1 month no PMO

Just wanted to jump on here after being away for a while. I'm officially at one month of no PMO, and excited but also afraid of losing it. I've experienced most of the usual benefits and had one sexual encounter with gf during (I did not O) and, while determined to keep it going as long as possible, I feel myself starting to miss porn and feel, as I usually do, afraid that I'm becoming out of touch with my sexuality. It's bizarre for me to go so long without thinking about sex all the time and porn scenes, so when I get to a plateau after the initial surge of horniness (around 2 weeks), I think I start to feel this urge to reintroduce myself to it through porn, which is bad and illogical

I also get anxiety about having sex with gf for a release bc there's always some work or social engagement coming up that I feel I need to be at full running capacity for and I tell myself I have to wait until it passes. I also have frequently experienced the chaser effect and almost always go back to p a few days after (although I'm hoping the chaser effect becomes less powerful with more abstention). The goal is to have more sex with gf, not less, so these complications mess with my willpower I guess. Anyone experience similar problems?