relapse

I had planned to write a detailed post to kick off my journal, but since I keep putting it off, I’ve decided to just start simple. As the title of my journal suggests, I’d like to share my thoughts on radical honesty and how it has completely changed my life. Since PMO turns out to be my most...

Every time I get good progress with stopping PMO, I fall back in with the idea that "This time will be different." It's never true and it's very illogical to think that you can suddenly control how you PMO after years of not being able to. But for some reason, despite knowing this, my brain...

My Experience With PMO Addiction, Relapses, and Physical Withdrawal Symptoms Age: 24 Background I was heavily addicted to PMO from around age 12 to 18. Those years were by far the most intense period of my addiction. Since then, I've been trying to quit for years, with periods of success and...

I’ve just had a relapse after a 16 day streak. That was the longest I’ve ever lasted without looking at porn. And now I feel terrible. My urges had really been killing me the past few days and I just reached a fever pitch today. I’ve managed to jack off without porn, and there are times when...

hey I am 17 years old and have been addicted to porn ever since i first saw it 6 years back. man i hate ever getting in touch with it. Its been 4 years since i have been into this journey and yet I feel it to be an impossible task. Every relapse makes me judge myself and become harder on myself...

As the title says, I’ve been struggling with porn addiction since I was 6, and I would like some pointers and help. I'm 18, I have a girlfriend i love so much and would do anything for, she is my main reason i’m doing this after hiding it from her for 2 years of our relationship. she moved away...

hey guys i'm very new to forums but i thought it would be a good idea to try i talked to my gf about wanting to stop, and seeking her support. she is very sensitive about the subject and this is why talking about it with people outside might be beneficial, as i can be less filtered. today i...

Last night, me and my pregnant (8mo) girlfriend were setting up a budgeting app that connected our bank accounts, when I connected mine, she saw charges from onlyfans, catching me for the fourth or fifth time (watching porn, ai, onlyfans, dating sites, etc). I have been through a round of...

Trying to gather info about which weeks / which days are more prone to relapsing. Answer the survey and write which day you relapsed at. (the poll only allowed 10 choices) (Yes this isn't scientific and yes it's very very individual but looking at patterns is fun)

I've formed this thread just for a suggestion. I've seen the members online section and it's a really nice section, but wouldn't it be even nicer if there was a way all the members online could connect together at one place? Like, if we post in any other thread it's highly likely that you...

I have a sexting addiction, which means that when I relapse, I go on to chatting sites and try to pick up women (talk dirty to them). Might be biased, but I think it's one of the more troublesome subtypes of a porn addiction since it tends to go on longer (I can't just skip to the end of the...

I’ve noticed a pattern in my journey. My worst relapses don’t happen when I’m struggling… They happen right after my best streaks. 7 days. 14 days. Even 21+. I feel strong. Disciplined. In control. Then suddenly… I crash. Hard. And it always confused me. Like… how do you go from feeling...

Hey everyone. I relapsed just a few minutes ago. I feel truly devastated. I’m not angry at myself, just disappointed and saddened. I don’t really know what to do. I was on a 26-day streak and doing amazing—maybe I got too confident. I think I need some time to process my thoughts, but I’m...

I started m when I was about 11 1/2 i am 22 now. It was porn. I don't even remember how I downloaded the video but I did. It was when it all started. I had certain fantasies starting in kindergarten (i think it wasnt directly sexual but it was there). I used to call them "sleep thoughts". They...

Relapsed 7 days ago after being 90+ days free from PMO. I didn’t really have much regret after relapse probably because I made it so long. So is that me straight back to the beginning again? Has that one relapse made me lose all progress? I didn’t binge, I had one relapse.

Starting my journey again on 29 november 2025 I Relapse at 29 november 2025 since 6 years i am relapsing again and again never completed single 90 days I am fed up of this relapse whenever i think i can complete to reach goal i relapse improvement exam before masturbated before taking train...

