sadness

I'm Lucas Leone from Brazil. My problem involves creed and stress. I stress and get cortisol because I suffer depersonalization. But I only get depersonalization because I got belly fat, inflated belly ya know? And it's a vicious cycle. I smoke 1 or 2 packs a day. And I take clonazepam...

I cant go into what i watched, but, i dug for about an hour for it, and, i found some content that would horrify anyone else. i didnt start out with these fetishes. i started with normal, attractive women. then i got into more attractive women, more depraved women, abuse, rape, lolicon...

I am an adult but despite that I am close to my mom. But I believe she is going through mental issues or some mid life crisis now. Now she is planning on leaving me and the rest of her family to go back to her home country. How do I move on knowing that I probably will never see my mum again ...

I didn't age in this earth to tell this, but it's without a single doubt a pure reality. Think of all the technologies we have today, most people (friends) can't even afford to give you a call or invite you to dinner. It's not like they're running businesses in Dubai and can't have the time...

I found this article on a book related to how we can deal with anxiety, depression, sadness, self-criticism, boredom etc. This is a theory of ironic rebound effect. It shows that forcing to avoid any thought leads to self destructive behaviours. Some people who are trying to recover from pmo...

Haven't fapped for about 3 weeks now, which don't really feel lika an eternity since my libido isn't the greatest (I'm 30+). But the thing is my porn addiction have not been about sexual urges for many years, but rather consolation. I'm sad, angry or bored and a couple of hours of porn tend to...

I have to use this word, hello (good people) i apologize because of my bad English. I created an account a year ago, because of my many relapse and going back to real magic magnet nightmare online p0rn I was even scared to inter this forum. As an iraqi I'm addicted for more than 18 years, im...

Hi All, I have been masturbating every day for a long time now and I dont feel good about it. I feel sad and like a loser But I am unable to go sleep without masturbating to porn or now even looking at girls pictures on instagram. I feel I am becoming more and more sad in my life. I am married...

Hi, guys Today was the 31 and i relapsed for about 4 times within about 3 hors. İ couldn't resist the urge after first time although i relapsed without feeling urge. So İs this binging in relapse ? İ don't consider it binging because in the last few relapses i was masturbating till hurt myself...

Hello everyone, I've hit day 18 of NoFap, which I'm really proud of, since my last highest streak was 14 days... in April.... and since then I have relapsed every day, until my current streak. Up until about Day 13 of my streak, I was feeling amazing! It was this uncontrollable adrenaline and...

My second time with some symptoms of flatline. Very lazy this week, my body is heavy, depressed without reason. Also letargic and a little bit of anxiety. My balls are with pain this time. A little bit not huge pain. Very horny too.

Hi, so this is a different topic but I feel does tie in with (my) Nofap journey. Basically my relationship with my dad. He is quite distant and not easy to approach. For a specific example that came up not too long ago, he didn't even look at or atleast briefly touch my book type of work that...

I think a have some symptoms of depression, but i am not sure because i can ignore it and is it because of porn? Maybe If i successfully reboot, i will find out!

Man I've been doing this for 15 days now, and I can safely say that I'm a mess. The sadness my being has to endour, feels ever-lasting. How long must I feel like this? It's as if I'm on a boat in the middle of a storm, the waves are crushing in, as I try to withhold the balance of my boat. For...

Hello friends I've been addicted more than 6 years now I discovered pornography and masturbation through friends when i was very young and didn't know of its affects and issues for a long time and when i did it was already too late I was way too addicted I do it 10+ times a week and started...

PLEASE NOTE. This post will be very long and probably confusing. English is not my native language, so there may be some grammatical errors. I intend to post elsewhere, so I would consider this post as multi themed. I will divide the text into parts for readability. I apologize for the excessive...

Hey folks, i've got a problem. A deeply rooted issue of mine that's been bothering me for two years now. I am heavily depresssed, it all started with insomnia due to an anxiety problem which set it all in motion. Prior to that I was an avid bodybuilder, hopefull for the future, dreaming of...

