EyesfortheHoly
Fapstronaut
I was introduced to porn at the young age of 12 and from that point on became something that I sought after on a regular basis. At the age of 23 I was set free and did not look at porn or masturbate for 3 years, in fact I was completely abstinent from sex altogether. At 26 I was married and obviously was abstinent no longer. Shortly after I was alone with my computer and was tempted with thoughts of pornography. I had never engaged with internet pornography before and I had no idea what I was getting myself into. That was 13 years ago. The most time that I have gone without was six weeks but that was about 11 years ago. Now, because I have to work in front of a computer, the most I have gone without is 13 days but I usually give in once or twice a week. I hate the addiction, but I know that part of me loves it, which is why I keep going back. This addiction threatens my marriage, my job, and my fatherhood. I am a father to three wonderful daughters and I do not want this disease to spread to them. I am desperate. This nonsense needs to end. I am encouraged by this website and the possibility that is before me--the end of this disease, finally cutting the head off of Goliath.
