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I’m 33 years old, I’m married to a wonderful woman of 30 years old. I have struggled with porn my whole life and have bizarre kinks because of it that CANNOT be roleplayed In real life. The details of that do not matter. What matters is that I cannot stop. I have blockers on everything, and...

Hi everyone, I am 33 and have been watching porn for 15 years. I noticed early signs of addiction (e.g. having the urge to watch a cpl of times a week) several years ago. And I have been watching it 5-6 hours a day for the past 5 years. I am partnered and I have PIED and PIPE. So, here I am. I...

So I’m just going to say it I’ve literally got a Findom addition and I know it’s starting to effect my life more now than ever before. I started about three years ago but it was just giving small amounts never above the £50 mark. When I first started I felt good because I was getting attention...

Hi guys, I'm on day 78 of the reboot. I'm usually healthy and I haven't tripped even once! Doing the reboot properly, tonight for the first time after 78 days I have a severe sleep problem! I can not fall asleep ! I am writing this to you at 2:30 in the morning in my country, I went for a...

Okay so long story short, I am a minor, went on omegle in a hormone induced haze and made a series of idiotic decsions. Ended up exposing myself to several women, I believe them all to be of age however given some said 19-21 there is a slim possibility of me being mistaken. I have already be...

4 days into a binge and feel like I'm headed for a big role this time, a grand relapse! It is the worst case scenario for this to happen (exaggerating, but does feel like the perfect storm). Got 2 weeks off work starting several days ago. I'm married and my wife is at work all day. I live in a...

Be warned everyone, it's not very well known that excessive masturbation can cause nerve damage. Vigorous masturbation can cause significant damage to the head of the penis. You won't even be aware that it's happening necessarily. This happened to me. I masturbated several times a day for...

I want to start off by noting I have completely stopped masterbating in a prone position as of a week today. I am 20 years old about to turn 21 in October. I would say I started watching porn at the age of 15, however my porn consumption grew worse and worse following up to about 8 months ago...

Hy guys, i am new here and it is my very first Post in this Forum. To me i am 29 Years old and i think i have bad habits with porn and masturbation. I masturbated every day and sometimes 4 to 5 times a day. Never without porn. Over the years i needed more and more porn. Now i have 20 to 30 tabs...

Hello everyone, I hope you're fine.Today I'm so upset with myself because I've relapsed five times during these two weeks. I promised myself I would never visit any porn web sites but I didn't keep that promise. Additionally I've started jerkking off to some pics of escorts, and that scares me...

I've just spent some time with my dad. He's on medication for schizophrenia and high blood pressure. Today I joked about him being so fat because he's on corticosteroids and is basically being pumped full of oestrogen. Both last night and today he complained of puking and a sore chest. This...

Got a "friend" who is driving dirty long story short my "friend" hired a lawyer a month before the lockdown to take care of his suspended license due to non payment of traffic tickets.. Paid him 2k.. Then Covid hit and all courts were shut down.. Now my "friend" can't get his license reinstated...

I've been at an inpatient addiction treatment center for porn nine months now. I haven't even had to opportunity to look at porn this whole time. I'm really stoked about not looking at porn for nine months, but I'm also scared. Am I really in recovery if I haven't even had to opportunity to...

Hello everyone I am 21M, in 11th day Hard Mode. 4 months ago, I took TCA antidepressant for only 5 days. then stopped taking it. but it was too late. I lost everything. now I have anhedonia (feeling no emotion), pssd, terrible memory, lack of concentration. I had genital numbness and 0 libido...

“She might have even liked me… but I will never know now…” I was a guy who PMO’d 2x/day every day (early morning AND late night) from ages 18-26. I failed out of grad school a few years back, which made my PMO addiction take an even worse turn. I moved back in with my parents. I worked a...

So as you can read i am scared to go into the shower as i am on a 2 week streak and i am scared that i will relapse even if i don't take my phone i think this will be the end of the streak of course i showered in these 2 weeks but i am just scared to go in today but i still need to shower since...

Hi im very sorry if this post is all over the place im 22 male ive been addicted to porn for probably almost 10 years it started with straight porn then trans then pegging then sissy and CDs and then led to gay. Porn has caused me to do things i would of never done before im on sex chat sites...

Just like the title says I’ve had pied since I was 21 am now 27. Today is day 1 without porn and I’m trying to do hard mode. A couple years ago I went 6 months and relapsed I’m now 27. I work a full time job make good money but because of this I’m very depressed. My friend told me the other day...

I started PMO in August of 2014 and it is one of my biggest regrets. I started noticing a lack of motivation after just 1 month of daily use. As the years progressed I watched myself loose friends, motivation, sleep, memory, sexual drive, and confidence. I became depressed. Confined myself...

Hello everybody, here i'll go down on some real deep arguments and make them short just saying what is really needed. No, it is not a motivational post to help you stop fapping or even talking about my nofap experience too much. Yes, i strongly believe this can be interesting and help you in...

