1 week in, feeling proud, but almost relapsed.

Wow!
7 days in a Monk-Mode! This is my longest streak ever, and I had to admit, I'm feeling quite proud at the moment. Good news first; these are most noticeable changes for better so far:

- Balls and penis are getting to feel bigger
- Voice is getting deeper (about 2-3 semitones so far)
- My self-confidence is rising very fast. I can even watch other person in the eye while talking! Couldn't do this before… WOOHOO!!
- And today I had my first morning wood in years! Not rock hard, but like 80% hard.

In general everything is going pretty good, but I almost had an relapse about an hour ago. For the past week, I've been flatlining without almost any urges, but today they caught me off guard. Thank god I was driving home when they hit me, because if I had been on computer, I would've relapsed.
I suddenly had these very intense flashbacks from several of my favourite sissy-porn films, and I had to really concentrate on driving just to keep my car on the road. I knew I would have flashbacks during Reboot, but the intensity was so much greater than I could ever imagine.
I hope I don't have to experience this intensity ever again.

But I survived! I survived and I didn't relapse.