100 days clean. Starting to notice some significant changes.

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  1. NF SINCE BIRTH

    NF SINCE BIRTH Fapstronaut

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    Today is my 100th day without PMO, MO, porn substitutes in any form or wet dreams. Not counting wet dreams as a relapse but it seems like you can avoid them by having a strong enough determination to success so that you are avoiding a "relapse" even when dreaming.

    I didn't feel much changes after 90 days. I still felt like shit most of the days and started questioning if nofap was really worth it. I had tried to reach 90 days like it was a fairy tale land with rainbow farting unicorns. When I finally arrived I had to make up my mind whether to continue or to go back to old habits. I decided to continue, fortunately.

    Now, 10 days after that things are starting to change quite fundamentally. Yesterday I had the strongest urges since around day 30 or something. Even the thought of relapsing made my boner go wild. I white knuckled my way trough and realized that I am actually not rebooted yet. I have probably been in a flat line until day 99, and now my libido is returning with full force. I looked at a girl today. She asked me some questions about how my night has been. When she left the room, she did this subtle movement with her hips and pulled her hair back a little, completely unconscious of what she was doing like she was shoving me her goods ( I don't like that word anymore). I was instantly attracted to her. I wanted to touch her.

    I think the morale of this short story is that you should not give up if you dont feel any significant changes after 90 days. The flat line is a beast. For serious addicts 90 days might simply not be enough.
     
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  2. PieLover

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    Great man!
    Keep up the good work, and good luck with the girl :)
     
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  3. Mariano

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    Very helpfull for me! Im at day 109 and there are positive changes but still dead dick, and sometimes short depression, half hour ( last was 8days ago) Im sure that I will be fighting till I see the light at the end of tunnel :)
     
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  4. Your achievement (especially in the context of what else is happening in your life), is totally amazing Nofapsincebirth. You have my absolute respect! I can hardly believe it could be possible for someone to do this in the face of such issues! :cool:

    I have picked out your comment about the flatline. You may be right. However, the road to recovery can vary a lot from one person to another. During my first long period of abstinence, where I encountered the flatline, it was punctuated with occasional days of strong urges. After a while, I observed the pattern for this was one day in ten. I kept thinking the flatline was over, but the day after, the flatline continued. Maybe you will have a period like this, too. You may get a temporary burst of libido back, only to find the flatline continues thereafter. If it does, don't despair. The flatline occurs to allow your brain to recalibrate the damage that was done. :) Who knows how long your full reboot will take. Just be ever more determined to see it through until you can say with confidence: I have completely rebooted (back to factory settings). :cool:
     
  5. NF SINCE BIRTH

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    Thanks @IGY . Even if it does continue I have renewed my faith in Nofap. I am going to fight the battle until it is won.
     
  6. Sans_Fear

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    Keep it up. The flatline comes and goes all the time. It's intermittent.
     
  7. ATW504

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    I like this story and how you did not go back to your old ways and you kept moving forward. I will use it as inspiration.
     
  8. ATW504

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    Do the flat lines ever stop?
     
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  9. Yeah, once you're fully recovered.. I think
     
  10. Mariano

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    Yes, its a good question! I mean alcoholics have ups and downs for rest of their lives that we can compare to flatlines in porn addictive or not?
     
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  11. mynameissimo

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    I'm in day 7 and my productivity has increased so much, I can't imagine how my motivation for work and productivity will be after 90 days No PMO
    I really want to do a 200 days without porn, I think I'm finally able to do it :)
    do you notice any change regarding work ethics and productivity?
     
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  12. NF SINCE BIRTH

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    I am currently not working in the traditional sense of the word. I am working my way trough some past traumas which have given me PTSD. I do generally have a clearer mind and I am much more social than before. Being social at all is pretty decent for someone diagnosed with general anxiety disorder, panic disorder and agoraphobia. I have found my passion for chess again, and I have started playing ping pong for about an hour a day. I stopped drinking, I am cutting down on sugar and I am loosing weight. It seems like I might have a chance to get out of this mess.
     
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  13. ATW504

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    I agree, its something we will have to deal with from now on. I am hoping they are more infrequent and not as strong.
     
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  14. mynameissimo

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    well, i'm glad to hear you are doing well. good luck with your journey!
     
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  15. You really do have a chance! You have tremendous reserves of inner strength NFSB! Most people taking antipsychotic medication put on weight, but you are losing it! Many addicted with masturbating to porn get stuck in an endless loop, but you are breaking free with the best streak of your lifetime! You can achieve anything you want, even if it is ultra difficult and takes ages. You've got great balls!
     
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  16. LivinginRecovery

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    Congratulations @NFSB on your 100 days. That's absolutely brilliant.
     
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  17. Atlanticus

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    Excellent insights and account, guy! Very useful, indeed! Thx!
     
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  18. I Free I

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    Congratulations ! Keep at it & thanks for sharing !
     
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  19. Atlanticus

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    I particularly liked that you included porn substitutes. In my increasingly clear opinion, they must be eliminated along with P for the healing to take place. Thanks for that!
     
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  20. InfinitePossibilities

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    Pretty decent? It's HEROIC! :emoji_trophy:
     
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