I began my meditation practise in January, where I meditated 45 days straight, between 40 minutes and 2 hours each day. At that time, I did concentration meditation and was forcing myself as much as I could to just stare on a point on the wall and also focus on my breathing. Then I read up on vipassana meditation, which is a kind of concentration meditation where you bring awareness to the things that brings you away from your concentration. What I liked with this was that the mind got much more relaxed - without forcing myself to not think about things, I brought my attention to the things that distracted me and accepted their existence. Then the thoughts would go away on their own.
Since I liked that kind of experience, I have taken it one step further: First, I'm quieting my senses, no light in the room with ear protectors on, sitting in a chair. Then I will let my mind go directly to the place where it wants to drift, may it be urges, may it be something else. I will spin on the thought until it ends by itself and then I will analyse why I wanted to think about this at all, what the outcome was and how the outcome reflected my initial urges, why it came to me and what the result was. I will analyse and bring my understanding to how my brain works and I will continue doing so until there is nothing left to understand. When my mind is completely empty from any urges to escape, I will finish my session with a few minutes of concentration meditation just to be sure. If nothing comes up, I am done.
What I've realised is that this kind of meditation helps me a lot with urges. When urges are just forced away, they usually come back at you and get stronger until you can't hold up your guard any longer. However, with this kind of meditation, I let them come to me and then I analyse why they are coming, I build up an understanding of the root cause of my behaviour and I am giving myself a chance to change.
That being said, I don't have a word for my meditation as I have invented it on my own
What about you, what kind of meditation do you do?