10% gay?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by HotToddy, Jan 4, 2019.

  1. HotToddy

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    So I'm still into transgender pornography. (Yeah I still beat my meat to weird porn, sue me.) However I have given that sissy shit a miss for a long time now.

    I've (I think) been a fully straight man my entire life. However, TG porn kinda threw a spanner in the works. But why do I get off on that stuff? Because normal porn is too boring with screamy, plastic titted, empty pornstars?

    I can't blame sissy hypnosis because that came after the arousal of TG porn. It's even got to the point where if a dude is packing enough, I think - fuck it. And start j*rking over 'forced' male fantasies. So this TG fantasy to some extent has now dipped a toe in the gay pool. Don't really like it, and usually feel weird and uncomfortable afterwards.

    I never look at men in my day to day life and think that way at all. The idea (no offence to gay people)*ironic, but to me, is gross.

    In conclusion, dig TG girls, and even get off over forced bi stuff... but find romantic relationships, even kissing, hand holding, being in ANY way intimate with another dude is disgusting to me... So is it just a d*ck attraction? Being abused so much in my own life that it's found a way into my sexuality, and I just get a weird kick out of being submissive to things I'd usually find gross? Do I just hate myself and enjoy delivering confusement and low self esteem? Is it just a fetish? Can you be 10% gay? It's not even bicurious. I'd say that's more 25% and up.
     
  2. Hand Jive

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    Personally a little bit bi but mainly attracted to women. TG when they are hot and convincing is definitely a turn on and would definitely go there in real life. Best way to think about it would be that your porn tastes and real life tastes aren't always the same thing. When discussing my porn problem with my ex she asked me if I want to try bdsm as she likes it but hurting her or doing bdsm wasn't something I'm into in real life. You might be a bit bi maybe.

    Best thing to do is to just step away from the screen and just go out and live.
     
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  3. all that wierd ass fucking trans gender (and all porn) is messing with your brain quit all of it and give your brain a break,your probely not even gay
     
  4. NothingMoreNothingLess

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    Stop watching that shit man! Depending on your age, porn addiction span, and how rigorous you've watched it I can tell you the urges will go away BUT it will take time. Reason is due to that type of porn being the strongest poison out there. It's like the opioid of porn. You're a straight dude, trust me. That type of P just f*cks you up a lot. Kick that addiction's ass!
     
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  5. HotToddy

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    'Sometimes you gotta suck a d*ck to realise you don't like sucking d*ck'. But to be fair I couldn't. Not with anyone I know, craigslist, gloryhole, you name it.

    It'd have to be a trans girl like the ones you see in P. Ones I've seen aren't convincing. Or one of the 10 male pornstars in the world where I've said to myself 'you know what, I would.'

    But this alone I think shows that it's just a fetish and it's more exciting to me because it's 'wrong' and out of my taste/comfort zone.
     
  6. HotToddy

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    I'm 22, been at it since 12. Saw it a few times between the ages of 8-12 but at that time it didn't really interest me. Just my friends messing around. My teenage years were pretty constant with PMO. I still have a high sex drive to this day, but that's only amplified by my girlfriend's low, once-a-week-or-less sex drive.

    I think porn can mess with you to an extent. But if I started watching beastiality p or something I would never slowly and gradually ease into it and start getting off on it.

    If I saw one of the TG stars that I've seen, I'd drop to my knees without hesitation though lol. They seem to be the perfect mix of femininity and having a c*ck, something that seems to be my main fixation.
     
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  7. Clean Willy

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    As far as I am aware, gays don't get off to chicks with dicks. It is a straight fetish. So, a reboot will sort things out for you.
     
  8. Mattew

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    Don't worry, you probably are 100% straight, all this is just because of porn.
    Porn will make you taste escalate into weirdest and weirdest shit, from normal porn, to transgender, and then to gay and sissy porn.
    But these are not your natural orientation, it's like a drug escalation, you need more and more novelty to get that dopamine.

    Stop with porn immediately and completely, otherwise you're going to fuck yourself mentally really bad.
     
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  9. DogDaysOfLife

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    I can't answer all those questions unfortunately. They have some relevance to your own mental situation which is individual to you. I've definitely had during my porn addiction some attractions that were fake and based on being desensitized to the "usual" stuff. Porn always messes with people whether they realize it or not. I'm definitely bisexual though. You might be 0% or 13% or any other point on the scale. Some people have a "disgust" reaction to various things, and it's actually very common for men to have a disgust reaction to male-male PDA. It doesn't mean you are or aren't attracted to men.
     
