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Look i want to tell you how I feel coz i feel so sad depressed idk the feeling whenever I close my eyes i see porn generated by mind which means that my brain is damaged or something and i feel so down and sadness in my chest I feel like I already destroyed my brain and...

Hey guys/girls, Trigger warning: ocd, so-ocd, anxiety first off, let me say thank you for allowing me to join your forums. My name is Jeff, and I am a 40 year old male. I suffer from ocd (specifically SO-OCD), and that can take me some pretty scary places. The other night I was sitting on my...

Have you ever found out someone you wouldn't expect to have an OF has one? Yesterday, I found out two women I have followed on social media have OF. It made me sad and somewhat angry they would do something like that. I think the reason why I reacted the way was because they weren't promoting it...

If you sometimes feel like this, please comment Have you ever thought about the shamelessness of women who work in porn or women who publish erotic pictures and videos of themselves, and this thought makes you sad and lustful at the same time? At this time, I try to remind myself that there are...

I have been exposed to MO since age 6 unintentionally when I started sleeping on my stomach and have done so ever since without knowing the consequences as a child. However, it had become such a habit that when I grew up until now, it's been so hard to overcome. I have premature ejaculation...

I wonder what happen in my mind right now : All the day i feel bad, sad , empty, stressed and axious but when the evening come, i feel better, no worries or a very little, not enough to ruin my good mood, i even had some evening of pure joy for no reason when all the day i was feeling so bad...

When i saw a my teacher ..he is porn addict ..his body become become weak and worse and face become very skull i feel very sad for him ...how can i help him ..i did not understand

I feel like all my hard work has gone to shits . I had 49 days of clean time . I jacked Off this morning and my d1ck wasn’t even hard . I had an orgasm with a soft one . What led me to this was I was seeing someone , we hadn’t attempted sex yet but she left me last week to go back to her...

I relapsed after a long streak....i hate my self ..i want to die

Hi Guys! I am new to NoFAP and I want to clarify some doubts regarding it. A few days back I was searching for this community on Reddit and successfully joined it. Out of my curiosity I started to surf more about this movement and got stuck up in a sub reddit r/bigdickproblems where 2 guys were...

Hey, It's gonna be 10 am for me and I fapped twice today already. I had a streak of 38 days but today I just woke up full of sexual energy, so much of that energy that it was giving me cramps. I was just looking at one video about comics, then there was a link to one forum about arts, I just...

This is a very long story but please just give it a read and maybe you know the answer to my story,Well i wish this was a “Success Story” but sadly it’s not. I was a young teen when i found about about m and p (i don’t even like saying the words bc they just make me cringe). Before i found out...

what am i doing man, i sit in my room all day when i know it’s just gonna lead to relapse…i’ve been on no fall for a year..and my longest streak is 35 days, the rest of them are 2-10 days…i do the same routine when i relapse..get tired, go lay in bed, start getting bored, peek, relapse. Nows the...

I'm on 40+ Days of NoFap, but I've been going through some hard depression times lately I've just come to a new country & right now my college is closed till Feb. On top of that I just can't Vibe with my college friends who are all from a different but common country(& so they have their own...

i relapsed again…my anxiety is coming back, idk why i can’t just go 90 days…most of the time my trigger is instagram, i deleted tiktok for a while now, but downloaded instagram bc i thought i could handle it. Should i delete instagram again? i feel like i’m missing something during all this…like...

i wish i could go back to how i used to be…pmo has ruined my life, i have gotten multiple 20-30 day streaks….and i haven’t seen that much of an improvement physically. I used to be a good looking guy that has no problem talking to people and everyone liked me…now everyone hates me and i lost all...

hey there , i m on my day 9 streaks and dont want to broke that hard earned valuable streaks but since last night i had huge nightfall occur i m feeling lost and try to broke that due to brain is so horny right now like literally so so sos os sos so so so horny and i know what was the reason...

well i can officially say after 35 days i have relapsed:( i never thought i would do it again because of how strong i was going. this 35 days has been amazing for me every day i was glad that i didn’t relapse and that feeling you get at the end of the day knowing you won the battle today is...

