100 days

For sure

 

Nice dude! I hate the lockdown too. What's up with those two girlfriends? Not going to make a move on them?

 

Wow man, I like the fact there was intensity in your eyes so strong that the person felt it. I absolutely love the fact that you shot like a hitman in the last days of your streak(at that point of time). This is something so important, because porn even messes u areas of our life where we could achieve efficiency with relative ease and when we can't even do that, the level of disappointment is much much greater.

And you not only improved, you aced it. Kudos to you brother, keep going at it, I am only 19 days into my streak, but I am feeling a little bit alert in my day to day actions.

 

Good stuff here. I will be 100 days a week from today and can confirm a lot of the OP's experiences. Except the time-line was a little reversed for me in that the 1st 60 days I pretty much felt like a boss, around Day 70 things started getting a little tougher and have been pretty meh since then. I haven't had an increase in urges, in fact all things sexual have kind of receded into the background (fewer sexual thoughts/fantasies and sexualization of women in general but also fewer/less impressive morning woods and spontaneous erections -- which doesn't have me real happy.) I've also found the last couple of weeks I'm a little more irritable, I don't feel as confident about my appearance and I'm less tolerant of others who get in the way of my agenda. I should note that I have had quite a few 20-30 day streaks before this, but this is the farthest I've ever gone and also the first time doing daily cold showers throughout so I'm sure (or at least I sure hope) it's just my mind and dick reacting to that.

 

Nice work. When you get this powerful urges; what do you do? and where does the urge go? I just started, had a 7 day streak last week and relapsed but back on it again.

4:30am

 

Bro. You guys still urge at 100 days in? When do these urges go away man? I mean seriously. This NOFAP stuff has made my life a mess. I just keep breaking my streaks and it makes me feel like killing self. The most I made it was 30 days. Please man this gives me no hope to continue, that fact that you are on day 100 and still want to relapse!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What is that! Isn't the goal to eventually not want to watch porn and not urge!

 

I mean it has caused me so much pain and anxiety and depression. This stupid PMO habit that I had since a young child. It is actually killing me on the inside I cannot bare being alive. I literally am failing school and failing in so many other things do to my poor ability to manage the guilt. It is actuallly destroying. ANd you guys make me just wanna jump off a cliff. HOW ARE YOU ON DAY 100+ and YOU WANT TO RELAPSE. ISNT THE GOAL TO GET TO A POINT WHERE YOUR BODY AND BRAIN ARE NO IN LOVE WITH PORN AND IN FACT HATE IT AND SEE THE FILTH OF THE INDUSTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I HAD ANOTHER FRIEND THAT RELAPSED ON DAY 104 AND THAT FACT DRIVES ME CRAZY! SORRY SILENTHUNTER but bro this nofap stuff has destroyed me man. I cannot deal witht hee guilt anymmore. Like it caused me to have severe sleep problems and anxiety and depression and i need to hop on meds. Like I am sick and tired of relapsing. I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING WRONG BRO!!!!!!!!! I made it to day 30 and that relapse KILLED ME. I have not gotten back on my feet since. I just keep relapsing every day or 2 for the past week. You know what I mean? Like I do not wanna be on day 105 and still urging like crazy with a boner that just wont go away and a foggy brain and anxious state and unable to do anything productive. CMON MAN. Like I cannot even get to day 30 without an immense amount of sacrifice in all other aspects of my life. How am I ever supposed to make it to day 100 or even beat this thing if apparently a whole 100 days on hard mode is not enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

DAMN IT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO BEAT THIS THING!!!!! LIKE I AM BEGINNING TO THINK THAT NO ONE EVER BEATS IT. HOW IS 100 DAYS NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

BRO FOR THE PAST 5 MONTHS I HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD TO GET RID OF IT!!!!!!!!! PLEASE BRO WHAT IN THE WORLD AM I DOING WRONG. DO I NEED TO GO TECH-FREE FOR THE SUMMER. I MEAN SERIOUSLY MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

FIVE MONTHS OF TRYING AND FAILING AND CRYING AND HURTING AND LOSING YOUR MIND AND SACRIFICING EVERYTHING! BRO I DID TERRIBLE IN SCHOOL ADN I GOT A CHEST TEAR DUE TO PUSHING MYSELF WORKING OUT AND LACK OF SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE BRO WHAT IS UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW CAN YOU NOT BE SUICIDAL!!! I LOST SO MUCH PROGRESS IN THE GYM AND I MESSED UP IN SCHOOL BIG TIME EVEN THOUGH MY FIRST SEM WAS A 90 AVG. THIS MAKES ME SO SAD I CANNOT GENERATE THE PATIENCE TO KEEP GOING. WHAT IS THE POINT!!!!! I HAVE DECREASED MY PMO AMOUNT DRASTICALLY PAST 5 MONTHS TO NO AVAIL. I DO NOT SEE THAT I AM LESS ADDICTED. IN FACT I AM JUST WAY HUNGRIER FOR PORN AND WOMEN. LIKE NO BENEFITS AT ALL. BRO NOBOODY CARES ABOUT THAT BS MORE TESTOSTERONE AND ALL THAT OTHER BS BRO. I JUST WANNA BE PMO FREE FOR LIFE!!! IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE THOUGH MAN!

 

SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THE POINT IF YOU GOT GUYS ON DAY 100 JUST CRAVING PORN URGING AND WANTING IT SO BAD. THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME MAN. DAY 100 is literally IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME!!!! LIKE WHAT DO YOU DO? HAVE 4 JOBS and TECH-FREE Completely and have like the perfect busy life. LIKE WHAT DOES IT TAKE??

 

THIS IS JUST A BIG JOKE MAN. I SINCERELY WANNA BE PMO0FREE BUT BRO IDK WHATS WRONG WITH ME. IS IT THE INTENSE DEPRESSION THAT CAUSES ME TO RELAPSE? DO I NEED TO UP THE DOSE OF MY MEDS TO GET A SUCCESSFUL STREAK? DO I NEED TO CUT MY PENIS OFF!!!!!!!!!!!??????????????? YOU HAVE NO IDEAA WHAT I WENT THROUGH TO GET TO DAY 30. BRO THE LAST 10 DAYS OF THAAT STEAK I WOULDNT EVEN HAVE A BONER OR THINK SEXUAL THOUGHTS AND I STILL FELT LIKE I WAS ABOUT TO CUM IF I MOVE A BIT TOO FAST. LIKE THOSE LAST TEN WERE TORTURE, AND BARELY ANY SLEEP. BRO FIND ME ONE PERSON WHO IS PMO-FREE AFTER HAVING BEEN ENGAGED IN THIS ACTIVITY FOR YEARS SINCE PUBERTY (WHICH BTW FOR ME WAS LITERALLY BEFORE 10). I DONT THINK IT HAS EVER HAPPENED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THESE GUYS JOKE AROUND THEY HOPE ON NoFap CUZ THEY ARE INSECURE AND WANNA BOOST THERE TESTOSTERONE! CMON BRO! I REALLY WANNA BE PMO-FREE. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

THIS IS ACC GONNA CAUSE ME TO KILL MY SELF MAN. I ALREADY ALMOST TRIED!!!!!!!!!!!