So this is my first post. I don't normally post much anywhere on the internet, but I think that by participating in a community that might understand my struggles and that can hold me accountable I might be able to sort out some of my troubles. I have been struggeling with this in some capacity for almost as long as I can remember, my relation with sexuality was pathological very early on so I dont even know what normal healthy sexuality would look like for me. The actual face of my addictive behavior has been continually shifting and changing through the years sometimes getting better in some way then getting worse in another way, now that I am thinking about it its actually insane how much stuff I have seen, thought and done. When some facet got better generally speaking another one maybe something new got worse, sometimes that took longer sometimes it didnt. If someone would like to talk to me please go ahead and send me a message. This is my day 0, lets see if I can make some positive change.