I've never considered myself addicted, more of a "compulsive" consumer of porn that is currently dieting (I was also a compulsive eater, but managed to lose quite a bit of weight). Although I had periods of masturbating daily, I could reduce it to once a week whenever I wanted to. If I had...

Hi everyone, im new here, I'm a 21 years old guy, i have been trying to quit my addiction for a year but i always failed. I manged to go for 2 months without pprn but in the end i always relapsed, right now i'm in a two weeks streak. My main problem is always been my way of think about girls...

...today I got hit by severe depression...almost feels like crying and feeling like sh*t. Still falling down this well of feeling alone...but I know that this kind of cold turkey treatment may be necessary...falling back to old habbits may cause more depressions... Fortunately I never lose my...

Hi, guys I'm on the 40th or 41th day , I wanna know somethings 1/ within the last period I was freaked out of anything as long as it's related to sex and when I say this seance won't affect on me and I won't skip it or I skip because freaking out as child I say what heck with me it will never...

I have very little if not none. I thougt for a while that maybe I might have a family in the future or even a wife or girlfriend, but that had gone and passed. Even just staying pure for God alone seems like not enough. I feel so empty inside. I don't know why I continue to fight. Other people...

been working at new job for 2 weeks now. i am a 27 years old girl. i insulted last guy i dated in order to hurt him because he told me he didn't feel the urge to see me but didn't hate and kept always replying to me in a nice way but i wanted at least to stay friends as we were after he dumped...

To start things off I have never been suicidal so that's not the case here. I instead feel empty and lost in life. I just came back from a four day college tour trip which ended with going to a large theme park along with over 70 of my best friends. I just graduated high school on May 31 so...

Hello to all, Today I woke up with morning very sad. I feel like today has honestly opened my eyes. As I was feeling this way and my room being a total mess, I was triggered and wanting to... and I was so angry with myself. I thought to myself, “Are you serious? Your room is a mess, you are sad...

No matter how long I abstain from PMO I feel like the damage has been done. Sex just cannot escape my mind. I try hard to not let the thoughts come in but it makes its way in. Sometimes it's not even about me having sex, it's also how I think other people have sex. This is something I confront...

I haven't masturbated since Sunday. Which is good; I'm happy about that. I felt like I had to start "hard mode" because porn was really causing serious problems in my life. I feel like it's always caused problems. I found myself masturbating for 3-6 hours sometimes. It ate up massive portions of...

PMO, this addiction. This horrible habit I’ve allowed myself to indulge in has prevented me from many things. Knocked my confidence and self esteem. Caused physical damage, pied. It’s warped my view of women and even the world. The one positive to come out of this is that I’m not normal. Being...

Hey guys, this is the only place where I can feel I can vent so here goes... I'm a 20 year old male that has started dating a girl last week that is 17. We met at bowling coaching so we've known eachother for about a year since I'm still quite new to the sport. I don't get to see her very often...

Hello, sorry if this is too long, but I needed to get it out, I haven't told anyone for fear of being judged, and I found this page through a documentary (sorry for the bad spelling too, my first language isn't English , I'm barely learning). Well, I'm a 19 year old girl. I started watching...

I always get sad when I get home from a great trip. Because going on trips (specially with friends) is just awesome, and when you come home that great emotion is just gone. I even sometimes find myself crying because of all the joy I had that I didn't want to return ever again. I think a...

I never had a girlfriend.I got rejected 4 times.I am not confident.Maybe this world is not for me.I am a serious, a little bit aggressive and emotional person.I am perfectionist and I always move in a logical manner.In this world things doesn't work like I want.I started to find life...

Hi fellow Fapstronauts, I'm 144 days into hardmode reboot and experiencing deep state of sadness mixed with general anxiety about what future might bring and tiredness like having cold or flu. I have no sexual urges anymore, nor for porn, nor for MB or sex. I've come to a point when I'm putting...

Hey Yall, I won’t say my name. Im a teen and from Canada. I like beauty fashion and one day I wanna go vegan and just live freely. I have been watching porn and masturbating from a very young age and I want to stop! It doesn’t make me feel good. But I feel Ill a lot of motivation

I just relapsed after 23 wonderful, odd, flatlining, PMO-free days. I don't plan on relapsing again, and I want to talk about how the gym has helped me get through this particularly difficult day. Clearly I have some work to do. But during those 23 days, I hit the gym. HARD. I ran on...

