İt's a horribly feeling, help!

Hi,
Guys it's the third day in relapse cycle and i don't wanna relapse again but I'm feeling the same as the last time i relapsed. i had certain scene in my head i didn't complete or scene i feel i wanna watch it again.
And I'm feeling i wanna watch it again but I don't want to relapse , I'm feeling i can't even control my urges , I'm feeling I'm hardly in control of my self.

Always I'm feeling this i ended up by relapse, it's not the urge that i have on 21st day or 30th day. I'm feeling it's different and it always makes me relapse for more than 3 days it may persist for 5 or even 6 days.
Because it's always right after relapse
Any advices ,please
because i don't want to relapse again.