Hi good people, I have been watching P and M since I was 10 years old and today I am 28 yo. I was always M non-stop, but it took me a long long time to even understand its an issue that is blocking me from reaching my highest potential. I'm in a loving relationship for the past 2.5 years, and I...

Hi all, I'm a pretty "successful" individual, I have a beautiful girlfriend that I love. But I can't stop returning every few weeks to porn. And when I come back, Its masturbating 3-4 times a day and feeling like shit. How to stop?

I've been adicted to PMO for 2 years now and on this nofap journey,I've made my way to the 13th day. I've BARELY had any urges since I've stopped PMO. I'm kinda getting worried about my long gone erections.please tell me whats up

Good evening everyone Today is day 2….. yet again . Tomorrow I am going to make an appointment with my primary care physician . I am going to ask for an EEG scan to see if drug use from my early twenties has affected my brain in any way . I am also going to ask for a referral to see a sex...

It’s like I fap, have the O and feel super depressed . Then the next day I’m doing it again . Why is it like this for me ? I’m beginning to wonder if death is better . I was raised Roman Catholic but I’m not religious anymore . Would a loving god really send someone to hell for ending their life...

About four years ago my father was in a bad accident and fell really bad on his head. He is got some brain damage, and his cognitive abilities have declined a bit. His doctor just prescribes medication, (A lot) to deal with his depression and everything. I personally wish he wasn't on so many...

I'm now 16 years old . I know i was a good student and i followed good manners. I was the class topper too.But everything changed soon. It was at the time of covid pandemic and lockdown our classes turned to be online classes and i got an internet connecrtion and phone in my hand. And soon i...

Be warned everyone, it's not very well known that excessive masturbation can cause nerve damage. Vigorous masturbation can cause significant damage to the head of the penis. You won't even be aware that it's happening necessarily. This happened to me. I masturbated several times a day for...

I have crush on two really beautiful and cute girls, I just cant do any steps to date any of them. Im too afraid and shy. I will be always alone.. how do you even get a relationship?

I'm such a fuck up, you know what I'm tired of hearing? I'm tired of hearing my school counsellor or my soccer coach telling me shit like 'It's in your head', 'Get out of your own head' and the most useless of all 'Combat/Challenge those negative thoughts'. Surely, one would think, if they were...

Currently I am recovering from a few times a week porn addiction and am on my 27th day of no relapse. This is the furthest I have ever gotten and I couldn’t be happier with that fact. But recently I have noticed that a bunch of the things I used to like doing, things I even liked doing when my...

Hello all, I want to share what I feel is the ultimate difference maker in someone just starting NoFap, is making it through Flatlining, or is just trying to reach NoFap goals: Emotional Intelligence Emotional Intelligence can be defined simply as: A) Knowing what emotions you're feeling or...

Hey guys. I'm a teen who had a lot of porn addiction problems and as a result had a destroyed self confidence. Then I found nofap and it has been 1 year since I started my NoFap in my life. I have had really good streaks with 45days 62 days and 2 30 day streaks. But all that amazing...

so deep is my sorrow and dissapointment that I don't even know how to begin. I can't even believe how I could relapse in a such way, anyways. Everything started when my Thoughts about my Exgirlfriend came back just as the sun rises, I got up and Took my phone to watch her whatsapp pic I know...

Feeling defeated, as if I can never truly change no matter what. Sitting here at 24, so far behind.. no car, no dating experience, no stable job. I'm really fearing my future while constantly feeling the pressure from everyone to grow up. Why am I so damn afraid to do the ordinary? Get a job...

Today, after another relapse from this ongoing streak of urges and failures, I think I have finally found the root cause of my PMO problem. And that is... loneliness and repressing myself from being open to people and from making friendships and relationships. I know that it isn't stress from...

