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Hey. I have admitted for long time ago that Iam a porn addict. I have been addicted to porn for about 10 years since I started on very young age. Now Im doomed in a cycle. Porn -> Alcohol -> Smoking, and repeat. I have lied to myself, I just had to admit that Im also a alcoholic and smoker too...

Hi Y'all, new guy here. Long-time oddball in life with Asperger's Syndrome and anger management issues among other things. So clearly I was going to struggle regardless. But the thing I truly despise about myself is the form of porn addiction I got into. Word of warning, this isn't just an...

Oh man where do I begin? It has been a few years since I have been on NoFap and things have not gotten better. In fact, things have plummeted. When I last posted, I was working as a reporter/mmj for a local NBC affiliate. One night I was alone with nothing but my demons and I made a bad...

Desperately need advice from people who have gone through porn escalation I’ve been addicted since around the age of 10. I was exposed to sex far too young and this combined with the fact that I was never very social led to me spending most of my time watching porn online. It started normally...

Let me begin with saying that I’ve always been a troubled kid. I didn’t do anything bad, but I got into sexual stuff at an early age. I was either 7 or 8 years old when I discovered porn on my brother’s phone. When I was 11 I started playing my first interactive porn games. And by the age 14 I...

I noticed that I can easily make it to 5 days, until the urges starts, and on 7 days it becomes really hard. Also seeing dreams about porn every night after 5 days. I cant think anything else but porn, I cant distract myself becouse the urges are nonstop on my mind. This is making me suicidal...

Im so tired of this addiction, it has ruined my spirit, my health, my life. My brain is so fucked up. I feel always, non-stop, braindead, brainfog, depressed, tired, anxious, dead, disconnected. I suffer from dp/dr and many others mental health issues that are most likely caused by porn. Id...

Are you interested in a support telegram group for people who suffer from bad porn addiction, escalation in genres which causes extreme shame and make you suicidal, compulsive disorder etc.? I think together we are stronger than fighting alone against all this problems. I mean addiction itself...

I'm about the ugliest person to ever step foot on God's green Earth, I am short and have a rather feminine face. I could work with this because of my hair, which is the best part about myself. Now, because whatever fate exists hates my fucking guts, I'm losing it. I'll never accomplish my...

I don't even know why I'm making a post or anything anymore I guess on some level my head still has hope but I know that's just a lie cause I have nothing now and there's no future for me. I've been trying to fight this addiction for so long now and it has finally won and took everything from me...

Hello all, I want to share what I feel is the ultimate difference maker in someone just starting NoFap, is making it through Flatlining, or is just trying to reach NoFap goals: Emotional Intelligence Emotional Intelligence can be defined simply as: A) Knowing what emotions you're feeling or...

I relapsed less than a week ago after 64 days and since then I have been living like a fiend. I've been masturbating and talking to girls for 10 hours a day and I can't seem to stop. I feel like I undid all of my progress and like my life will never get better. I have noone. I don't have family...

(Bit dramatic) Sorry if about the length and that this reads a bit loose and fragmented, I cant think straight anymore. Ive been 'doing' Nofap since around December 2018 since then I've managed to break a daily pmo habit and had streaks lasting a few weeks to 30-45 days however at the start of...

I know that we all struggle here, and I really know that you have maybe your problems but I need help. Long story short I've been masturbating for 4 years now and for the last year I tried so hard to stop watching porn but I wasn't able. My biggest streak was 1 month. I've tried so many methods...

I got to struct in my relapse cycle Buddy please I beg Ur feet brother this addiction is killing me day by day please help me out nor there is work I'm still college student due to lockdown I'm unable to go college and I'm all day inside home please buddy only u can understand my pain I have no...

Since this whole lockdown started around March 15th I've been for the most part, single.. For the most part most nights i was keeping myself warm.. Now as the year is wrapping up im reflecting.. finding positives and negatives about spending this year alone.. A positive is i know more about who...

I feel so trapped and I'm losing my fucking mind. I wish I had someone to talk to but apart from my family whom have given up on me, nobody even knows I exist. My anxiety is sky high and I'm too depressed to do anything. I'm holding on and waiting this out but fuck is this hard. I'm not even...

