1000 Days of No PMO

@Bradziggler1990 & Isaac Newton2006 : Thank you both for stopping by.

Again, though, at this time I cannot invest much time in replies.

Know that I will try to get back to you if you should send me a message.

I wish you all the best.

God bless,
AMM
 
@Learner09 : I, too, once thought that. But I have grown & changed.

I believe that all can. We might not achieve the same results...but we can all grow nonetheless.

Do not underestimate yourself! Though I do not know you at all, I believe in you!

God bless,
AMM
 
Wow what an achievement. Make sure you rid evil from you; I can't see you relapsing due to envy. I really believe in it, but I just want you to keep winning. It's so inspiring to see you on this streak; what a great victory! Sometimes you can even be hurt from positive envy, as in those cheering you on could (unintentionally) hurt your accomplishment. Great! Now it's 2000 days :) You are walking the path of abstinence and victory.
 
Good job, you are one of the top nofap victors. Have you been doing things for your betterment? For me, I've recently relapsed and I'm struggling with weakness and sleep issues. Did you experience withdrawal? I experienced PAWS, and other withdrawal problems. PAWS is basically long term withdrawal from substances. Did you get it?
 
@Ammar2 : Thank you for stopping by, & thank you for your kind words.

As I have said above, I have been limiting my time online. I will try to get back to you when I can.

In the meantime: I have addressed a lot of those questions in previous Success Stories & their comments (linked above) as well as my overly long Journal (also linked above).

I would recommend that if you have questions, browse through those collections first in the meantime. If you have questions after that, please let me know!

In short: I struggled a lot. I kept on going with successes & failures. I got better little by little. I struggle today, in some of the same ways (so far, minus PMO). I try to keep bettering myself across the board, i.e., to be a balanced individual. My main priority has been prayer--but I also volunteer, do simple workouts, advance in my career (study), etc.

I wish you the best; keep in touch as you might.

God bless,
AMM
 
@WannabeMonk7 : Nice!

And nice name/profile picture. I happened to be biased, having lived that life for a time. Some of my previous entries allude to this point.

Are you interested in monastic life? It is hard for me to tell offhand. Perhaps your picture is of a monk of the Benedictine family? A safe guess indeed, given how many branches there are.

But I suppose this is neither here-nor-there for this thread.

All the best,
God bless,
AMM
 
Friends, peace,

This entry is meant to cover in detail the 11th consecutive 90 day streak (which would be marked at DAY 990).

Because I am late to the posting, I decided to also commemorate DAY 1000 in the title itself--but the analysis will definitely focus on the 90 day period.

As usual, here are some links to add context to my journey:

My Journal
90 Days of No PMO Success Story
180 Days of No PMO Success Story
365 Days of No PMO Success Story
450 Days of No PMO Success Story
540 Days of No PMO Success Story
630 Days of No PMO Success Story
720 Days of No PMO Success Story
810 Days of No PMO Success Story
900 Days of No PMO Success Story

Honestly, at this point, I cannot remember much of this journey. I vaguely suspect that, by & by, it was a time marked by nothing in particular. At worst, perhaps a week or two of harder days--but more likely, days of boredom & loneliness than anything else.

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Upon review, it does seem like my time was aptly remembered. I forgot some of the events (& there were actually a lot of unique events, travels, & friends in this period of time that are actually worth remembering)--but the overall feeling as described was close to the mark.

It seemed to be a time with heavier dosages of sadness, loneliness, & easier annoyance. Among the top issues that were unique to this time or just started included...

-lots of roommate issues (getting left out on the regular; him changing his schedule so that it clashed with mine on the regular; his general loudness taking an increase in volume)

-Temptations to "normal" things. It seemed like a peak year for short-short fashion for men, & this was a terrible bane & trial for me (given my SSA).

Despite these lows, I tend to think that I was pretty "flatline" (not in NoFap terminology but if you were to graph my overall mood) this time around. There were not really many highs or lows. It was somewhere in-between, & it seemed dry.

Much of my time focused on work. Other periods of my time felt restless (again, see roommate issue--I might return home but not wish to be home or thus feel like I did not have rest in my own space).

The times in the chapel, overall, seemed to likewise continue a downward trend. I still maintained my discipline, but the holy hour was likely more of a 40-50 minute thing prior to Mass. I have been remedying this lately--but I need to definitely get my act together.

I think that my writing has also become more terse. I have been trying to spend less time online. This can give a false impression of not being as successful in NoFap or perhaps not as deep. But upon review, it does seem that I did have deep moments of prayer & reflection...these simply did not make it into the Journal.

It is a shame because I cannot revisit these memories...but then again, there are pros & cons to these things. And one of the goals of NoFap is to "regain one's life". Which would mean less posting &c. in the long run.

Likewise, there were periods of great discipline. I noted a solid streak of prayer times wherein I was focused & more-or-less took command of myself & stamped out my own distractions. This is a hopeful note--& I need to remember it--for lately these days, I have been more discouraged, & discouragement can make it harder to kill off the thoughts.

Especially in the tail-end of this 90-day streak, there was a kind of renewal in prayer & discipline. I initiated an evening chapel time to make up for shorter mornings, & I likewise said some of the minor hours of the Divine Office. There was also a greater emphasis on going to the sacrament of Confession with greater frequency. So, again, there is something good here, despite the general lonely feeling that lingers.

Lastly, as far as I can tell: I started a new workout routine that is much harder than what I had done before--& at least two people (not including myself in that number) have commented on the change. I think that I see the change--& I at least can definitely see the change in the workouts that I can actually achieve.

But I suppose that is that.

In summary, it was a kind of lonely & desert-like 90 days. It seemed full of stressors & boring situations. But...even so, I carry on.

As usual, if you have questions, please let me know.

Thanks,
God bless,
A Modern Miroku
Brotha Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam !!! Finally someone reached day 1000 !!! Bro you should post this in the Corn Addiction Rebooting Section and also the events and challenges sub section you would be at Superman and God Rank !!!!!!!
 
@Damian_Wayne : Thanks for the kind words & thanks for stopping by!

Of course, there are many who have preceded me to this point. And, of course, there are many who have fared much better than me overall--some of whom are not as high in the running counter total.

Anyway--again, thanks. Keep on in the fight! We are here for you!

God bless,
AMM
 
@iwanttobefree22002 Friend--I cannot give you a suitable or long reply. Thus, a few things:

-Thanks for the congrats!
-I encourage reading my journal and my success stories with a more critical eye. I think that, in this way, some of your questions will be answered.
-The "kinks" did not go away entirely, but they have diminished and become mostly manageable.
-I would argue that I did not have a "kink" to begin with--it was something that I took on (even at a young age). That said, once it was around...it was addiction and constantly escalated to worse things.
-Also, this post that we are on is not the most recent of my Success Stories...though I have skipped writing more recent ones due to time constraints (and lack of energy), the following post is my most recent Success Story in writing:

God bless,
AMM
 
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