Growing up I started getting mad crazy over the female figure, in 3rd grade I was staring at girls butts around the same age and I got in trouble for spanking a girl (funny story actually). I started out pretty early looking at girls a certain way, where kids were collecting Pokémon cards, I was...

Hi everyone. It's hard to fight during these quarantine days, and I'm not talking about relapsing and porn. It's hard to find time to enjoy this life, to work out. I can't find the motivation to do anything, I'm stuck. During winter I could rely on going out with friends or going to school, but...

Hello, this is my first post on this website. I discovered the masturbation quite early, when I was something like 8 years old. From that moment until now, it has become a lifestyle for me. Now I'm 22 years old. I had only one girlfriend in my entire life (some months ago, the relationship was...

Yesterday, I felt very good, has been 2 days since I relapsed... I went jogging early morning and did basketball at nighttime, then I started laughing for nothing and even cried for nothing... My psy said I have “emotions jumps” like bipolar people, but i’m still too sane to be bipolar, also, I...

Today I was informed about somebody who I knew, albeit briefly, made the decision to take his own life last weekend, I knew he was missing but only today have the police and his family confirmed. I keep looking at a recent photograph of him when I first saw the photo I thought he looked...

I'm finally coming to the realization that I'm in this journey for the long haul. Ive been porn free for about 1 year and I have clearly seen improvement with my PIED but still not enough for sex again. I went from being able to have sex to nothing downstairs. I now realize that I brutally...

So I had an amazingly hot girlfriend and we had sex like 10 times a day pretty much every day but I still went back to porn. I usually went back to it when we had break ups and would excuse my behavior but I never told her. The frequency of my usage has gone down a lot but I still go back it. I...

I don’t know why I know even here. I’m not dealing with addiction... my boyfriend is. And, it kills me inside. I feel so alone, undesired, unloved. I try so hard to make him happy on any way that I can, but I don’t feel like I’m enough to him. I’m so sad. I love him so much, but I can’t deal...

Hi I'm on day 17 on NoFap I'm in a much better place then where I was before I'm 18 and I'm still stuck in class 10 and that's my fucking weakness studying from last 2 years I've been procrastinating so much that now I'm here I fuckung hate studying I hate the fact that's instead of working...

I reached the 44th day. I can't say I see pink life. I have a habit of healthier living. my taste changes in matters of woman I am more cheeky on the vibe than appearance. I socialize more because I am more often outside. I do not maintain any friendship except those of very long standing just...

So this is it. New attempt to try become free. I started during collage and ended up addicted while being lonely. Now it’s like my brain needs it from time to time. Or else I feel forced to do it - when I feel bad. It can be because of stress, loneliness, sadness and also boredom. I’m a female...

This is by far my longest streak in a long time, maybe in five years. I'm almost 30 days in but I feel so sad and depressed for no reason. What the hell is happening to me? I have absolutely no energy and no erections in the mornings either. It's almost as if my Libido is gone, my happy go...

I am 20M, addicted to furry and bondage porn (Gay and straight), I am extremely sexually submissive. (at least I think so, I've never actually had sex) I am a total introvert, a shut-in most days, I hate going to bars/clubs, I have severe mood swings sometimes, I am diagnosed with anxiety and...

All the single fellas here, this is for you. For the next 7 days, I want each and every one of you to go up and talk to a cute girl. I don't care if that terrifies you, I don't care if you're gonna piss your panties when you do it. Just do it. Don't ask her out, don't ask for her digits, just...

Sadly I’m not new to this forum. This is a long post. But I need to vent and I need advice. My husband and I have been together for 7 years now. Recently married. (About 4 months) We’ve been dealing with P addiction since the beginning of our relationship. About a year ago, he successfully...

To start things off I have never been suicidal so that's not the case here. I instead feel empty and lost in life. I just came back from a four day college tour trip which ended with going to a large theme park along with over 70 of my best friends. I just graduated high school on May 31 so...

