It's been 11 years since I first watched porn, 11 years where I don't even know myself, 11 years of addiction, 11 years of the same cycle, 11 years of disgraceful fetishes, 11 years dirty never clean, I've said today is the day that I quit many many times and failed many and many times I am done. I want to move on to a real life where I express myself properly and I feel better I want to move on to a life worth living a life I can be proud of. I want the life I want. I want to be who I am I don't want to be addicted anymore, I want to be free, I don't want to have stupid fetishes anymore I want a proper healthy relationship, I don't want this disgust and shame I want to be free and to be natural and be open about being natural and not feeling shame I want to be a real man, not a man plagued by disgusting porn. I want to be free, I want to be free, I want to be free and achieve what I was born to, I want to be a positive force on this earth. I want to do good, strong, tell te truth and be the man. I want to attack life and take responsibility for it. I want to make money and get myself out of this gutter. I am at rock bottom now and it's time to get out, it's time to climb and be the man. After being dead for 11 years I want to be alive again.