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Day 1
I'm unhappy with myself, I've connected a lack of coffee to my last two relapses so I'm quitting coffee cold turkey but not caffeine. I still drink tea.

 

Day 2

Checking in, nothing out of the ordinary to report. Had an urge just before typing this but other than that I'm doing good.

 

day 0, am gonna be hokage, just y'all wait

 

Ok so that didn't last very long, I slipped up. Day 0. I'm weirdly getting urges and relapsing because I'm seeing a lot of progress lately with my therapy and the fact that I recently beat my record, all of these things are showing me that I'm heading in the right direction, and I'm relapsing because of this. My addiction is telling me that actually because I'm heading in the right direction it's ok to relapse because it'll all work out in the end anyways (which I know logically that's obviously not how that works). It's simply another mental obstacle I need to overcome, but I think I'm struggling this much with it because I've been slacking on my meditation and so I've noticed I'm becoming less introspective lately, I'm being consumed more by my emotions again, hence why I'm relapsing to things that I usually would be able to handle.

I know what I did wrong and I already have a way of helping to deal with it. It's simply a slip, not a fall.

 

551 days semen retention

 

Day 87- Eternal Mangekyo Sharingan
Same old same old genjustu attacks(Sexual urges, fantasies). My eyes see all through them. No way am gonna PMO. Other than that, I’m enjoying my new powers

 

Day 126 - Nine-Tails Chakra Mode

 

Day 2

 

Day 1

I went out with some friends and watched Dune.

 

552 days semen retention

 

Triple digits around the corner. You made a fast and unbelievable come back bro.

Really happy about your streak. Usually people don't come back this fast to his feet after a relapse.

 

Day 127 - Nine-Tails Chakra Mode

 

Day 2. Learning jutsu of controlling cold water.

 

Day 2 - Relapsed

I think I'm in a rut. I'm just really struggling to deal with urges lately. I'm relapsing to urges that are maybe medium intensity at most which usually I'd be able to deal with by just using distractions, which is also the issue because I'm not even trying to distract myself, if anything I'm thinking of what I'll relapse to instead of even trying to be introspective. I don't know what's up with me lately, I feel like I'm not even trying. My effort seems to be a gradual increase overtime, the longer the streak the more effort I put in, hence why I'm much more likely to relapse early on because I'm just not really putting up a fight when I get urges, I'm just giving into it really quickly with very little if any effort to distract myself or process the urge in a healthy manner.

I went out shopping with my Mum after I relapsed to get myself out of that negative headspace. I'm obviously still upset but I have to pick myself up otherwise this will just keep happening.

 

Day 3
I am struggling, having a hard time, and I am surviving.

Stay strong my fellow shinobi, remain vigilant.

Seriously though, I am having a very very very very tough day.