I think we can all agree that this year was terrible. Personally, this has been one of my most challenging years to date. Still going forward with no PMO. But I can’t help but feel like I’m doing something wrong, even after all this time. I’m trying to stay focused on what I need to do, but I’d be lying if I said it weren’t hard. Being completely honest, my lack of discipline is crippling. While I’ve made it this far with no PMO, I lack discipline in everything else. I get lazy, I get complacent, and looking at myself throughout all this makes me doubt myself. Oftentimes, I find myself asking, “what is it all for?” I do well when remaining on my purpose, but then I get distracted. I got my roommate, whom I’m close with, basically bringing a new girl to the house a couple times a month. When this happens, it messes with my head. It makes me feel like I’m missing out. Like I’m still doing something wrong. I don’t like to make excuses, either. I take sole responsibility for my reaction to all this. And on top of everything, I got COVID. So no work, no girl, and little discipline. I don’t wanna say that I’m at my breaking point, but I’d be lying if I didn’t feel close to it. I went and got this poster that reads, “Be patient. Everything is coming together.” Maybe I just need to wait a bit longer for the life I need. Getting distracted easily is something that needs to get changed ASAP. To those still struggling, I’m there with you. Though we may have our distant struggles, we still struggle nonetheless. Nobody’s problem is smaller than the others. I’m praying for you all. Hopefully you’re paying for me, too. wishing you all Godspeed.