Have you ever wondered, when did PMO gain control of my life? When did I lose my ability to say no? It is amazing how, little by little, this beast became the over-powering monster it is today. I think back to when I was shown my first magazine, and then it went to stealing them because I was...

Today I was informed about somebody who I knew, albeit briefly, made the decision to take his own life last weekend, I knew he was missing but only today have the police and his family confirmed. I keep looking at a recent photograph of him when I first saw the photo I thought he looked...

Before the arrival of android, I was around 10years old searched Google for hot girls I don't know where did I got that thought. But it was the starting of destruction of life. I was not much active person I was a serious day dreamer. After that search I was dreaming porn which involved my...

I’m on day 320 and I’m worse than I’ve ever been before. I’ve been on and off of streaks for the past year and now I don’t know what I’m going to do. I’m so stupid. I kept on going a week and relapsing and now I’m worse than I was when it felt like I was finally breaking free of everything. I’m...

TRIGGER WARNING For those of you who are currently struggling with depression or suicidal tendencies, this thread might not be for you. Always remember that you matter, and find someone to talk. ************************ I am definitely not the first one who came up with this idea. I mean, it's...

Hello everyone I am 21M, in 11th day Hard Mode. 4 months ago, I took TCA antidepressant for only 5 days. then stopped taking it. but it was too late. I lost everything. now I have anhedonia (feeling no emotion), pssd, terrible memory, lack of concentration. I had genital numbness and 0 libido...

EMERGENCY - Help, pls anyone!!! Warning: this is a long post. For those who want me to get straight to the point, I just relapsed... idk what to do anymore and I need help to complete NoFap for 90 days. Please read the rest below for the details on my case tho, would greatly appreciate it...

I am so depressed today, I am so sorry for what I did, I wish I could take back the last 18 months of destruction and replace it with all the love and care I do have for my partner. I was so blinded by the addiction that I pushed the 1 person so far that I feel like he has given up on me. I...

hi guys, i cant seem to do more than a couple of days of nofap then i binge weird fetish porn for hours. It is shameful. I really feel the effects of excessive PMO in that it makes me feel weak and energyless but i cant stop. Any advice or tips on how to just get a few more days under my belt...

So first things first: this is the longest streak I have ever upheld. 57 days today. And emotions are coming up that are absolutely overwhelming. Profound grief, unbelievable depression, wanting to die, racing thoughts about racing thoughts, fighting thoughts, looping thoughts, an inability to...

I would like to share a little of my story to support those young mothers who also struggle with being a SO of a PA. You ladies are not alone! It is so very difficult to be feeling betrayed and hurt on top of caring for little, helpless humans without a present partner! Please reach out to us...

Hello kind souls.. I've been up and down with this habit for years I just want to know if I can get professional help which doctor do I visit? I've Jerkedoff by a sexologist saying It's completely normal and there's nothing to worry about "That was two years ago" I went on a rampage after that...

Firstly, thanks for taking the time to read this? If you relate at all, feel free to connect with me and journey along. If there is hope for me.... then I truly believe anyone can change. EVERYTHING in this post is 100% truth. My name is John and I am 33 years old (within a month of my 34th...

I got addicted to porn at around 14 maybe? Told myself it wasn't a problem but I was lying to myself the whole time. After suffering from depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts for a few years, I feel so much happier and love myself now. I recently found God again which gave me new hope and...

I am 20 years old boy , watching porn and masturbating for the last 5 years. I am so addicted to this habit. After I relapsed i feel so horrible, tired and guilt that why I watching porn and relapsed. I Cannot stop this addiction. My family and relatives makes fun of me that U are very shy...

Hey guys so in this text I try to explain my story. It could get a little long but I hope some of you will read it and maybe can help me. Until 2 month ago I was a complete normal 18 year old man. I got my morning woods, spontanious erections, urges, jerked it of to porn once in a while and so...