I am a 25 year old male. Graduated last year and since then I am preparing for GATE -2026 .It is an entrance exam to get into IITs and top tier colleges for Mtech. I have started my preparation from 20 June 2025. But since then I have never been consistent. Everyday, I am just watching the...

Hey fellas, just wanted to share my story after 4 years in this fight. If I can help to prevent even a single one of you from relapsing, my mission would be complete. TLDR: don't fucking do it. Never let your brain allow you to convince you its a good idea. Backstory Having an older brother...

I wrote this for a friend but I thought I would post it here in case it can help anyone besides myself: You want to relapse so bad right now. You probably have a certain video or certain series of videos that your mind is telling you would feel incredible to relieve this piled up tension on...

Hey everyone, Today I relapsed. But something hit me during it, I can’t even explain what exactly, and it made me want to stop running from accountability. I need to track this, keep a count, and check in once in a while. I think that might help me stay grounded. PM isn’t just about the act...

Hi Brothers, After a relapse I was stuck in loop of relapse I had relapsed after 40 Days streak and after that I made few 1-2 week streak but I'm keep relapsing again and again. My Last relapse was on 1st Sept. Today is 6 Sept. I want to make it but my mind is still going back to insta reels...

So im 15 currently, this all started back when i was 8 already masturbating cause i thought it felt good. Fast foward to when i was around 11 i discovered porn and quickly got addicted. Ever since then ive been watching it for almost every day, i feel really lost. Over the years i tried to quit...

Waiting for me to show that weak state of mine, the relapse tries to move slowly but surely. Almost like the calm before the storm. What I am gonna do right now will determine if there will be relapse or not. I think, I'll be grinding for that... what's more important is that I am looking damn...

Evening of 20th was a relapse, and being annoyed with myself, didn't log it til now. I realize all the "I'm going to do this" in the world; alone, won't work. Nor through frustration attempting to make giant sweeping changes overnight, that would cut off all this easy-earned dopamine with no...

So basically the last time I relapsed, it surely wasn't me (the person who's writing now) or I should phrase it like this: "I wasn't in control of my full mental power" which is still not a justification of the horrible thing that I did. I lose a lot of consciousness when I enter that state...

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Hello Brothers, I relapsed after 40 days. My last relapse date was 25th May, I was abstaining whole June and on 6th July I relapsed. Between 6 Jul 2025 at 12:00AM to 6July at 12:15 PM, withing these 12 hours I relapsed for 4-5 sessions. I want to find out my why, learn from it and I don't want...

Hello I am new here (not in nofap) I had enough with p*rn, it's killing my brain I have troubles with peeking, it is the snake which is killing my streak i just to say that I start nofap hard mode during 90 days >no PMO >no peek >no edge >no weird bullshit also, I have noticed that social media...

Hello, So I'm a 25-year-old guy and I wanted to share with you my story of what got me started into my journey of recovery. I will also talk about my past, what and how I first got sucked into this addiction, the heights of it and the regretful activities I found myself engaging in—and through...

(I'm sorry if I did any of this wrong please let me know if I did) It all started when I was young sneaking downstairs on the family computer, I hit puberty young with a massive sex drive, I thought it was a gift when I was young but now I understand it's a curse and I only ever made it worse...

Hey NoFap community, It's high time I gave you an update on my current situation. I haven't given up the fight against PMO addiction, but it has fallen by the wayside from time to time – at least in terms of officially declaring my intention to make some active changes. Instead, every time I...

Hello everyone. So about half a year ago I changed jobs and started at a more time demanding job. Due to this, I'm seeing in hindsight, that I'm not consuming as much p as before. Before, like when I was doing mini jobs or was on the job hunt, if I relapsed, I would relapse for an hour or two at...

I relapsed. Again. And it wasn’t even mindless. I walked into it with full awareness, watched myself throw away everything I said I believed in— just for a few minutes of silence from the noise in my head. Yesterday, I was too shattered to even try again. I felt pathetic. Numb. Tired of...

