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Hello, I'm here to write my story... It all started, when I was 10 or 11 years old, in 2015, where I started diving into various pornography sites, I had seen naked women before, but it was something very rare. From that year on, I didn't stop and continued consuming porn, until August 6, 2021...

First of all I wanted to apologize for my English, I will be using Google Translate. I'm 22 years old, I started PMO around age 12, I never really considered myself an addict (which was a mistake), but everything got noticeably worse for at least 3-4 years, I started looking at all kinds of...

I thought I was addicted, until I became addicted. I never in my life thought I could experience drug like withdrawal symptoms and sustained brain damage from viewing pixels. The truth is it’s simply more than pixels, and it’s simply more than flesh. The saying goes “Eyes are windows to the...

Would you go public about how you've looked at porn and how it effected you publicly? I mean like sharing your story on social media or giving a public talk about?

Hello everyone, I appreciate people that will take the time to read my story. Today, I relapsed twice and i feel horrible. I'm not gonna lie, i have suicidal thoughts but i know i'm not gonna go and act because and don't have the courage take my own life. Whatever, my story is that like a lot...

(Disclaimer: I watched a NoFap video from Hamza who mentioned to share your porn addiction story to someone or on NoFap community to feel better and open up. That's why I am writing this long story it might not be perfect but I'll try my best to explain it in a better way.) I have been bottling...

We already busted the myths of free sex access and male victimhood in Lie pt. 1 and Lie pt. 2. But to deliver the KO punch we have to look at where this confusion started. How did we arrive at a place where smart men could be fooled so easily about sex? What if I told you it all started with...

So here is my story, First, let me tell you about my history. I was a strict addict of Pmo. I used to watch porn every day for 2 hours. I masturbated so much that I even stopped feeling the climax at masturbation. It felt like it used to come out midway. When I used to scroll insta reels and saw...

Hey I'm brand new here. I've been struggling for years with both porn and sex addiction amplified by several substance addictions. I recently learned about how sexual trauma can fuel or cause this sorta thing when I decided to actually admit to myself that maybe I am actually addicted and this...

Writing this to give guidance and hope, please read if you're struggling. Started watching porn at idk, 13? Not sure. I lost the desire to pursue real women, I was nervous speaking to them back then and porn took away the push needed to go do it. Used it to cope with stress (not consciously...

Hi Everyone, New to this forum but not new to PMO and NoFap in general. I've been struggling to end my relationship with porn for over a decade now. Like alot of people on this site, I was introduced to porn/masturbation at a very young age and quickly began using it in an unhealthy way. I...

N: Glad you could join me. P: Yeah, thanks for meeting. N: I’m glad we’re getting a chance to really take a step back and look at things objectively. I hope you don’t take offense to any criticisms I have to offer. P: I think we’ll be okay. I hope you don’t get offended at anything I...

Hello! I love that this is an old-school "bulletin board" style website. Haven't seen one of those in a long time. I dig it! Where to start? I'm a 36-year-old father with a wife and 2 kids. I'm also, deeply addicted to pornography :-\ I've been that way since age 11. I felt intense shame at...

It was late 2018. My life was shit. Constant anxiety. Social incel. Completely fogged up mentally. No girls. Etc. I had no hope, until i came across nofap. It took a few months. But around April 2019 I hit a 57 day streak. After that it was smooth sailing 20-30 day streaks. my life completely...

So almost a few weeks ago, one week before Christmas, I edged like crazy, I felt intense blue balls. It went away after, but for about a week or so after I edged, I had a tenderness in my left nut. Thankfully, so greatful, it went away. But literally for a week I avoided running, jumping, etc...

Hope this story helps. It is a real story and if someone could do it, everyone can change their life

I've been suffering a pmo addiction for thirty years now. Joined nofap a long while ago, but recently rediscovered the site. Here's some hopefully helpful advice and discussion from a fellow battler just now coming to real terms with his addiction. Probably one of my first huge roadblocks was...