I have become badly depressed. I've been trying to beat my addiction for a little over a year now. I'm addicted to cybersex and sex chatting websites. It only got better for a small period of time. Now seems worse than ever before. I let people use me, and I use them. I've had suicidal...

Hello people I am 16 yo boy. I am suffering from so many things that I literally think I am going to kill myself soon. I suffer from acne, hairloss, seborrhoeic dermatitis (dandruff), anxiety, headaches all throughout the day and exhaustion. I can't sleep well and I'm always worried. So my...

Hey guys i’m new to all this and I’m looking for help this post is going to be be a long detailed experience because I’m trying to be as specific as possible to get the help I need due to the nature of my case, I only figured out about pied recently. Here’s my story. I can’t really pin point...

Porn Addiction and Extreme porn recovery Hello im George SORRY FOR MY BAD WRITING, I had very much the same issues that i read all over the net but i needed to tell my story, long story sort I have been viewing Pornography from 10yr old, at stard just images then movies, i was surely low key...

I started watching porn in grade 6. The first video I watched is permanently imprinted in my mind, not because it was hot and sexy but because it was actually quite disturbing. That's when this shitshow I call my life started. I'm now 18, started to do the cycling of pmo for years now (which...

I have no friends Also no girlfriend, no job, not really a career that I know I will conclude (I am currently doing 2 careers and I want to drop off both) I am 21 y/o male from Argentina, just yesterday was my birthday and the most depressing birthday to this day. See, I don't want to be...

Porn has majorly fucked up my life. Lets just say it impairs my personality, social skills, memory, job life, and sexuality. But yet in spite all of this, I still do it. It destroys everything, yet I do it. I have taken every step I can think of to improve myself and my addiction. I got a...

I've been battling myself in my mind for the past 5 years. I've been having mental breakdowns for the past 5 years. I feel like no one cares about me. I don't have interest on the things that I used to love doing. I've thought about suicide for the past 3 years. My mind has gotten so fucked up...

For the past year, I have been stuck in a cycle of short streaks & relapses. Unable to break free from this addiction. I just relapsed for what feels like the millionth time. I've had enough now, I'm extremely depressed now and beginning to feel negative suicidal thoughts. I want to break free...

Well I’m 22yrs old virgin male guy addicted to porn and masturbation. I used masturbation to fight every bad thing in life be it sadness or anger, maybe thats why i’m suffering from pre-mature ejaculation. Recently came to know about nofap community and was desperate to fight my addiction so...

Hello everyone!my name is Chris, I am a college engineering student from the Philippines and turning 21 this year. I've joined this group in hopes that it would help me overcome porn addiction and frequent masturbation,these habits of mine go way back,and its been so hard to give up,its been a...

Watched this TED Talk yesterday and thought it'd help anyone who has suicidal thoughts. The great thing about it is that this woman is talking from experience, she's not some academic who's just studied the subject. If anyone needs to talk to anyone regarding suicidal thoughts here's some...

My penis is numb, rubbery, lifeless, and tingling sometimes, and it shows little to no resistance. But i can still get hard erections. My penis has a lost of sensitivity and the foreskin is dry, i fap through my clothes, lying down sideways. And this issue happened after i orgasmed, all of this...

Ever since I was a young kid all I could really remember is the incredible amount of porn I've watched through out the years. Every aspect of my life for the past 10 years has been porn or sex related and it has made thing impossible for me. The very fact I've made it this far without my life...

Growing up i was sexually used. And ive had gay tendencies since then. It got worse with porn My ex would penetrate me an it got old she left me for someone better not all fucked up in the head like I am. I then went 3 years no sex single MO every day multiple times to females with strap ons...

hello Even know i do have a girlfriend i still do watch at other girls that attracts me more beacuse i find them attractiver then my gf.. should i break up with her so we both could be free? I feel that i dont love her as mutch as i loved her when i met her, beacuse i hate when she talks...

154 Days.. So I am well into NoFap, and I've experienced some benefits, but I cannot get into those now. Ever since about 30 days in, I've been experiencing extreme mood swings, depression, anxiety, and social anxiety(isolation). It's gotten to the point where I am scheduling a visit with a...