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  10. bken

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    It's the way porn is made, that combined with time and desensitization as Mattew has said that kinda forces you into this shit. I climaxed to Emanuelle at 13 but would climax to some bbc at 21. Porn addiction just gets you there. For some it will be tg for others sissy hypno. I even dated some men but that just didnt work out. What you are getting a kick out of is still the female in case of sissy hypno. It's hard to explain but gay porn has not been suitable for sissy hypno in my case. So it has to be some sort of obsession with females that escalated way out of proportion to the point of wanting to identify as one in that moment. Feels really disgusting afterwards indeed. It's a dark and soul destroying fetish as it can cause utter confusion and obsession.
     
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  11. Risitas67

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    (care, there is maybe some triggers)

    Hey dude. I'm in your exact position. I totally understand what you mean. Never watched men in the street, never had gay crush. Can't see myself a second in a intimacy relationship with a dude.
    Each time I was watching ts porn with a hot ts pornstar, I said to myself "well if I meet her IRL, I'm sure I would have sex with her" (and being submissive to her) since she is exactly like a women, even more feminine and all. She just have this c*ck. I too though I was bi, but after reading a LOT of success stories here and on reddit/yourbrainonporn, it's just the porn.
    I also remember when I was like 12, I was watching porn for my first or second time, and I've seen a d*ck, thinking "How can woman like this? It's so gross!" like a pure innocent child. It's all porn. We need a reboot, a long reboot.

    Same bro. I didn't get to the point of dating guys but this thought cross my mind (when I was very excited), but I totally understand the obsession with females to the point of wanting to identify as one when very excited while PMOing. I think it's because I'm so amazed by the females, that I want to feel what they feel at this moment, idk.
     
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  12. HotToddy, I was having problems with certain things myself. I'd been addicted to PMO for 28 years. I did 16 days, and went through brutal withdrawals. Then I ended up in the chaser. But then I did 97 days.

    It was a game changer. It reset my sexual ideas. I had been getting desensitized to porn, and I was getting homosexual thoughts and feelings.

    After the reboot, I didn't have those feelings anymore. I became hetero again. I don't know if every man who turns bi or gay goes back, but I definitely did.

    I just don't look at men like that. Only when I see a hot girl, who is "appropriate" do I get interested.

    I think I'll just stay like that from here on out.
     
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  13. Clarke

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    Maybe you're just a gay boi
     
  14. HotToddy

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    To be honest I wasn't worried, I do find the idea of being intimate with a man gross but I'm not thinking like 'I hope I'm not even 10% gay because that'd be awful' if that makes sense.

    Quitting is tough. Really tough. I guess I haven't tried that hard because I figured I'm in my early 20s, been with a girl for years who rarely wants sex.. so I figured I'm just a man reaching his prime, who is constantly teased seeing his girlfriend naked and not having sex as much as I'd personally like to. Kinda see it as natural personally.

    However, the more taboo stuff isn't right. I've gradually gone down the rabbit hole without even noticing. However, I did PMO today before work and it was to m*lf solo pictures, not even videos. Sad to say I was kinda proud of myself just for getting off (very easily actually) over that. The classic stuff still has it's novelty;)
     
  15. HotToddy

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    Is it bad that I'd be interested in discussing TG stars with you? Hahah, it's probably because that's not the kind of thing you admit/discuss with your pals in day to day life.

    Thanks for sharing man, just got to have the will power to resist an addiction that lost it's novelty and progressed into making shit weird.
     
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  16. HotToddy

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    The only thing sad about people 'quitting' is that some people maybe had nothing to quit. Some people might know they're gay and live a life of lies. But to me it sounds like you were in the same boat and just gave yourself a slap round the face. Woke up from the nightmare you created yourself by over-indulging in stuff you wouldn't usually like.
     
  17. HotToddy

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    Ayyy great comment bro thanks for posting that
     
  18. Clarke

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    In all my years of masturbating to porn, it was only ever an amplification of my sexuality and feelings towards those I found attractive.
     
  19. HotToddy

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    Life lesson buddy: we're all different. different tastes, different situations, brains, upbringings, social settings, countries, taboos, boundaries, etc.

    But thanks for taking some time out of your day to be the one negative person on this feed who dropped in to make fun of someone and gloat that they're not in the same situation.

    You're on NOFAP, I'm sure there's some fucked up reason for you having an active account on this platform too. So either be considerate, or mind your own god damn business.
     
  20. Clarke

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    You're the only one being negative about homosexuality. I made no reference good or bad about it. Sounds like you're just repressed and don't like it for whatever social or cultural reasons, judging by the ferocity of your response to my simple suggestion that maybe someone interested in gay porn might be gay.
     

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