My name is Martin im 21 nerly 22 yers old, and I have been feeling a bit depressed for a long time, and this have let to a hole lot of mastrubation. I have a Girlfriend but she's not up for that dayily rutine anymore since we have been together for 4 years. So every time we don't have sex, I sit...

Hey guys, I just joined NoFap yesterday and I have a question. I’ve been relapsing once every few days for the past 3 weeks, and this is after a 13-month streak of no PMO. Because I broke my streak I’m currently feeling extremely unmotivated and depressed and I was wondering what do you guys do...

What more can I do??? I'm 28 years old and have only had one sexual partner (1.5 year relationship a few years ago). I tend to fall for a woman, let her break my heart early, get in great physical shape, then try again (PMO always present, and a serious problem in that one relationship). I...

Had a lapse yesterday with M. No porn but hangover and I think depression is really taking its toll. It is NYE and I know that it is just a day but feeling very lonely. Tonight my wife will be out and I am here with kids for a few days at least before I move out of the house on Wednesday. We had...

Hi guys, I feel a little sad right now for the way I manage social relationships and dating. She asked me to go out and drink something. She's another girl I'm dating with. Here come my border and obsessive traits: I like her. When I'm dating with a girl I don't like very very much I feel free...

I wear a mask No not a physical mask but a mental one I show that I am confident , a go getter , and just a positive figure for people But in all actuality I am a mess. I feel depressed , I have low self esteem , I get just scared & anxious about just life ...My life has been rough(dealing with...

DISCLAIMER: This is by no means a social study on loneliness and I am by no means a psychiatrist. This is simply what I've seen in my own experience and what I have concluded from those experiences. Recently I've noticed a trend with many people who are single and struggle with PMO. Loneliness...

Sad to say, but as most would agree, pmo can destroy you and the people you love. Made me lazy, and had little desire to do things. I lied about the addiction as all addicts do. I was caught several times, used to watch in private mode on phone and tablet. I did cut down over time, but would...

It's been over a year now since I've gotten my heart broken by a girl I didn't know I genuinely loved until it was too late. Maybe I got too attached to her or God knows how it happened that I would curl up in bed and cry every time she began to cry as well. Since that time I don't feel like...

So the first week went pretty well, no PMO largely due to the disgust I had for myself. And the constant "legitimizing" of porn of those around me (no excuse, I have my own brain). Still, feeling low! But haven't gone 10 days w/o since I could, so it's possible, just lots of roadblocks...

I'm writing this introduction because I just want to be honest with myself and the rest of the online world. I masturbate as means to allow myself to feel better, and as a solution to forget about all of my other problems. However, through the process of relying on this one activity as a source...

Early on in my NoFap journey I never thought I would be posting in the section on loneliness. I thought I was the sort of person that was confident and introverted enough that this would not be a problem - I've lived alone almost all of my adult life, including now, and I thought it was great...

Hello everyone. I'm new to this forum. I always thought that it's stupid to engage in nofap community. For a very long time I have been thinking that if I overcome the nofap challenge then I wouldn't engage in this community as it seemed for me pathetic to write about such problems and helping...

Hello fellow Fapstronauts, I would like to introduce myself and the reason I have approached this community. Firstly, I am male of 44 years. I have been using porn on and off since 2000, but heavily (for me) over the last 5 years perhaps as a coping mechanism from feeling lost and without...

Brokenness becomes the sound of a sweet melody. A strange ambiance of apathy that seems to smother me. Belated apropos maternity. Missed the sweet bliss of serenity. I surrendered my divinity, and compromised my eternity. A price I paid in return for security. All the while, lacking in surety...

Hi everyone I am back now should have been day 3 but I relapsed today,I'm not feeling the same determination which I said,I prayed to really apologize to God need to put more of a effort in I feel really sad. I deleted my Insta account as that seems to trigger me all the time.I will beat this...