slept with gf yesterday but had to think of porn to get off. being strict that means reset the counter, so 0/14.
I think it's day 8 or something? Feeling great. After day 5-7 it gets much easier as you have more practice controlling your mind. That's a reason why I'm doing this. Mind control. I do have the occasional urges, but I have to intentionally ignore it and it will go away eventually. The other thing that has helped me the most is keeping busy. Of the urges I do have, almost all are when I'm bored doing nothing and have no other thoughts to think about but masterbation. Passing day seven was big for me. This is part of a series of things I'm starting to improve my health, happiness, and masculinity and between day five and seven I felt substantial improvement. I now feel much better, and it is much easier to keep going. At first I doubted I would be able to get to seven but now I think I can get to 14 days no sweat!
Day 4/14 -my mind tries to think of horrendous thoughts(to get my attention) Just have to remind myself these are just thoughts not real-life instances and I can choose which thought I want to explore.
Day 0 -What I found out about myself is I get triggered by NSFW curious topics brought up in a podcasts -F twice thinking I have already told my accountability partner And thinking I should watch so much porn that I get desensitized. (its a circle of sleep deprivation>relapses>always tired after sleeping because of relapse) Takeaways -have enough sleep (cover up remaining sleeping on weekend) -have to be attentive while listening to a podcast
Day 2/14 -OK sleep (couldn't completely follow the new routine but it seems effective) -As per the Porn reboot podcast one of the activity successful rebooters follow everyday is prepare one 'a phrase' & 'read it'. phrase that I came up with: you know your demons would you face them? or run from them?
Day 10. Not sure how to feel I feel like I've gone back to normal, or at least my "masculine energy" is fading. I'm getting constant erections, which is a good sign of testosterone. IDK what to think about this. Maybe I need to masterbate after this challenge and then try again? Or I need to change something else? Not sure. Urges are constant and I think I need a little bit more time to focus on mind control.
^^ I feel like I was a lot more motivated and masculine a week ago when I was just getting used to resisting urges and mind control. I felt unstoppable and encouraged. My mind was sharp. I'll see what happens after this weekend, but I hope I can recover from this.
at first, you feel superhuman after relinquishing PMO but soon it becomes your baseline (just like every other thing in life) But you improved the standards of your baseline (up'd it from when you were relapsing) good to hear you have more energy (referring to high testosterone) use it somewhere else why to go back to the same old thing (PMO) when you know what follows that old path (which brings nothing but emptiness to you)
Day 12/14 (22 total). Currently doing better with NoFap than I have in months, and starting to feel the difference with my emotions. I've got a long way to go, and other things to work on too, of course, but this is progress.
