ile cut a long story short, i am in need to release now due to having some stress based psychological problems, i am taking some medication that can have an effect on nerve stress but i am also very aware that i have a massive build up of testosterone now. I am swimming and lifting weights many times in week and unable to clear the built up energy. I have no urge to look at P or perform M but i do need to clear this 'fog' in my mind which i am pretty sure is down to abstaining and not the medication. Before i start changing medication doses it will be easier to release and see how i feel and whether this build up helps with my thought organization and clarity. I would like to release in controlled manner without P and still feel like i am in the zone with my emotions and will power. Ive ridden out many waves or intense urges earlier into the abstaining but have it pretty much under control now, in fact complete flat lining if im honest. Any other experienced abstainers had to release and if so how did you do without a guilt trip afterwards?