I’m going to make this a short post, I need a friend, someone who when in times of struggle or emergency I can just say everything too, I have my wife but as I’m sure a lot of you know how difficult it is to disclose to a spouse straight away I just need someone I can message at anytime who will...

this is the first time I have ever written in a forum about my struggle. 18 months ago me and my wife went through our D-Day and everything came out about my porn addiction, infidelity. I have been with a therapist since then every week since and have moved a long way from where I was, I quit...

I am very very tired of my addiction. It’s been since I was 13 and ever since then I’ve gone at most a month without porn. I feel stuck. I feel useless. But most of all, I feel like I can do better than this. I try and I fail. I eat like shit and only have like one meal a day. I’m not gaining...

Going through the breakup of a three-year relationship made me relapse and act out the worst aspects of my sexual addiction. The addiction was definitely one of the main reasons behind the end of the relationship, and that fact (along with some others related to this situation) hasn’t fully hit...

I will not watch porn and not masturbate till i go for 90 days this addiction ruined my career ruin my life ruin my studies ruin my college life I get fed up of this addiction this is the last time the 30 days is my first step 16 May 2025 Friday 90 days 15 july 2025 Tuesday last step will be 11...

Hello everyone, I’m new here and I’m very glad to be here. I’ll try to keep this brief. I’m 26 years old at present, and I’ve had this habit for years now. I’ve promised myself many times throughout six to seven years to stop, and I keep relapsing. I would like it to stop once and for all...

I had a relapse last night and when I relapsed, I had flashbacks to a sexual assault that happened to me years ago. The whole experience was unpleasant. Has anyone else had this problem? If so, how did you approach it? I can provide details about this particular event that happened yesterday if...

Spartan Mode On I will not watch porn and not masturbate till i go for 90 days this addiction ruined my career ruin my life ruin my studies ruin my college life I get fed up of this addiction this is the last time i have done 30 days is my first step 17 March 2025 Monday 90 days 16 May 2025...

I started my journey on January 4th, 2025, Since i started, i have slipped/relapsed 10 times with my longest streak being 6 days. I suppose it's a lot better as before i was doing it 2-3 times a day. Today i relapsed twice which has started to really mess with my motivation. I really just want...

Greetings! In summer of 2023, after a few months of unhappiness related to fapping, I stopped doing it completely. Yes, for me it was that easy. There were some periods where the temptation was very high (I call these periods “goon epidemics”), and many times I almost relapsed, but I’m still...

After relapsing our mind reminds us about the truth, which cause us to feel guilty. Where there is an imbalance in mind and body our mind doesn't work properly our most of the time spends upon fixing this balance instead, we should focus on ourselves

Hey NoFap community, I just relapsed on Friday after 29 days of no porn or masturbation. I'm trying to keep my wits about me and my chin up, but I went from feeling optimistic that I'd permanently put this addiction behind me to now feeling like just making it through tomorrow is a huge hurdle...

I actually made the same post yesterday, so the story goes (click this link: Fear of relapse ) Actually the incident was about confusion and uncertain i was dealing with, couple days ago i was fall asleep then felt like about to burst something out, i purposely switch to sleep my side position...

The incident happened two days ago (please click this link Fear of relapse ) Although there supportive comments and positive responses toward my situation but i still feel not myself, felt like i denied myself, i starting to lose my confidence and anxiety is raising like crazy... Even though...

will not watch porn and not masturbate till i go for 90 days this addiction ruined my career ruin my life ruin my studies ruin my college life I get fed up of this addiction this is the last time i have done 90 days is my first ever step 26 march 2025 Wednesday last step will be 22 September...

Hi, first time posting here. After a 2 weeks streak I was unable to control myself and think straight and ended up PMO. Out of guilty I did it several times. I was feeling awful. I really thought about giving up, but I can not. I love my partner so much, and our relationship it’s worthy the...

Since i've stopped PMO for years, however along the way, i never plan on get rid of erection... However somehow i still enjoy looking at pretty girl getting erection against my pant or sleep to the side of the bed so it puts pressure on my penis, somehow it created strong sensation that felt so...

