10 Day habit builder Challenge, April 17-27

For Fapstronauts who are disciples of Christ

  1. Kemar935

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    relapsed, this shit sucks how can I rely on God when I literally fail every temptation that comes my way, I do nothing to change I repeat the the same mistakes, make no attempt to seek God, Im stuck and alway forget why.. Im pissed, how long more will I be a perverted loser ?? I don't know what i'm trying to say , sorry guys
     
  3. When the pain of staying stuck outweighs the pain of change, you will change.
    When you trust God, you will give him control.

    Both of these things take time. God is patient and gracious. Still, we must give it everything we've got and lean hard into his strength if we are to get free.

    Your spirit knows PMO is death. Your flesh feels otherwise. So you must help your flesh get "over the hump," so to speak. Begin with a bold, drastic action and thus cut yourself off from being able to go back. For me that meant quitting a 20-year career. What does it look like for you?
     
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    thanks Im feeling better today.. since 2011 so about 9 years but i've been trying to quit for the past 2 years, i'm going to be 21yo next month and I really don't want go into my 20s with porn and the rest of my life, i've seen what porn can do to people(relative) so i'm very eager to stop but i'm my biggest problem not even the temptation
     
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  5. Day 2.
    Did not pmo. Plan to practice my guitar before bed. Did nothing really all day.

    Psalm 8 and 9 remind me of the promises of God. He has set us on the earth to His glory and will not abandon us. He tramples down our enemies and makes us rejoice in the work of His hands. I need to be more mindful of this. I should be more joyful in my life.
     
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    Im going crazy guys.. the past few day i've been thing of sex, girls, boobs, everything, my mind is like a run away train , i have had no peace in my mind and body i've been so tense and on edge i just wanna free myself from porn so bad..

    does any one use whatsapp?
     
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    Is there anything we can do to help? I am praying for you, my friend! I hope the temptations will fade away....
     
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    Hey guys, I have a pretty heavy day today, was on the point of opening an website, but resisted at the last moment, I'm gonna go running now, hopefully it helps.

    Psalm 8 and 9 are quite similair, in fact i've heard they sometimes where sung together in old times. Like frog2345 mentioned, he tramples down our enemies and let's us rejoice! Let's not forget.

    Also I'd like to ask you guys to pray for Free4ever he hasn't been online these last couple of days, and I just feel it would be good if we pray for him.
     
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  9. I'm on WhatsApp. Feel free to DM me if you want to get connected there.
     
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  10. Day 3. Playing guitar before bed. Temptation all day and a little bit of guilt from looking at innocent things with an evil eye. Did not pmo.

    Psalm 10 shows us what we will become if we are too prideful in ourselves. We seek the destruction of others and harm the innocent. But the Lord will not forget the innocent. In times when we are afflicted God will strengthen us and gird us up. When we are troubled, what more do we need than God himself?
     
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    thank dude ill dm you soon
     
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    thanks man you are the best... idk what whats going on, its like the lust season came over me
     
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    relapsed again:emoji_sob: before I was able to go 6-10 day but now it feels like every other day i'm so lost right now
     
  14. Get connected to APs in real-time and start reaching out *before* you relapse. The choice to start dealing with this seriously is yours. You just have to take the next concrete step.
     
  15. Day 4
    Tried to find some new fingerstyle songs to play on guitar. Turns out they are not easy to find with Christian themes. I settled on "Indescribable" which I learned last night and I love the chords to. Did not pmo.

    Psalm 11 encourages me by reminding me that God will not abandon His place or my soul to destruction. He will up hold his people and deal justly with the unrighteous.
     
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    I think what Tao said, is very true. We do have the strength to resist temptations if we put our full trust in God and are 100% willing. I'm not saying this to discourage you, I myself have been in the same situation your in at the moment, but IT IS possible to resist and you have to believe that. And man, believe me when I tell you it's freaking difficult even after 2 weeks, but it's also so so worth it. So try to reach out before you relapse! I'm praying for you!!
     
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    Man, it seems like your doing really well with your “practicing guitar” streak haha, I do admire you for that! I've always loved listening to people who play the guitar, I tried to play a couple of times myself but my fingers work against me, they are very blocky and as soon as I try to put one finger on another string the other finger automatically changes position too. Hmm not sure how to explain really?
     
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    Hey guys, I want to give a quick update

    First I'm still doing my running and am getting better and better, but now I'm having a 5 day rest since my right knee seems to be a little overtired. Also I'm trying to train my core muscle with some excersises since a couple of days ago. Honestly I find those excersises so extremely boring, but core muscles help when playing badminton (or so I've heard) and I love, absolutely Love playing badminton. Here in the Netherlands the sportclubs unfortunately don't open up before September.

    As for this week without PMO I have been struggeling badly and with badly I mean really bad. I have urges every other hour and all I can do is sit and do nothing or read a book. I feel fatigued and even though it's a day to day thing it's hard when your fatigued not to think of the future. There were a couple of times where I thought I'd give in only to resist with the last bit of strength God gave me. And here I am still without PMO, edging or any P-subs in that regard.

    This evening I was reading a novel about a woman who was struggeling with “taking in” the word of God, untill she decided to wake up at 2 am in the morning to read her bible when everyone was asleep and she didn't have any daily worries or distractions. I was interested and wanted to try this, but since I was afraid that An alarm would wake my parents, I prayed to God and tolf him that if I would wake up in the middle of the night I would open my bible and start reading.

    And guess what at 1 am at night I suddenly was awake, still feeling tired and trying not to think it was some stupid coincidence I forced myself out of bed and opened my bible randomly, the chapter that I opened was ecclessiastes 7 and the thing that drew my attention was verse 8

    The end of a matter is better than its beginning,
    and patience is better than pride.

    God is wonderfull isn't he, he really is
     
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  19. You have rediscovered the ancient spiritual practice known as "holding vigil" where we stay awake through the watches of the night, keeping our eyes and heart open for God. He will not fail to meet us, if we have developed eyes to see him.

    My work has me up in the middle of the night often, so I am no stranger to this practice. I will regularly spend time in prayer before I fall back asleep after being awakened. Sometimes this is short, sometimes this is long. Sometimes I never get back to sleep at all! But through it all, Jesus has become my rest and my strength. While it is sometimes difficult, I am forever grateful -- and forever changed! -- for the closeness I have developed with him through these times.

    *This* is why we seek to stop PMO. It is a barrier that prevents us from knowing the Lord as well as we might. The point of this life is to know him. May we let nothing interfere with and may we embrace every helpful practice that aids with that overarching ambition!
     
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  20. Day 5
    Practiced a couple Steven Curtis Chapman songs and Indescribable. Did not pmo but was really tempted during Bible study.

    Psalm 12
    Talks of God placing the afflicted in the rest they desire. We may not even know what that rest is, but we long for a sabbatical from the daily trials of life. The one place we should always find rest is in God's word. God's word is never impure, false, or scornful. It does not ever seek our pain, unless it means to build us up stronger than before. God's word will always be for our good.
     

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