Hi all, Big fan of this page and really enjoy seeing people get back on the right track but now it’s my turn to share. I’m a 23 year old male who started masturbating at 10 to mental images and switched to actual porn at 12. I have never masturbated correctly in that I get off by kind of...

The rate of suicide is highest in middle age white men. Men are 3 times more likely to commit suicide then women. The reason being that they have less social circles to reach out for support... ....and for having someone to listen and care. That's why it is important to surround yourself...

Hi, Long post and may contain triggers I am 21 years old. I've began watching porn since a very young age, I was 10 or something like that. It starded with pictures of naked women, then the videos of naked women, after that the lesbian videos. I've masturbated very often, few times a day, I...

hey guys, I just wanted to introduce myself and wanted to say what a supportive community you have here. I have been dealing with porn addiction since i was 12 years old. I am now 29 married to a beautiful woman and expecting a bub soon. Porn is ruining my life. I have tried abstaining for a...

Im despared. I became addicted to hardcore porno using methedrone while jerking. I cant stop. I can just wait month and then i start again. So whole year i jerk and get drugs. I can not control myself. Now my life started to ruin.

Hi ,Till Yesterday I was a prisoner in the hellish prison of ma******tion. I was hopeless. I felt my life will end sorrowfully due to this evil. This is because when I was 14 year old my friend urged me to see porn. And it became an addiction. Then after some time I learned how to masurbate. I...

Yesterday my girlfriend of 3 and half years broke up with me. I told her about my PMOing back in August when I noticed it began to affect my relationship in a variety of ways. After PMOing everyday 2-3 times a day (sometimes more) around last July I started to become less physically and...

Hey there, I'm the wife of a suspected porn addict. I'm pretty frustrated and upset, because I have my suspicions but I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. I DO need a judgement free place to just get some advice. So let me give you some background before I get into my question. It's a...

This is my first ever forum that I've joined. Porn has had a pretty nasty effect on my life and I absolutely cannot stop myself from using it. So I'm here and I need support. Since high school I've used porn and I've ventured into the deep depths of content just to get my fix. It's a sad...

Hey guys, Just want to say to the NoFap collective: Thank you. Some of the most intense (and justified) stress I've ever felt in my life is compounding right now....and I still haven't masterbated, watched porn or orgasmed in over a month now. It hasn't been easy, my sleep is erratic, I feel...

My boyfriend and i have been together for about 3 years now. He had had a PA since he started puberty. it was around the 2 year mark that i let him know how the P made me feel and that things needed to change. at first he claimed it was not a big issue, but eventually he agreed to change his...

Hey Guys, I am new to NoFap and have been addicted to pornography, masturbation along with other bad habits for over 10 years.. I feel like stopping is impossible, even going one day makes my mind go crazy. What are some simple things you do during the day that make you forget about porn, or...

Hello everyone. NoFap is not a new topic for me. I started my journey in February this year and was always a "silent reader" of this page. But now I decided to share my story and ask for some advice myself. Even though I am quite long on this journey I was never able to quit for good. I told...

Hello, sorry if this is too long, but I needed to get it out, I haven't told anyone for fear of being judged, and I found this page through a documentary (sorry for the bad spelling too, my first language isn't English , I'm barely learning). Well, I'm a 19 year old girl. I started watching...

Hi, my anxiety didn't hit me so hard than today. A old friend come to visit me today while her sister is getting into dentist. I've come to greet him with my father and get into the kitchen for chit-chat. It's at that moment that i become weird. I have bad time to keeping eye contact with him...

Hey , in the past i visited this site and i started nofap , but i consider my self new any way , cause iam back at 0 level , i was doing good , and i had motivation , and will to improve my life including doing NoFap , i had energy and motivation and i was kinda optimistic , iam a person who...

