Hi everyone. I’m new here to the community and I think it’s a great idea to have this place to come and help/seek help etc
Hopefully without rambling on this is my story of where I was/where I am now/ where I want to be.
Where I was:
Since the age of 13/14 I quickly found the internet and the short clips you’d get on sky tv adult channels. I believe my inner fetishes first stemmed from playing cops and robbers as a child = bondage.
Fast forward to the internet and more and more extreme pictures/videos then turned into foot fetish and everything you can probably think of under the bdsm category: rushing home from school and college to masturbate hard to all images and tabs.
I never really dabbled with chicks till college/uni and being a smart lad I already started to ask the self doubting anxiety questions to do with sex. I’m not a virgin but I feel I practically am - every attempt I manage to get it up but very feeble and goes soft within a minute.
Where I am now:
Fast forward I am now 25, During my most active years most of my sex attempts where non-fetish, some kinky stuff but always came back to usual penetration. I went to the docs to rule out physical ED, and this is where I googled and came across PIED - this is definitely what I think I have mixed with very bad performance anxiety.
I do have a current girlfriend who I have been with 3 month but yet to have sex due to nervousness and wanting it to work - I’ve been honest and told her of past problems (but not the porn/fetishes and everything else.
Where I want to be:
I want to change my life. My sexual life. Through my early years I’ve gritted and gotten by through problem after problem - I have attempted NoFap but never really got over 30 days, I feel I could quit porn but never really the thoughts or the dick playing, always go over bdsm scenarios randomly in my head. I want to heal so I can not have to think will I get it up and it be natural to roll over, slap my girls ass and get right to it- note I don’t want to completely get rid of exciting sexual stuff, kink is fun but I now realise it’s the attitude, the quitting of porn and the honesty with yourself and other partners.
It’d be great to get some feedback, success stories of a similiar kind, will I ever heal? Any tips? Etc
Thanks a bunch we can do it!!!
Hopefully without rambling on this is my story of where I was/where I am now/ where I want to be.
Where I was:
Since the age of 13/14 I quickly found the internet and the short clips you’d get on sky tv adult channels. I believe my inner fetishes first stemmed from playing cops and robbers as a child = bondage.
Fast forward to the internet and more and more extreme pictures/videos then turned into foot fetish and everything you can probably think of under the bdsm category: rushing home from school and college to masturbate hard to all images and tabs.
I never really dabbled with chicks till college/uni and being a smart lad I already started to ask the self doubting anxiety questions to do with sex. I’m not a virgin but I feel I practically am - every attempt I manage to get it up but very feeble and goes soft within a minute.
Where I am now:
Fast forward I am now 25, During my most active years most of my sex attempts where non-fetish, some kinky stuff but always came back to usual penetration. I went to the docs to rule out physical ED, and this is where I googled and came across PIED - this is definitely what I think I have mixed with very bad performance anxiety.
I do have a current girlfriend who I have been with 3 month but yet to have sex due to nervousness and wanting it to work - I’ve been honest and told her of past problems (but not the porn/fetishes and everything else.
Where I want to be:
I want to change my life. My sexual life. Through my early years I’ve gritted and gotten by through problem after problem - I have attempted NoFap but never really got over 30 days, I feel I could quit porn but never really the thoughts or the dick playing, always go over bdsm scenarios randomly in my head. I want to heal so I can not have to think will I get it up and it be natural to roll over, slap my girls ass and get right to it- note I don’t want to completely get rid of exciting sexual stuff, kink is fun but I now realise it’s the attitude, the quitting of porn and the honesty with yourself and other partners.
It’d be great to get some feedback, success stories of a similiar kind, will I ever heal? Any tips? Etc
Thanks a bunch we can do it!!!