1 month in. Pied recovery. Hardmode

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Dapzey99, Nov 7, 2020.

  1. Dapzey99

    Dapzey99 Fapstronaut

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    Hello all. I am 20 years old and have been fapping and watching porn for about 8 years and just started my most recent streak for the 90 hard mode reboot last month. I began this journey because of 2 reasons.

    One, I was disgusted at my own addiction. After watching porn and masturbating I felt awful. Was totally not worth the few second buzz it gives.

    two, I have PIED(porn induced erectile disfunction.). what really made me start no gap was this series of events. I’m 18, start talking to a girl, get more intimate with her. Finally I get the chance to lose my virginity.NOPE. My pecker could not get hard for the life of me. I was so embarrassed with myself and thought it was just performance anxiety after some research. That relationship falls through. I get a second Gf at 19. Get my next chance to finally do the dirty. NOPE AGAIN. Could not get it up. I was so mad and had no idea what was going on. This led to me turning down 2 of my most recent opportunities due to fear of not performing. (One of which was a 4 way) I started more research and it led me here.

    The holy grail of quitting porn, NoFap. I’ve learned so much including how the reboot rewires the brain and creates new dopamine receptors that don’t only react to porn. I started trying NoFap all summer but kept failing. Until one day I noticed I havnt jerked off for like a week. I was like wow I’ll just keep going. I don’t know how many days exactly I’m at because I’m not entirely sure what day I started but I know it’s closed to a month. And I think that kinda helps. It makes days go by quicker when ur not thinking about it all the time.

    benefits thus far: I have had a boost in energy. Started going to the gym 5 days a week like I used to. I am feeling less depressed. Except for the flatlines which last about a week for me. I am more confident. I am Less preserved than I used to be. It’s great. Also, My second week in I got my very first wetdream in my life. That’s including going through puberty. I was so pumped knowing that there is change happening. As well as morning wood is slowly starting to come back.

    My worries: I’m not sure how long whether it be before or after 90 days I will be recovered from PIED. I hope it’s soon. I do NOT want another limp dick scenario to happen. So this is why I’m making sure I go 90 days atleast until I try again.

    Note: One HUGE help is faith if you have one. I could not have done this alone without God.

    I might use this post as a start date for a journal. Lmk what you guys think.

    I would be so grateful for some pied recovery stories that relate somewhat to my process. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this.
     
  2. John_Pinter

    John_Pinter New Fapstronaut

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    Matt bunker is an asshole, that’s just get that out of the way.

    Dude congrats on a month or more, from my experience the days 5-10 roughly are the worst, bad sleep,weird dreams, pissed off at most people..had my first wet dreams as well going my for my month streak(my longest unfortunately)...dude that was weird waking up like that.Had many of the same benefits you speak of as well, energy, appreciation, fuck just taking to a girl was easier but worth while and stimulating instead of just not giving a fuck and ignoring her.

    Honestly I’m a virgin, have never gotten as close as you have to “getting it in”....it’s would suck if I couldn’t get it up in that moment....biologically speaking that’s when you’re supposed to get it up so wtf...

    Was exposed to porn very early (8-9) and it wasn’t “softcore”, think early exposure and ease of access has a huge affect.
     
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  3. Great to see you going into the right direction.

    Just be warned: The 90 days recovery were meant for older guys who did NOT grow up with internet porn. This is where recovery is a lot faster.

    Younger guys like you, according to Gary Wilson, could take 1-2 years to make a recovery. That doesn't mean it WILL take that long. Just don't be discouraged if you still have PIED after 90 days. It might take a little longer.
     
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  4. Tomfer

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    Thats the hardest part of recovery, not knowing when you will be recovered. I am currently at approximately 155 days without porn. Keeping mastrubating to an absolute minimum, maybe 4 times during this peroid. And several orgasms with a partner, with lots of limp dick scenarios. She knows everything about my addiction and recovery, so that makes it A LOT easier on me, as it's also pared with performance anxiety, a lot in case.

    Only recently did i start getting my morning erections back. I believe i have a severe case of PIED, so i'm not quite there yet. But i'm staying patient and just focussing on a happy life in general.

    Just don't ever give up
    If you're going through hell, keep going.
     
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  5. Matt bunker

    Matt bunker Fapstronaut

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    Well. thank you
     
  6. Matt bunker

    Matt bunker Fapstronaut

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    Ok. Now for real
    Maybe stay. Away from everything even mildly sexual.
    Sex is a beautiful thing
    Very special. Maybe keep your virginity for that special someone. Someone you love
     
  7. Dapzey99

    Dapzey99 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your input bro. Appreciate it!
     
  8. Dapzey99

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    Yeah. I heard about that. I’m hoping for the best but I would understand if I had to go longer. It gets easier every day!
     
  9. Dapzey99

    Dapzey99 Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for your experience bro. We will get through it together.
     
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  10. Real Roboin

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    Along with PIED it is also how you masturbate and breaking down the muscles of the penis and how your brain is now trained as to the signals it sends as to what your penis is supposed to do.
     

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