Hi Everyone, I am on day 41 with no porn. I still fap regularly once a day. I don't have much of porn thoughts. I have been addicted to porn for like a decade. I have been always single. I do feel lonely. I love someone but can't express it. I tried nofap previously but everytime ended up in...

Im new to nofap so I just want to know if what I am experiencing is normal. Around a month ago I stared feeling less attracted and love for my girlfriend of almost 3 years. After doing some research I came to the conclusion it was the fact that I have been watching porn 3-5 times a day for over...

After years and years, I finally decided to stop altogether with porn and masturbating over it... Im in my late 30s and although I never felt ashame for my addiction, it started becoming problematic when i started watching it at work, or have the urge whenever i was alone. Not having sex with my...

Not long ago, I was the perfect daughter, perfect sister and the perfect student. My parents used to be proud to have me as their daughter. My sister bragged to her friends about the many trophies and medals that I received in the annual competitions. My school had my portrait in the hallway as...

I feel like this is going to be too hard and the thoughts/urges will consume me. I am so dependent on sexual release that when i know i won't have it for a long time I feel a tantrum in my head, a deep sinking loss feeling in my heart, and denial that this is the right thing to do. I believe...

I am 10 minutes in, and the first thing I'm terrified of is that I'm leaving the safety of porn. I feel like I am willingly giving up my security blanket. I have no idea what to do or what to concentrate on, because the "friend" that I've relied on is no longer there. HOW MESSED UP IS THAT...

Lately on this NoFap streak I’ve noticed that I feel as if my dick is getting smaller and I no longer feel horny when I’m with women. I’ve edged twice on the streak, and on porn, so I restarted my counter. Before I edged I felt as horny asf, and got a lot of erections during class, but ever...

still have my hesitations...worries...fears. i feel like he's being serious about this recovery, but i don't know if he's making/taking the steps. it scares me. what if he's hiding it from me again? i have all the precautionary things added (parental controls, etc.) i check his history and if i...

Went another couple of weeks, had sex and days after predictably spiraled into PMO - once the day after sex, once 2 days after that, finally 3 times today when I was supposed to be working (from home). 3rd orgasm was great and long lasting. Poor defenseless dick stroked / ground against pants...

Hello Fapstronauts, I've been PMO'ing since I was 12, I'm 21 now. I heard about NoFap years ago but I never thought I had a problem. Until I started dating this wonderful, amazing girl who I am now engaged to. I am convinced she is the love of my life, yet I've lied to her countless times about...

Hello everyone my name is Michael im 26 from County Cork in Ireland. For the best part of 11 years i have been addicted to porn. I was just last night watching Netflix and i came accross a series called The Dark Net, in one episode it featured Alexander. He went on about NOFAP and i was...

i have had issues with porn and masturbation since 13. I'm now 32 and it is keeping me from a sound mind and productive relationships. I hate it. I want to stop. It never seems possible. I hope this site, community and tools will help. Any advice is more than welcome. The site still confuses me...

Hi all, I am a 27 year old law student with one more year of school left, who is tired of this affecting my grades and what I do with my free time. My last and only serious girlfriend and I struggled with PIED, and since I started law school I have not had a serious relationship with anyone. I...

hey there I'm new to the community and am here for the same reasons you are - I'm just scared as fuck about it I have already deleted my pornhub profile and all my saved videos but I'm having a hard time going to my google docs to delete my personal (of me having all kinds of crazy high sex)...

So I really overstepped yesterday... I got so excited talking to someone that I invited him over. Thank god that he has work tomorrow otherwise I would really be in some deep shit right now. I can't take these urges anymore! I don't even want to look at porn right now, I just want to rewire...

I really need help people. This is from my personal journal Today was a really hard day. I had constant reoccurring thoughts and desires to go and hook up with this older man who was the first person to get me off. He made me feel amazing and he was very kind, but I just can't...I am...

Hi. I've been having a lot of difficulties controlling how much PMO is in my life. Sometimes I barely enjoy masturbating, and when I finish I'm filled with negative emotions. I also don't enjoy porn when I'm not fapping because a lot of what I see is somewhat degrading or doesn't make sense. Yet...

Hi I'm Q, I'm 17 years old and a senior in High School. I'm not really sure how to use this website but I'm writing whatever you would call this anyway. I'm honestly not sure how long I've been masturbating (probably around 6 years) and I have become increasingly worried about where what I...

There was a reason that I stumbled upon an interview with the founder of NoFAP on NPR a couple of months ago, and kept the site up in my favorites while continuing along the cycle of despair. I am BRAND NEW. I have been married for 19 years and although there have been a few bright moments, this...

Well I have heard of this movement for a while and have attempted this about a year ago, but my porn viewing was not overly excessive. For a couple of months now though I have had issues with getting an erection and even when I do get one it is only semi-solid at best...I also have had lack of...

22 year old guy,few friends,been a weirdo all my life ,sometimes considered a clown sometimes considered extremley smart because of my weirdness. Anyway,I barely had any girlfriends,my first relation started barely in faculty. I ve been too scared of rejection do anything till I was 20 years...