Hi! I'm new to this community and I've been on NoFap for the last 7 days. I made it to five days on my first streak and then PMOed, did it again for another 2 days and just relapsed today. What I've noticed is that both times I'd been feeling a little down and sad and so my mind tries to...

I struggle with addiction for a long time. I tried to fight and then i lost hope many times. I feel lonely and like a loser ... I would like to rise but I can not do it alone,i'm a weak man.... I am looking for someone with whom I could cooperate, sometimes talk and get out of this sh#t....

Hello everyone. I am fairly new to the whole new fap thing and I believe it may be just what I needed; I am otherwise really fit and healthy despite these performance issues. I am 22 now and since I was 12, I have been chronically masturbating day in and day out. I believe that this has caused...

Hey guys I’m a 20 year old male.. I’ve gone a little over 3 weeks without fapping and I’m starting to think what’s even the point? I feel like no woman will ever love me either way and I’ll never have sex with a woman that I’m actually really attracted to and like. I got really horny tonight and...

DAY 1 - PART 1 One day at a time. The roller coaster of emotions I am feeling is something I have never experienced before. It's enough to make me feel BEYOND CRAZY. I hear that journaling helps and I haven't done so in years. So here it goes. Today I feel weak, although I know I am strong...

hi guys, I’ve been thinking of breaking up with my PA partner. It just doesn’t feel like he loves me anymore since he’s so deep in this hole. He’s been clean for about 2 weeks, and he tries everyday, but I just don’t feel loved anymore. I know he does underneath all this, but I’m so sad all...

Lately I been missing the only form of entertainment I have kept for years. Which is P. Sigh! But, I feel more of a man without P. Whenever I PMO I feel like a lonely sad teenager.

Hi I’m 17 (about to be 18) and I wanted to write about my experience with porn and see if there are some answers. I discovered sex at the same time I discovered porn (thanks sheltering parents) at 13, up to that point I had never as much as had a boner or thought about someone sexually. I...

Hi, I’m not new here, I’ve read tons of posts. And my bf has been on and off nofap, but never really into it until about 2 months ago. But I really needed some advice. So little back story, my bf and I have been together for 6 years now. He’s had a problem with PMO since he was about 9. When we...

Hello everyone, I'm yay, new here. I felt it was time to create an account and be serious since I come here for quick help. I wanted to stop the urges, they're not who I am, I don't even do it for the gratification anymore, it's more of I do it when I'm bored or upset. It's become worse as...

This is me, more often then not... especially when he leaves for work, kids are in bed and I'm alone with my thoughts... What songs do you listen to when you're sad about all of this and feel alone?

I really wanted to quit masturbation. Its been a habbit that's been going on since I was around 5 or 6 maybe. I am 31 now and as I look back at the life that I've lived so far, I feel like I can, in one way or the other, relate most of my current misseries to this morbid habbit that I developed...

What more can I do??? I'm 28 years old and have only had one sexual partner (1.5 year relationship a few years ago). I tend to fall for a woman, let her break my heart early, get in great physical shape, then try again (PMO always present, and a serious problem in that one relationship). I...

sigh... I plan to start over.... I reckon this would be easier if I didn't have to use the computer for work ..smh......

Not sure how to begin this thread, I feel like I have no place to turn, what to ask, or what to do. I am 50 days POM free (O = oogling) The other "O" My wife and i decided that i wouldn't O even if we had sex (for 90days) so im only 17 days "O" free I can't help but feel depressed and feel...

Im new to NoFap. I am calling on to others to help me help myself stop porn and to be a better person. Every day, every single day I watch porn and it runs my life. I don't rly have friends and I know I need them but all I can think about it porn. I hate myself for starting the addiction. I use...

when i wake up it feels like a regular day but minutes later ,after realization it hits me, my body becomes numb,my eyes get watery, my jaw line starts hurting,my throat starts hurting,a pain starts growing deep inside,its a beautiful type a pain,a pain that reminds me that im still alive,alive...

