100 Days Without P or M - The Ultra Marathon (Started on May 15, 2020)

Good habits, nothing more nothing less. Don't let that bad identity shadow take over you by performing bad habits like watching Netflix or doing something else, that you know is not productive, since this will easily(for me atleast) lead to other bad habits such as PMO.
Identity word means that who are you currently at this moment/what habits you have.

 

Here for saying 81 to go
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Quick check in. Marking me safe from myself, Porn, Urges, Lust, and guess what else... Anxiety and Depression. Truthfully I have had a string of up days, feeling well. Probably partly attributed to some daily mindfulness and meditation work I am doing, especially right after work. I log off the computer (I am mostly working at home telework) and I head in for a 20-30 minute unplug session. Feels great I swear. Never thought of myself as that hippie doing yoga and meditation and channeling my qi... but here I am - no yoga, lol.

 

Check in as well... Day 20 upon. Day 25 is my max streak to date, so from past experience I think its fair to say this might be a tricky period, but I feel okay right now.

I really ought to do a feelings update as well. Emotionally I feel much stronger, but because I am getting more done with my day mentally, it is leaving me pretty drained by the end of it.

Urges wise yesterday was more than today - today much less. But as you know it takes a wandering thought to change that in an instant, so trying to keep my mind fresh by being busy. My recent hobby I took up is looking after houseplants - which require a lot of attention! So its one way I break my day up to keep me going, it is also quite nice to look after them as they grow and helps me feel connected to nature.

 

On to day 30...
Nowadays I’m not getting that much urges, cuz Most of the time doing some/the other work but from last 2-3 days I’m continuously getting a random dreams like I’m performing sex with actress,dating with previous known girls and doing all kind of possible nasty things with them, this morning also some sexual thoughts started to rationalise my brain but after some moment I just told to myself no,no,stop,stop it! Then it slowly calmed my dirty thoughts.
I was able to do this cuz while studying soaring eagle experience, author, beautiful mentioned about ‘brain washing’ I really suggest everyone here to go through that post.

 

I read the whole book, since I believe that it will pay itself in lifetime to come + brainwashing is the same thing that porn does.

 

very well, good to hear that. I'll meditate today as well. I had some nasty thoughts yesterday but was able to overcome them.

 

You are mind over matter, don't let your brain try to convince you otherwise. Don't throw everything away for 3 seconds of ecstasy.

I know it all seems blurry right now, but you don't need one last fap. You don't need to start fresh at the start of next month, you don't need to keep looking for sources of motivation. YOU NEED TO PUSH THROUGH THIS. BEAT THIS MOTHERFUCKER THAT IS ADDICTION.

YOU STARTED THIS FOR A FUCKING REASON.

Trust yourself, trust that you know better, trust the you that decided to give up PMO. Fuck your brain that's trying to rationalise relapse. You are better than this.

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Today I relapsed. No fucking more.

It's time to stop looking for temporary sources of motivation and get disciplined. This starts now.

(This is just my personal inner dialogue that I'll have with myself whenever I'm feeling like shit. I hope it helps you all too.)

 

This is amazing. Let's keep going guys and gals!!!! I feel great today. 3 weeks right around the bend.

 

25 day PR for me too. I agree we are in for a significant test, but i am not that same exact guy that relapsed before. I am Ironman. No, but seriously, We have more tools and wisdom to see this through.

 

I didn't know Robert Frank was on NoFap? LOL

 

Well remove me from the list because I relapsed two days ago. I really should stop drinking before i have got rid of of porn. Well I`m still happy etc... so don't worry about me and good luck to you all!

 

Sorry to hear RedStripe - but the main thing is you are happy and no doubt you have longer days on Nofap then Fapping, all good. See you around - get that streak going. RedStripe is a great beer by the way!

Ahhh mate! Good to see, we are on a similar path, so glad to see how far you have come, yes this time feels a bit different for me as well, much more prepared. I learned a lot from my last relapse, just thinking about makes my stomach churn. Honestly - relapses on NoFap are just horrific. I can't even imagine putting myself through that again for the sake of a few pixels!

Anyhow never say never, the devil on my shoulder may have other ideas. Gulp

 

Only 80 to go my friends.
The countdown continues

 

Pick up where you left off, and reflect on how far you've come. Don't get caught in the failure mindset. progress is progress.

 

End of day 20. Having a tough day with urges. Feels like part of my mind 'wants it' - letting this part of my mind have its tantrum. No doubt it will calm down in 10mins. Feelings like this make me admire the people in this community so much! How do people fight this natural biological instinct? 1000s of nofappers. It really is amazing. I feel so blessed to be part of such amazing strength and unity.