none a week or just...

This night i have a dream wich i was backuping files of my old computer and some of these files was really nasty and disturbing porn videos, and i was feeling disgusting with shame and a lot of guilty, wtf was that?

Hello my fellow fapstronauts, I first started watching porn when I was a 13 year old lad. I had just discovered what seemed to be gold. But what I thought was gold in actuality was a cheap imitation. It glittered like gold but the old saying ‘All that glitters ain’t gold’ was true. This fake...

In introduction, I should probably state that I don't struggle with PMO. I'm the former fiancée of an addict in recovery, and am starting this journal to document my own thoughts and goals, as well as to stay accountable to my former partner during this time of separation, with the ultimate goal...

I have been reading more and more posts lately it seems about people who feel ashamed about watching fetish porn, violent porn or whatever have you, yet feeling ashamed doesn't get you any closer to being free. Now you may be thinking "meanbean70, you can't just stop feeling ashamed. That's not...

We Know That We Use pc much less these days than our mobiles and where as number of awesome filters and restriction apps are available for PC's (Cold Turkey The Best),we all struggle with porn on our mobiles,right? But After Weeeeeeeeeekkkkkss Of searching,asking and trying i have found one...

Hi, Since my ex guy left me again 3 months ago I keep having the same dream in which I stab myself to death with a knife. I feel drowned by shame, sense of guilt due to my sex and porn addictions. We met after the breakup and we ended up having sex twice. When I saw him I was so happy. I loved...

Hi, I found this forum last summer by accident and I was overwhelmed by the fact that I could find people like me, that were feeling what I was feeling and I decided to join last month. I always wanted to share my thoughts about my addiction to others that could truly understand the kind of hell...

Hi Fapstronauts. I joined NoFap 3 days ago and I might as well get out my comfort zone and introduce myself. As I mentioned in my first thread, my name is Michael, I'm 23 years old, a senior in college studying geology and geospatial analysis, from Atlanta, GA and I decided to join NoFap because...

Hey guys, My longest streak is 20 days and I've been trying to quit for a few months now. I feel like this is my streak to end it all as I feel done with porn but obviously my sex drive hasn't been the same at all since I've stopped. I definitely feel like I'm in a flatline and I relapsed 3...

Hello, not really sure what to write here but here goes. I began a HUGE journey discovering myself last year, which led me traveling around the world, rehabs, healing recovery and a whole lot of beautifulness. As I am coming up to my 9 months sober, with in these months i was able to realise...

I find myself needing to ponder over the rebooting process. This process is a set amount of time for some people. For others it is a way of life and they just slap the term rebooting on their progress for the sake of conformity and keeping everyone from being confused. This is not a reboot...

Hello, I'm a journalism student in her second year of university doing an investigative features on pornography and how it is morally impermissible. Would anyone be willing to discuss their recovery story and details on when the addiction stemmed? We could message privately and anything you...

I've had a few decent steaks and my PIED has gotten somewhat better as I've had some successful sex but only while drunk. I have girls that wanna do stuff including a girl I had feelings for in the past but I'm terribly anxious about underperforming and not being able to get it up. It's scarred...

*CONTENT WARNING* Hello, I just got started so I am not too sure how this works. I am 20 years old. I am so sick of this problem I have and it has degenerated so much these past few years. It started with jerking off to girls from my school, then feet and stockings, then more and more and more...

Hey guys, So, as my username suggests, my name is Eric. I have to be honest about something though. I am not now, nor have I ever been, a Jedi. I wanted to confess that and get it off of my chest. The truth is I'm a Star Trek fan. Anyways, I found you guys through someone's comment on a...

I've lived with this decade old, personal addiction for a very long time now. Too long. I'm 23 this year.. I want to go out and see the world some more instead of being cooped up in my head and in my fantasy world. Benefits I'm mostly looking forward to on my NoFap journey would be: -...

My husband and I have been battling porn for 2 years. He "quit" over a year ago but I recently found out he hadn't stopped and was lying about it. He promised not to lie anymore and tht he needs help. Yesterday, he slipped. He went 9 days without slipping. He didn't even use porn that time...

I'm trying to reboot completly since I was 19 but I think these processes take time to sink in and I think I'm now ready for a full reboot. Many things have changed, I have learned a lot. I hope someone will help me through this process, and I really hope someone will find this useful. I will...

Hello Fapstronauts :) I am from Mauritius Island, 21 yrs old, addicted to porn since 14 yrs old, as from today it's been 7 days of no masturbation ! I feel good and i don't have any symptoms like severe urges or anything. The only thing that is bothering me, is how long does the recovery process...

Hey guys and girls, I am in my 54 days of rebooting. I began this rebooting process because I suffered from PIED and I could not maintain an erection with vaginal sex, only with blowjobs. So, for a while I begin to have night erections and morning woods but are still very soft, 50% maybe and I...

Fapstronaunts. This is yet another day to conquer the challenge of no PMO. I'm with you and praying for you as well. Seize the day!

How's it going guys? My name is Andre and I'm a porn addict. I started watching open at 12 and over the years it has gotten worse and worse. Ive stolen credit cards, went through depression, suicidial thoughts, anxiety and severe panic attacks over pornogorpahy. My family has had problems with...