DISCLAIMER: This is by no means a social study on loneliness and I am by no means a psychiatrist. This is simply what I've seen in my own experience and what I have concluded from those experiences. Recently I've noticed a trend with many people who are single and struggle with PMO. Loneliness...

This weekend is one year since the big discovery. Hubby doesn't remember dates well so he has no idea. Unfortunately, I do. I'm going about the day as usual and putting on my happy face so no one is the wiser, but underneath it all I am consumed with remembering how my world was turned upside...

(Sorry for my very bad English)Hello guys, im 17 years old and im addicted to transgendered person (Sissy Porn) since im 14y old, everything began with the challenge that i will not like it...And i was wrong..in so small time i got so addicted that i started to equip panties and behave like a girl... I don't...

i'm giving up i tried all ways for years and still falling this makes me sad i feel like i'm suffering from a chronic disease :(

So I relapsed twice to day, both times to porn which is unusual for me, and I lost a 5 day streak (fuckkkk) but that's not what I'm posting about. Basically, I know what I want to do right know. I know what I want to achieve in life and with NoFap, and I know that I want to get rid of my porn...

I'm 17, I lost my gf because of my excessive masturbation and porn use,I used to masturbate 3x or more each day. Porn was like a stress reliever to me until I became addicted. I used be energetic,fun,and charismatic Now... I'm just numb,boring,and depressed,and sometimes even mad or sad with...

Just made this account hoping to make friends and seek help and advice from people in the process or those who have already made it. Today marks 1 month, I made it to 3 months but ended up relapsing due to a break up. I been depressed and sad and I feel alone. Even had urges to kill myself...

hey there I'm new to the community and am here for the same reasons you are - I'm just scared as fuck about it I have already deleted my pornhub profile and all my saved videos but I'm having a hard time going to my google docs to delete my personal (of me having all kinds of crazy high sex)...

i failed a physical endurance test because i could not resist myself from fapping even before the night of test. it cost me 1 year of preparing for it again. it will be conducted after 3 months from now and i want to quit it for good. i have no idea how will it happen..feeling dejected..please...

Hello everyone! So I heard about this website from a friend because we were talking about masturbation about a week ago. When I got home that day, I thought long and hard about it. I guess I do have a porn problem... And I feel like it's deeply affecting my sex life. I want to be able to...

I don't really know why I'm posting this. Just very tired of dealing with other people. I'm 23 turning 24 in a few days. More or less my whole life I've been lonely, had a girlfriend for about a year, other than that I've kissed 2 other girls and that's as far as that went. Never really had a...

Update: I read another thread in this forum where one user said vents should be saved for journals if you want commiseration rather than advice. I agree. Will follow through next time. Apologies. The thought of writing this was making me sad but now I feel better. Don't hold this stuff in...

Brokenness becomes the sound of a sweet melody. A strange ambiance of apathy that seems to smother me. Belated apropos maternity. Missed the sweet bliss of serenity. I surrendered my divinity, and compromised my eternity. A price I paid in return for security. All the while, lacking in surety...

Hey everyone, im the s/o of a fapstronaut. I found this site looking for a support group for so's of people with PIED and DGS. Just here for the support but wanted to introduce myself.

I'm not unattractive many would actually say I'm very attractive but I'm not 20 anymore, I'm 47 and I fear that when my husband looks at 20 year old's naked, he judges me by that standard weather here means to or not. In the past all I ever had to do was mention sex and he was ready but now he...

Hi guys I am back finished day 10 yesterday and started day 11 literally its 00:03 I'm feeling happy and more energetic than usual I know it's still early but I thank God nonetheless. I have some bad news though the girl that I liked I saw with this guy and they seemed really close and even I...

I have a problem. One that many of you here have overcome or are in the midst of overcoming. I'm 26 years old, found porn accidentally at 13 on a shared computer. For 13 years i've watched porn casually and thought nothing of it. Now it's really breaking apart my life. I do good in my life, a...