Hi all, I used this site for many years and stopped a few years ago after I found my erectile dysfunction went away enough. I wanted to come back and share my journey in the hopes that it would help someone. I had ED for a longgggggg time. I first noticed it when I was 17 and had problems...

It all started when I was a kid, browsing the web, came across a picture of a women who's breast was uncovered and her hand up in air, but another hand censoring it. That image fucked me up , its forever censored into my head. My heart started to pain and feel weird . I don't even remember how...

Hello everyone ! I think this is going to be a long post so stay with me until the end. I have so much to say, so many things happened in my journey, I was on the bottom and also on the sky. I will tell you my whole story here and now, I hope some of you will find yourselves here and relate...

Hello everyone. Before I get into the thread I should give some context on who I am and why it matters. I don't use this forum as much as I want to but my addiction goes back as far back as the age of 11. I'm now 23. I've been trying to quit for years but no luck. Obviously, it's stunted my...

First off, I want to thank everybody here for their support and vulnerability to share their stories here. Even though we are connecting only through the Internet, we still can strengthen and empower one another to achieve great things and abstain from PMO. I just passed the 100-day mark. My...

Hey guys, I'm new here but I was motivated to join after what happened. Yesterday was my 21st birthday and I decided it would be funny if I joined a cam girl website (Chaturbate), considering I've had a relatively healthy porn habit and could handle it, (I know a lot of you don't agree that...

Okay, I need to write this here. This is the story of how it popped up. I was a happy straight guy, I only liked girls. Before watching porn, I remember searching nude photos of girls on the internet and my heart started to race very fast. I started watching porn at the age of 12 and it was...

:emoji_dizzy:xAloha!!!x:emoji_crescent_moon: Today, I'd like to share about my 90 Days NoFap experience. Allow me to share a little bit of myself. I'm a young adult in South Africa:emoji_flag_za: and I will be doing my final year in school there after I will chase my wildest dreams. I had a...

I know I'm too young (19), and not everyone would take any advice from me. I'm an average guy from a third world country that only gets attention when the U.S. president on duty mentions it to win a few thousand cheap Latino votes that aren't despicable at all. But I know something for a fact...

Porn addiction is something that is not to be taken lightly. It has cost us a lot in our lives, career, relationships. Everyday is a fight against yourself. One part of you tells you to keep fighting, while the other insists you to watch it. The good vs the ugly. Experience tells me, the part...

30 days. After 6 years of constant failure I've finally made it a while 30 days without consuming any form of P. My goal is to totally eradicate P from my life and this is only the beginning. Below, I guess I will just highlight how I did it and the benefits so far. How I did it! - First and...

Hey everyone, I've been around nofap community for about half a year. While at start I had a significant improvement (measured by relapes\setbacks), I believe now I'm about where I've started, with greater knowledge of course. Relapsed a few hours ago, so I've decided to try to write my story...

Hi, I am Adarsh and I live in Nepal. When I was a kid my mom used to work as the maid in the "upper-class family" while working there she made a promise to herself that though we were "poor" she will raise me like a rich kid. The kid who is kind and soft-hearted and will help others in need, the...

Hello everyone. Before I start, I need to tell you that I will be totally honest with you. I have no idea how to start but I am sure this will be helpful for those that are starting in this journey. I'm 22 years old and the reason why I stopped watching porn, masturbating and orgasming is kind...

Hey guys, nice to meet you all. I've always been a lurker (usually on other sites) and never been one for community participation, but I've decided to take this step and get involved so I can play a more active role in my recovery journey. Here's my story. Let's do this! I'm an almost-24 year...

Preface I have read many of the success stories posted on the forum and don't want to add one more post to the hundreds that are already on here with laundry lists of withdrawal symptoms and new "superpowers" that they acquired. Instead, I want to provide a framework that early rebooters should...

All of us have experienced wet dreams after a long time of Semen Retention or nofap, nothing weird about that, right. Well I don't know about you but for me it was different, and here is how. Many times when I experienced a wet dream I could feel the touch of a person and her breathing, it is...

