120 Days on NoFap for the first time!

I have finally made it to 120 days as of today without PMO. Thank you to the awesome community of NoFap and SR. Looking forward to making it a lifelong practice.
I attribute my success to following practices:

1. Daily meditation - twice a day (after waking up and before sleeping) - 10-12 minutes each session where I focus on my breathing
2. Support and motivation from NoFap group
3. Reading posts on NoFap and SR reddit every single day before going to bed to keep myself in check and brainwash my subcounscious
4. Lockdown where I am at home, with my parents

Benefits observed till now:

1. More energy
2. Better eye contact and bright sparking eyes
3. More confidence, can speak up and oppose people in meetings if required
4. Much better memory
5. Ability to organize thoughts and speak coherently
6. Can solve (technical) issues at work easily now
7. Attention from girls (can see girls noticing me walking by)
8. Deeper voice
9. More control over emotions and mood
10. Always happy
11. Newfound love for music/songs
12. More time available

I also never had a single nightfall/wet-dream in my life, I used to think this is because of my excessive ejaculation. But I still did not get any nightfall after 120 days of retention. Is this normal? I make sure to pee before going to bed and eat only vegetarian food since I come from a brahmin family.

I make sure that I meditate and exercise to transmute my sexual energy every single day and aspire to make NoFap and SR a lifelong goal.

My background:

I am 25 years old Computer Science graduate from Mumbai metropolitan region, India working full-time as a software developer.

I have not been a very outgoing person since I was a kid, did not play out with friends much, have been at home at my desktop since age 8. You could classify me as an extreme introvert at that time, afraid of speaking with everyone.

Prior to my obsession with porn, when I was 12, I got into this very weird fantacy that I was a cow being milked by some girl after looking at some picture from our school textbook. I "learned" masturbation by "milking" myself since then, imagining myself as a cow. I didn't produce any semen at that time if I remember correctly. I used to masturbate by looking at cow/buffallo milking videos on YouTube. Yes, I know, this is very weird. This fantacy has also led me further to explore and create more fantasies in the future related to submission.

I was then introduced to porn at the age of 13 or 14 at one of my class mate's home (I was there with some of my friends, about 3-4 kids), where he was showing off his porn video to everyone. Porn addiction started gradually, I would say I was an addict by the age of 15-16. I used to watch porn and ejaculate whenever I was alone at home, it was as frequent as once or twice a day at one point. I got a bunch of weird fantasies later on, I don't think it is wise to name them here.

As I went to college for undergraduate degree, I could not understand why I had such low amount of energy every single day. I was exhausted to even travel and go the the class. My eyes were always half closed, everyone asked me, why do I close my eyes every time I speak. I had no idea at the time that it was because of draining of my life force and wasting it. I also failed at making any girlfriends, no matter how many superficial tricks I tried.

Luckily I excelled at college as I got to choose my favourite major - Computer Science and later on got opportunity to work at a great corporation.

I realised that porn is becoming a problem when I was around 23, tried to stop it on my own, but could not for more than 6-7 days. Googled porn addiction and found out about NoFap, SR and other such resources. I have since tried to attain 90 days, but had always failed as I went back to watching porn/peeking when I was alone at home at a specific time. My max streak was 48 days up until now.

This lockdown has allowed me to rethink life, made sure that I was always with my parents and helped me get to 120 days today. Victory over addiction of more than 10 years.

Thank you!

 

Thanks. Hope that I will be able to continue on this path even after lockdown is over and things get back to normal. Have to make sure to continue with daily habits which help in sexual transmutation.

Yes, I think the sattvic diet is reponsible for no nightfalls. Makes me wonder that there are so many habits inculcated in our tradition that are passed down generations which we aren't even aware of how they help us with these things.

One simple example is: My mom has taught me to pee before going to sleep every night from a very small age. Now I am sure she is unaware of how this habit helps with lowering urges and preventing nightfall. But these kinds of habits are passed down generations through people unaware of how it helps them in their life.