Guys I've finally managed to do well on nofap (monk mode). But when looking at women (just normally), I end up getting that weird sexual anxiety and looking with lust. It spirals into me thinking I've set myself back in recovery. It's gotten so bad that even if I get a boner I think I've lost...

I remember the earliest days when I didn't care about anything else besides avoiding PMO (pornography, masturbation, and orgasm). I went on with my life normally, without worrying about things that might be considered as p-subs or whatever counts as a relapse. For example, I would watch bikini...

So I’ve done nofap successfully when I was 17. I’m 22 now and slipped back into habits. Especially this year I’ve been binging, edging, etc. almost everyday. I took a girl out on a date. We ate, we laughed. We drank a bit. I felt confident. Everything was smooth. she denied a kiss. later. She...

Hey all! I just did a 7-day streak which im kind of proud of (staying positive). Reason for relapse? Often its drinking or being hangover. I do meditation, cold showers all those things. Also blocking apps but I still got some cravings and it's hard after 7 days. do you guys have any tips for...

Having surpassed my goal not to cum for a particular ammount of time some days ago, I decided to give myself a release before I return in the hard mode for another particular ammount of time... I tried to avoid all porn infused fantasies and keep to my focus on very "clean", vanilla thoughts...

i relapsen 2 days ago after a 40 day streak I was feeling like I was just gonna focus again but the chaser effect was really hard these last to days ive had long edging sessions but I just didn't feel like I wanted to nut but I couldn't control myself today I woke op so tired and broken I said...

Hey All, I've been a lurker here for many years. I've never been able to beat this habit and unfortunately I keep thinking I'll never be able to either. I have made progress but also made sure to undue said progress. I am not sure what there is left to do other than give up. My urges come in...

I remembered the girl masturbating, twerking incident people on this site said it's not relapse and huge slipped up... i entirely forgot about lesbian kissing... it was porn lesbian dirty kissing... their mouth was watery like cum, sucking each other tongue and everything... it was the stupidest...

Hey all. I MOed recently and I feel really down. But what I'm worried is that I relapsed and that I'm basically gonna be treated like crap. I lost my aura and I'm weak again. It's so demeaning to relapse like this; how can I get over this and resume my day normally? What's funny is that when I...

To start off, my longest streak so far this year was three days. Longest streak of all time was two weeks. Before those two weeks, I did PMO around twice a day and now around five times a week. Yeah, it got better, but my situation here is still rlly bad imo. After creating a NoFap account...

Literally I'm really embarrassed for asking these type of question... Been dealing with these 3 triggers: I'm literally mentally exhaustion from stuffs like these, just couple days ago i made a post, now back it with doubts, whether it's relapse or not?

Hey Fapstronauts, Made it to 20 days on the challenge! Yesterday and today were tough though. Peeked yesterday, and today after seeing a news article on Quora about leaked videos of a celebrity, I ended up watching them for 30 minutes. Stopped myself before going all the way, but obviously got...

Post-nut clarity of mind is the state where we can assess our behaviors and their consequences, it is at these time that I always realize how stupidly and unconsciously I was acting; in that mindful time-frame, I give myself promises and my inner voice is more active, but I also get scared of...

I am struggling with porn for years, but since this last year I've become more conscious about the "quitting->relapse->exhaustion->quitting..." cycle, and I would like to share my observation about it. 1. The first week of quitting is the hardest and most miserable part 2. after 2nd week I...

I am 14. I stared Nofap (Specifically only abstaining from Porn, as I believe masturbation is not an issue, limiting myself to once a day) because I realized how abhorrent the effects of it can be and the industry that it nurtures is, but my subconscious still lingers on these things. I've...

Hey everyone, To introduce myself briefly, I (17M) discovered porn at the age of 10 and have started my proper recovery from porn (i.e discovering NoFap) almost 2 years ago. I'm on this journey for my own wellbeing, for my relationship with God and my relationship with my girlfriend. Porn...

