self accountablility

I would have never thought I would be writing an anonymous post in a forum like this, even though I checked this websites many times before in times of desperation. I just cant fucking believe it. Its been like 5 years of me actively trying to quit this 12 years addiction (Im 25 btw), and I am...

I don’t know when I started consuming pornography, but from the age of 19 until now (24), it has been a huge problem for me. My academic performance has dropped and I’ve failed exams (for most of them I didn't even showed up because I spent my study time at home masturbating to pornogrophy all...

I got nothing to say. gonna do a 5k day nofap hardmode. will revisit women and relationships and all that societal crap after leveling up my life for my family first. enough said. even if my family is gone. I'll secure myself. high priority, no drama. won't engage with any women (and no gay...

In the name of Almighty, the most Beneficent and the most Merciful. Purpose I face the problem of overthinking and mind unrest that stems from my insecurities. I believe when I fail to push myself in terms of my Primary activities which include, Study, health, relation with parents...

First off, this sounds disgusting, but for the next 48 hours, I will not even brush my teeth (the artificial sweeteners in toothpaste spike insulin levels, thus keeping your body from experiencing the true benefits of a fasted state). No water consumption, no food consumption. No vitamins...

Another year, an eclipse before me. And here I am again, doing all of the things I chose to do this year, yet failing all the same. Some parts of me hate myself for it, some parts are just quiet, and some parts just don't care as long as it is easy. I think I lost the part where I was angry and...

I hope this thread can serve you all in releasing your shame and be an inspiration to start living the life you really want. I've been doing a good amount of self reflection and ruminating this week. My thoughts became so negative I began thinking I might actually be retarded or somehow...

A few hours ago there was a realization. When was the last time porn came to mind? When was the last time a fantasy began playing out on and off throughout the day? Honestly didn’t think any progress has been made in the 2ish years since starting this journey. My longest streak was 10 days...

Age 17. Its been a while since I've posted on the forum. During the interim I've had successes, losses, days that I've felt like I've peaked out and days that I honestly believed I couldn't complete the 200 day streak without P that I currently am on now. Since I've last posted, although I've...

When I was younger I used to blame my problems on every other person and say "It's their fault that I'm in this situation." But now I've come to realize that that everyone including myself plays a hand in problems What matters is how you respond to them but as I grew older I turned to Stoicism I...

Ever since I was 9 years old I was attracted to fat women [This was not porn induced] I was at a party with my family and I saw a fat woman who I thought was very attractive yet I spent years trying to keep this "desire" hidden especially from my mother who claims to be progressive and forward...