Hello all. I am 20 years old and have been fapping and watching porn for about 8 years and just started my most recent streak for the 90 hard mode reboot last month. I began this journey because of 2 reasons.
One, I was disgusted at my own addiction. After watching porn and masturbating I felt awful. Was totally not worth the few second buzz it gives.
two, I have PIED(porn induced erectile disfunction.). what really made me start no gap was this series of events. I’m 18, start talking to a girl, get more intimate with her. Finally I get the chance to lose my virginity.NOPE. My pecker could not get hard for the life of me. I was so embarrassed with myself and thought it was just performance anxiety after some research. That relationship falls through. I get a second Gf at 19. Get my next chance to finally do the dirty. NOPE AGAIN. Could not get it up. I was so mad and had no idea what was going on. This led to me turning down 2 of my most recent opportunities due to fear of not performing. (One of which was a 4 way) I started more research and it led me here.
The holy grail of quitting porn, NoFap. I’ve learned so much including how the reboot rewires the brain and creates new dopamine receptors that don’t only react to porn. I started trying NoFap all summer but kept failing. Until one day I noticed I havnt jerked off for like a week. I was like wow I’ll just keep going. I don’t know how many days exactly I’m at because I’m not entirely sure what day I started but I know it’s closed to a month. And I think that kinda helps. It makes days go by quicker when ur not thinking about it all the time.
benefits thus far: I have had a boost in energy. Started going to the gym 5 days a week like I used to. I am feeling less depressed. Except for the flatlines which last about a week for me. I am more confident. I am Less preserved than I used to be. It’s great. Also, My second week in I got my very first wetdream in my life. That’s including going through puberty. I was so pumped knowing that there is change happening. As well as morning wood is slowly starting to come back.
My worries: I’m not sure how long whether it be before or after 90 days I will be recovered from PIED. I hope it’s soon. I do NOT want another limp dick scenario to happen. So this is why I’m making sure I go 90 days atleast until I try again.
Note: One HUGE help is faith if you have one. I could not have done this alone without God.
I might use this post as a start date for a journal. Lmk what you guys think.
I would be so grateful for some pied recovery stories that relate somewhat to my process. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this.
One, I was disgusted at my own addiction. After watching porn and masturbating I felt awful. Was totally not worth the few second buzz it gives.
two, I have PIED(porn induced erectile disfunction.). what really made me start no gap was this series of events. I’m 18, start talking to a girl, get more intimate with her. Finally I get the chance to lose my virginity.NOPE. My pecker could not get hard for the life of me. I was so embarrassed with myself and thought it was just performance anxiety after some research. That relationship falls through. I get a second Gf at 19. Get my next chance to finally do the dirty. NOPE AGAIN. Could not get it up. I was so mad and had no idea what was going on. This led to me turning down 2 of my most recent opportunities due to fear of not performing. (One of which was a 4 way) I started more research and it led me here.
The holy grail of quitting porn, NoFap. I’ve learned so much including how the reboot rewires the brain and creates new dopamine receptors that don’t only react to porn. I started trying NoFap all summer but kept failing. Until one day I noticed I havnt jerked off for like a week. I was like wow I’ll just keep going. I don’t know how many days exactly I’m at because I’m not entirely sure what day I started but I know it’s closed to a month. And I think that kinda helps. It makes days go by quicker when ur not thinking about it all the time.
benefits thus far: I have had a boost in energy. Started going to the gym 5 days a week like I used to. I am feeling less depressed. Except for the flatlines which last about a week for me. I am more confident. I am Less preserved than I used to be. It’s great. Also, My second week in I got my very first wetdream in my life. That’s including going through puberty. I was so pumped knowing that there is change happening. As well as morning wood is slowly starting to come back.
My worries: I’m not sure how long whether it be before or after 90 days I will be recovered from PIED. I hope it’s soon. I do NOT want another limp dick scenario to happen. So this is why I’m making sure I go 90 days atleast until I try again.
Note: One HUGE help is faith if you have one. I could not have done this alone without God.
I might use this post as a start date for a journal. Lmk what you guys think.
I would be so grateful for some pied recovery stories that relate somewhat to my process. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read this.