Hey all I'd like to share my story and my addiction as of recently. So I started this new medicine (2 years ago) called olanzapine for a mental illness that I have. It turned out to be a really good med, but it came with a few side effects. One of them was that I on a weekly to every two weeks...

Hey guys, im 22yrs old and this isnt my first try on nofap but it will be definetly my longest. I started 9days ago and i feel amazing. I dont even have the urge to masturbate and even if i would feel horny at some point i will try not to do this shit anymore. At my 6th day i nearly had a wet...

So I have been trying to do NoFap for a long time without luck. Except for this time. I went without porn or masterbation for 23 days before failing. I didn’t look at porn, but my hand gave in. I want to know if this counts as a fail, what this means, if tomorrow is gonna be a “hangover day”...

Tomorrow I a going to meet my gf after like 3-4 months. So we would be having our private time together. So I wanted to know would if it is considered as a relapse and will slow down my progress in this journey or is it fine to be intimate with my gf and see how it goes for me. I don't think I...

I don't know if it's stress or if I'm just not serious enough, but I've relapsed again. What's making me more anxious and stressed is the cluelessness of what to do next. I feel like giving up on everything. I did my best during January and February, but in the end, I fell again. I think...

As the title suggests. I'm asking you gents (and the few women that are here) what motivates you from relapsing? Or better said, what do you do to prevent an relapse? Ps. It's been years since I last remember using this account, feels good to be back to be honest.

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I'm 33, been addicted for 20 years and tried to quit so many times, but I keep coming back to it. My longest streak is 63 days. I sort of got discouraged because I wasn't seeing too many benefits, so I gave into my urges and relapsed; since then, I've been PMOing once a week or so. I just...

Guys I've been abstinent of Pornography for a very long time but I've been feeling horrible every time I MO. And I MO about between 1-3 weeks. Basically I feel horrible and I not only feel horrible for the coming days but I feel horrible until about two weeks. I don't know if its POIS or...

If you sometimes feel like this, please comment Have you ever thought about the shamelessness of women who work in porn or women who publish erotic pictures and videos of themselves, and this thought makes you sad and lustful at the same time? At this time, I try to remind myself that there are...

08/03/24 01:26 No situation is so bad that... relapsing can't make it worse. Usually the reason for relapse is negative feelings, perhaps something bad has happened that makes you feel quite shitty, maybe even horrible, and your mind immediately looks for a fix, just the thought of using again...

Hello Fapstronauts, I am 35 yo, I have a wife and two beautiful children, yet I still struggle with M. I've discovered M "by accident" as a 6yo and a strong addiction was developped. Since then I've never been abstaint from M for a longer time. I've been for a long time on a therapy that helped...

In the last 3 days , every night I watch some porn-substitutes sometimes containing (nudes)and potentially a porn gif but I try not to pay full attention to the fully porngraphical gif, which might happen for 2 or 3 gifs. By the way, Yesterday was the third day, And the same thing but multiple...

I feel like NoFap has become more difficult for me in the last 6 months. I have become so fixed on it that I got upset with myself over small mistakes. Paradoxically it means that I now need to learn to not fixate on my mistakes in order to get back on my path. NoFap was easier before I realized...

Trigger warning: This post may be triggering for some, so I advise caution when reading this. Hello All. Last night I was laying in bed and I heard some noises coming from the other room. It sounded like S** noises and I was hearing it and I became more alert. Although the possibility it was...

This is an inner-monologue about how to cope with cravings and what do after relapses I've just relapsed so I have a post-nut clarity right now. I want to emphasize this because it is the only time period in which I can express myself clearly. I really miss the time when I can enjoy little...

What do you do when you really want to look at porn? About 60% of the time I have no interest in looking at porn. During these times I'm so focused on doing important stuff that the thought of looking at porn doesn't cross my mind. But there are other moments when I really want to look at it...