Hey there everyone, I wanted to share my story in order to be completely transparent about the extent of my addiction. I had a very hard time writing all this, I hope you won't hate me. This is gonna be an unwieldy post. Around age 9 or saw a victoria's secret ad, and got the bright idea of...

A few hours ago I messed up. Again. But before I go in further detail I should explain my background with nofap. Around 1,5 years ago I was confronted with this movement and I started overthinking my porn consume and my masturbation habits. After trying and failing several times after just a...

My thought process being a mess and my long-term memory almost non-existent, I circumvent that with writing. Hello, I'm Uneven and I pass time reading auto-biographies from nobodies / average Joes at online forums. Fun stuff, I know. Also, I'm not that old if you're becoming suspicious I might...

Hi! I have been following these forums so long but never really wrote anything before this. Well, good news are that I have managed to get good start for my recovery. There haven't really been urges… well, one just 20 minutes ago in the shower. But not otherwise. I have tried consciously keep...

Hi, was here a little while ago and was going pretty good for awhile longer than I have in awhile 10 days, that urge was killing me and I failed again I’m mad at myself but this was my longest streak yet so I’m keeping at it I’m resetting the clock and giving It another go. I haven’t been using...

Recently I got into a new relationship where I discovered I have PEID. I’m 20M and a virgin. Started watching at age of 13 daily since then sometimes more. Nothing happens downstairs when my gf touched me and made a move. I since started NOFAP and quit PMO and any self stimulation. After...

I started watching porn and jacking off at the start of 6th grade, so porn has had a huge impact on my life. I know realized that it stopped me from learning about myself and who I am and who I will become. I was jacking off before I could even jizz, I was just shooting blanks. Throughout middle...

Hi guys, Im 24 year old from Spain. I wanted to say hello to all the community of nofap, and also I wanted to tell my story on porn addiction. I started watching porn when I was 12 or 13, and at the beginning it just started because of curiosity I would say. I never was really invested or...

To start off I’m 17. I live with my 3 little brothers and my mom. Today, I caught my 13 year old brother watching porn. I immediately saw him cover himself and I just closed the door and waited until after. I called his name and asked him to talk. Not in a weird way. But to have a talk with him...

Hi guys This is the first time that I write a successful story. So far this year, has been Amazing! I have improved so many aspects in my life that maybe I don't even recognize myself. The Start of the story: At the end of 2018, I broke up with my ex GF and that left me devastated...

What´s up fellows? This post should be a warning sign for all of you out there. Maybe it gives you this last bit of energy you need. At least I hope it can help you in any way. In the last weeks I found myself in this circle of going for a week (6-9 days) and then I relapse. That is just the...

I unfortunately relapsed the other day after a 50+ day streak and, well, today wasn't the best day to be a college student. So I am an animation student at a college in Massachusetts and today we were pitching ideas for our shorts. At first, I was calm, collected and felt alright, no great but...

I would like to share a story that I came across lately. I am a student and live away from my home in another city. Our lectures begin at nine in the morning. There's a short route that cuts across a lane which has these amazing shops selling some amazing food. I usually eat idlis(an Indian...

Hello fellow Fapstronauts this is Believeit (just call me E) signing in to my first official day journaling about my NoFap journey I have very recently began! I have absolutely no idea where to begin. There is so much to explain. I will start with introducing myself and my life, getting a...

Buckle up, this is a long one. I have been addicted to sex, pornography and all the perversions within it for over half of my life now. Starting at an insanely early age, I was always drawn to sexuality, taboo topics and just the overall "forbidden" nature of it all. When I was only six or...

Hey all, I (28) went on holiday and didn't masturbate for two weeks, figured I would extend it and try NoFap. I returned from the trip about a week ago now. I thought I'd share my experience. Presently, I'm past the 20 day mark. (Quite a bit more but I set a strict starting date of June 20th...

So I’ve been wanting to share my story for a few weeks, and today happens to be my 100th day without orgasm. I began NoFap after realizing how poor my romantic life was and how my sissification fetish controlled large portions of my time. I was not the man I wanted to become. So 100 days ago...

