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AmroMustafaaCaseOfRecovery

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It's been 11 years since I first watched porn, 11 years where I don't even know myself, 11 years of addiction, 11 years of the same cycle, 11 years of disgraceful fetishes, 11 years dirty never clean, I've said today is the day that I quit many many times and failed many and many times I am done.

I want to move on to a real life where I express myself properly and I feel better I want to move on to a life worth living a life I can be proud of. I want the life I want. I want to be who I am I don't want to be addicted anymore, I want to be free, I don't want to have stupid fetishes anymore I want a proper healthy relationship, I don't want this disgust and shame I want to be free and to be natural and be open about being natural and not feeling shame I want to be a real man, not a man plagued by disgusting porn.

I want to be free, I want to be free, I want to be free and achieve what I was born to, I want to be a positive force on this earth. I want to do good, strong, tell te truth and be the man.

I want to attack life and take responsibility for it. I want to make money and get myself out of this gutter. I am at rock bottom now and it's time to get out, it's time to climb and be the man.

After being dead for 11 years I want to be alive again.
 
11 years ago I was 5 so I guess you can imagine the little experience I have....
I also discovered a method a few weeks ago that has helped me a lot on this nofap journey, even on puberty I've managed to stay 9 days fap-free with little to no urges.

I don't know if this method is known, but here it is:
Don't hide yourself from urges and social media, this is an addiction. You can't tell an alcoholic to stop looking at alcohol in the supermarket, stop watching ads about alcohol, etc. That will make your freedom disappear and your live worsen. What you have to do is, whenever you have an urge, open the notes app on your phone, a diary, anything to write on that you carry with yourself in moments that you will possibly relapse and start writing deep, emotional, meaningful, personal, detailed reasons to why you shouldn't relapse and then read them every time you have an urge (you can do at first one reason per urge and when you're out of ideas read them all). The reasons can't be like "it's bad for me and I want to stop", they should be something more personal, deep etc. like "it's the biggest waste of time ever imaginable, think of all the things you could be doing instead of this, you could be studying to become the best version of yourself and achieve a great future..."

Also what helps for me is reading success stories on this forum, it makes me think to myself "why would I stop this streak when there are people out there that have streaks of more than 8 years and it has helped improve a lot their lives"

Hope this helps! Good luck on your journey.

Edit: I forgot to say, it's easier to create one habit to than to get read of it, that's why the method works
 
11 years ago I was … trying to quit masturbating! It’s been a real challenge. It’s good that you’re trying to stop this now. :)
 
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