I don’t know what is wrong with me, I have lost all respect for myself, I don’t know what the fuck was going through my head but I ordered a fleshlight and relapsed after 35 days. I feel incredibly ashamed and want to die, this is the most painful relapse even worse than one I had after 120...

I'm just writing here to look for some confort and possibly understanding. I am a sex addict. Have been in recovery for about 10 years from prostitution and online sex untill, since last year I started slipping occasionally, then more frequently, mainly with porn and cam. After so long in...

If Go outside: Shops And Mall Posters And Banners Are Triggering Me If I Look Real Girls Outside: Their Revealing/Cleavage And Hip Revealing Clothes And Tight Jeans Are Triggering Me If I Open Youtube: Thumbnails And Some Ads Are Triggering Me If I Going to Download Movies,Songs And Images...

I Am Single Now.......Today I Intentionally Having Dream/Sexual Thoughts Like Showing Love And Cuddle With Future Wife And Kiss With Her Then I Act My Body Like Sex With Her But I Didn't Watch Porn And I Didn't Fap And Ejaculate But I Feel Urges. It is Relapse? I Am Struglling.....

So I did MO after 90+ on pmo. Lost track of the actual number but I was around 100 days pmo free. I got curios after seeing something called “healthy masturbation” and also the sexual tensions have just been really getting to me after I started nofap which is why I am here now. MY RELAPSE: I...

Hello everyone, I fell into an old habit and watched P. I began edging, but stopped. Then I fell asleep and had an emission in my sleep. I woke up needing to urinate. Should I reset or not? Is this a slip-up or relapse? It has been 109 days when this happened. Thank you for your advice...

Today I Am watching Health And Fitness Releted Video On Youtube With My Friend. Few Minutes Later. 3 Videos With Tempting Thumbnail Recommended. First One is Party Club Related Video Song Thumbnail With Girl in Party Revealing/Cleavage Clothes. Second Video is Item Video Song Thumbnail With Girl...

Every week I'm starting over, and every week I'm making the same mistakes because I keep forgetting about my own promises - on monday, I promise myself not to indulge in pornography and masturbation again, that I'm done with this for good - Everything's fine until thursday, where the first urges...

It's just happened today, i was scrolling on social media then bump into a post... She was wearing short pant, you understand what i mean it can be too tight for them so, it just look like the pant spread their vagina... I have seen it, but i messed up clicked to look again for confirmation...

Today a video popped up on TikTok which got me ya know… put my phone down and didn’t think about it but I still had a hard on. Started flexing my penis and then boom. Didn’t do it to the video or anything. Didn’t masturbate or anything. I combusted because I was flexing my dick . I don’t feel...

I know for a fact that dreaming about relapsing is not a relapse since you barely have control over it, but what if the dream was lucid? I'm asking just cuz I'm curious.

I've been overall happy with myself which is important in recovering from any addiction. There are some small issues and above normal stress, but that is something I cannot change currently, but these issues are only temporary. Yesterday I was out with my friends drinking and we had a good time...

This may get lost in the deluge of posts here, but I wanted to step up my efforts to rid myself of this lifelong struggle, which is now tearing apart my marriage due to my cyber infidelity. Without getting into the details of its personal impact on me, I wanted to create a space where I could...

Today Intentionally I Having Sexual Thoughts About Old P Videos,Flashback Memories And Moaning My Self. Then I Stopped. I Want To Stop This Problem. This is Considered as Relapse? Or Continue My Journey? Give Me Some Advice And Tips Please?

Somehow i have been doing nofap for long time... Despite being teenager the urge to release is very strong at my age... I always wish to bump into one sexual stuffs, but not like stare at it forever... Because i haven't seen pussy for so long whenever i bumped into one accidentally i would...

Today I Normally Looking My Whatsapp Contact's Status. My One Of The Friend Put Love Status With Girl in Bridal Clothes With Revealing Hips And Half Breast Only. I Looked That Status 5 or 6 Times But I Didn't Fap I Didn't Watch Porn. It is Relapse?Or Trigger? Or I Hard My Self?Am I Fine? Please...