Namaste Everyone Here is my background it's a 13+ year old addiction, heavy user I was little 9yr old kid when i discover porn & masturbation one of my friend introduced to me. We started with dvds he had a bunch of stuff, watching in my next empty room & masturbate it. We felt so good...

It feels as if I've made Hundreds of these posts but now, I'm sure this is my last one. My last 2 posts where about being addicted to transwomen and and the guilt and shame of sending nudes. Well todays post is about both. I got up today at 9:30 and everything was going good. I don't know what got...

Hello ladies and gentlemen, as I said earlier I will take my time to write a long post for everyone. THANKS! For the people that helped me overcome this obstacle. For the people that liked my content and encouraged me to not give up when times are the toughest. For everyone that wrote a...

Hi my name is Souvik. I am from India yeah I did fapping for most of my childhood I started it when I was 11 and right now I am 18 years and eight months. Asus about nofap when I was just 17 I did nofap for one month and finally relapsed and I knew that when someone relapses after a long time it...

Hello everybody My name is 2ndChance and I hope that I can find mine here... I'm sorry for my English, it's obviously not my mother language. First of all, I'm very glad that this community exists and I thank everyone who reads this or takes part of my journey. My story: I'm in my mid 20ies...

Introduction I've finally reached my goal of sustaining from P and M for 150 Days. I began PMO during my Freshman year of high school ( I'm graduating from college next year ) it's crazy to think back and realize in all these years this is the first 150 Days that I've left these things behind...

This is my personal experience, and hope it helps others along their path in life and change as a man for the better. I always felt defective or nervous with girls growing up as a teenager, I was fapping hard to porn at that time as well. Little did I know it was the porn fapping damaging me in...

This does not feel like an average dream, very amazing and very enjoyable!. let me explain about the style that i usually follow to dream. I`ll always dream about nostalgic events, like spending time with vintage games, toys from the 90s!!. Okay, let me come to the point, Today I slept quite...

Hi guys Today I have achieved my first ever 30 days in my life! I started nofap journey in January 2018 and have done some streaks 20-19-14-11-10-8-7 days, so my record before this one was 20 days. I have been addicted to porn for 24 years and I have 2 very strong fetishes Before I started...

About me - I am a 19 yo boy from INDIA and i have been trying to get clean from the past 3~4 years and i have failed miserably.I have suffered a lot due to masturbation and i am still suffering the consequences ( i will discuss in detail below ). I found Nofap many years ago and due to repeated...

I made a new years resolution to not use PMO entering 2019, it was going good and strong for 14 days. In those days i had some serious urges and was very close to relapsing but i held back and told my self it wasn't worth it, because it really isn't worth using PMO. On the 14 day is when i...

Hi, I'm Bruce. I am a porn addict since I was 18. I find it very hard to overcome this addiction. I tried everything, every strategy to quit porn but couldn't. Once I got 23 days without watching any porn and without masturbating this is the maximum day I have achieved success. Since then it...

Hi, I'm Bruce. I am a porn addict since I was 18. I find it very hard to overcome this addiction. I tried everything, every strategy to quit porn but couldn't. Once I got 23 days without watching any porn and without masturbating this is the maximum day I have achieved success. Since then it...

When it turns into a daily routine Soul sucking arm churning Free in that moment why think about those next moments Visual obsessions degrading boundaries Loss of thinking, control and semen Now you can’t stop the losses Hungry habits wiring pathways Its feeding in that moment...

Hello, I'm 22 years old and like the most people I read posts about, I started watching porn and masturbating at the age of 11/12. When I was 13 I started smoking and shortly after smoking pot, wich led to having several social problems and bad grades in school, which I tried to compensate with...

Hello all fapstronauts, it's day 3 of my nofap challenge, I feel great, energized and motivated to go further, but at day 1 and day 2 something weird happened. During day 1 and day 2 I started to feel weird, I had the feeling that I wrongly started nofap, that feeling also was pushing me to...

