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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by Deleted Account, Sep 23, 2019.
Why the fascination with palindromes?
Caught myself impulsively fishing for triggers again but I stopped myself. Gonna hang out with my crush later when she gets home from work.
I guess is for you to find out Sir Sherlock Holmes
Relapsed unfortunately. I was waiting for my crush to call but she was really late (we ended up postponing it) and I didn't wanna play games (to distract myself from the urge) because I was worried she'd call whilst I was playing, even though I could've just finished whatever I was playing and could've talked with her during that anyways??? Another classic case of getting an urge and not using the distractions list I made, instead relying on my own brain which is a bad idea.
Relapsed. I got randomly sent nudes from someone on one of the dating apps that I use, I'm assuming it was a bot and not a real person but it was obviously so unexpected and caught me so off guard that I immediately relapsed to it before having time to process it and stop myself. I don't really think there's much I can say in terms of what I've learned from this relapse. This is obviously not something that happens all the time, it's just a really unlucky thing that happened. Obviously I could certainly improve how I responded to it since I relapsed but there's nothing to improve when it comes to preventing it happening again, other than just deleting the dating app which I don't want to do. As much as dating apps might set me back in the short term, being able to find new people and connect with others will go a long way for me in the long term I think.
Day 101 or 102 I’m so proud of myself for the lengths that I have made. I remember when i had trouble doing a week and I was so controlled by my addiction. I would relapse countless times and feel so empty inside I would want to shrivel up and die. It was truly one of the worst feelings ever in my life. I’m so happy that is behind me. I will never need relapse again or watch porn. Only up from here you guys got this keep fighting
575 days semen retention
check in day 11
121 - Another palindrome to collection!
I went on my first date ever today. Unfortunately it got cut short because she had to take her dog to the vet, she's still there now as I'm typing this. I'm just focusing on keeping her company since she's super super stressed and obviously going through a tough situation right now.
576/730 days semen retention
Day 2 - Relapsed
Small stuff accumulated leading me to relapse, I'm still catching myself fishing for triggers which even simply the act of doing that (even if i dont actually see anything) causes an urge. I really need to figure out why I keep allowing myself to fish for triggers because that's been the main problem recently. I've also been quite stressed due to overthinking and overanalysing my date yesterday. I know logically nothing went wrong and everything is going great between me and my interest but yknow, my brain is doing stupid shit and it caused some urges because I've spent most of my life using PMO to relieve stress and anxiety.