Ive been struggling with masturbation addiction for about 6 years. Unfortuately, I've came across porn since I was 13 years old and have been jerking off for the past 6 years of my life. I knew it wasn't good for me, but I failed Everytime I tried to abstain from the addiction. Here are some of...

Okay.. umm , hi everyone i'm new here i've tried NoFap before (2times and it didnt work out ..) but this time i'm feeling it ... i really feel that this is the one , my highest record is 12 days. Okay so couple of hours ago i was on youtube and i saw kissing prank video and i pressed on it ...

Two Clicks Away Computers have amazed me since I was a little kid. I loved playing the classic old games like Red Alert or Age of Empires II. At that time, I was gradually getting to know how to operate a PC. It was exciting and frustrating at the same time. On one hand I was happy and excited...

Hey guys, so I completed 60+ days of NoFap hard mode and am very happy to share with you all the benefits and challenges that I faced. I started NoFap back in June, after reading and knowing about it more and more, I wanted to try it out and see if it makes any difference to me. I was in a very...

What was the most embarrassing situation you've ever been in? Here's one of mine, it was on the first day of university. My friend and I were in the elevator with a girl going up to one of our classes and he we was making fun of our professor's name because she had a strange name we didn't know...

This is going to be a quite lengthy post, but I do believe it can inspire you guys so I wanted to share it ;) After I discovered porn and masturbation at age 13 or 14, I got hooked as everyone else on here and it's been a tough 12 years. My life has been full of negativity, stress, anxiety...

Well.. yeah, not sure how i'm gonna start, but yeah here i go, im a college student,i think i'm being addicted with PMO since my mid year in juniorhigh school. wow yeah it's been around 4-5 year. my average nofap record is 2 weeks... but well.. i think i'm still fine to communicate with...

hello i'm anthony, i'n 21 years old and i realized i have a problem. for years i never thought of it as a problem ,just a way to pastime and nothing more but lately i've come to the realization that it started to interfiere with my life ,my routine is usually to look at porn 2 and on lazy days...

Hello, I am soon to be 20 years old. I've been a very consistent porn user since I was 12. In recent years, I have used it almost daily, and even more recently, have accessed it multiple times in any given day. Last November, I had my first real sexual encounters with a girl. In each of them I...

Okay guys, so this a battle we all have and its not that easy its even very hard. Ive been on and off on streaks and its been hell trying to quit this demon. SO i started a year ago after getting ed. Since summer 2017 Ive been fighting it without big results untill january. Then i had a good...

hello guys,i’m new around here. i don’t think i ever talked about this in my life but maybe it’s worth a try. I’m 40, i’ve had my first experiences with pornography maybe at 10, with some soft stuff, films and some magazines found hidden maybe by my father. Then my first computer arrived and i...

Hello everybody! As to conclude my long journey through NoFap I had sex at my 88th day. I know, it would have been better to do it at my 90th day but it's a kind of opportunity that one cannot refuses and I thought that I merited it after all. That was the first time I had sex with a woman...

Hello everyone. I am a 32yr old male living in southern California. I have always been sexual in nature and tend to have a more open mind in the bedroom so to speak. Since a young age I have been interested in porn, as are most teenagers during this time. Over the years my sexual curiosity...

I don’t know whether this was discussed in the group already but I just want to say that despite avoiding pornography that there are non-pornographic non-paraphilia material out there which can be sexually stimulating. The problem is that even these aspects can get interfere with a successful...

My story began when I was about 8 after discovering nudity on a movie I wasent suppose to be watching. I would watch videos online (any one remember I Film? That was my go to site until it was shut down) though I didnt masturbate until I was 20. Social Anxiety started in my teens, though I didnt...

Finally I'VE hit 30 day no PMO target. In the beginning I was not sure if I can do this , but with the help of my AP's and emergency button (there is no shame in using it) im here. Changes I am feeling now - Increased self confidence More time available for things that really matter...

Hi everyone, I am a 17 year old programmer, traditional catholic, male. Earlier this week I realized that in the next few months pornography addiction will have taken away half of my lifetime. I was introduced to it by my best friend when I was about 8 or 9. At first it wasn't a problem because...

I figured since were all anonymous here and a lot of us have a hard time staying positive in our reboot, why dont we have a thread where we can laugh at our own embarrassing moments? The idea is to post a story of something that happened to you that was embarrassing and you look back at it now...

It was probably the 55th time I reinstalled the dating App Tinder. I was tired of using these type of apps. My friend suggested to me to install it, so that I could overcome my fear of social anxiety by talking to girls. There were still a few matches from a while ago. So I started to talk to...

I lasted 107 Days. August 16, 2017 - December 1, 2017. ________________________________ attraction. first story. this girl I hadnt talked to in over 5 years contacted me thru snapchat. I asked her how she found me and she gave me some bullshit answer but anyways. I hadnt talked to her in that...

Hi there my new friends! So this is my attempt to finaly curb my mastrubation problem. I went cold turkey and stoped viewing porn back in April but I still havent managed to kick this mastrubation habit. So... Here is a little bit about me and my goals. Disclaimer: I talk about religion in...

Hey guys. I caused a great a deal of personal trouble to myself and now I'm here trying to make sure it doesn't happen again. I started talking to this girl a few weeks ago and I really like her(I'll call her angela). We have so many common interests and we are both pretty attractive. I'm not...

For probably ~2 some years now I have suffered from some ED and DE symptoms. Getting to the bottom of this has been a frustrating process especially because i'm not sure the cause because it may be anti-depressant related, P consumption related, O methods related etc. I have tried to cutback...

I am more than happy to share that today I have hit 70 days of my PMO-free journey, and thought I would quickly share some of my findings with anyone who would like to learn more or get some inspiration to start their own journey. The reason I started this journey was because I considered...

"She Knows My Name" (Story of the Pharmacy Assistant) I walk into the pharmacy to pick up my meds. M is standing at the same desk, looking down at a pile of scripts. I walk up, greeting Kellie (the pharmacist); M notices me but does not greet me. Kellie says, "I'll be with you in a sec," takes...

Hi, I'm Mike Ferrari from Indonesia I'm a PMO-addict and I want to change this status as quick as possible. So. Of course. The story. When did it all started? Well, It goes back to when I was 4th grader, I was naive happy with my life. I have a lot of friends, boys girls no problem at all. I...

Hi, I recently added fiction writing to my list of self-improvement activities. Truth is, I haven't written anything before but I am reading many books on the subject and I would like love to write a short story. Any thoughts, ideas or suggestions as to how I can improve my skills? Maybe some...

After tonight I'll reaxh 36 days. A new record. The last record was 35 around July. The further I get into nopmo the less I want to waste time. I realized. To change anything in your own life you first have to change yourself.

Here is a thread about the little victories people have along their journey. We all have them, day in and day out. Some are bigger than others. This is where you can share the ones you take notice of. My little victory came yesterday. I was eight days into a streak when I relapsed, spiraling...

I am from India. I am 27 and unmarried. Pornography got into my life very early even before Internet became a norm in India. As far as I remember, my curiosity to porn started from regular newspapers, magazines and most importantly movies. Though the first nude I saw was in 2003 approximately...

Hello, everyone. Today I'd like to tell my story and hope you guys will draw some inspiration from this. A small introduction: My name is Rhys. I'm a student and aspiring musician. That's all you need to know right now Now my story... I learned about NoFap around October 2016. A video went...

This is a story of many ... You are tired and sick of what you are doing, you are feeling shame and guilt, you are feeling weak because you have drained your body of its essence, your bones crack, muscles hurt, you are worried about your health, your future, potential opportunities, feeling...

Hello, I have been addicted for 8 years. I did not notice the effects porn was having on my life until around 4 years ago. Like most people who have suffered from porn addiction, i started of small occasionally watching porn for 10-15 minutes for few days a week. Gradually my tolerance grew and...