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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Aug 30, 2017.
Day 1 again
Yesterday i was on day 5 but relapses twice♂️
However, will continue for 2 weeks this time
12/14 last night was really strange, I felt real Euphoria while I’ll was having flash backs of women I had slept with, it felt like I was reliving these encounters.. while this was all happening I could feel electric signals in my brain, felt like change was happening..
Day 6/14 -> So far it has been really busy and thus avoiding triggers. Need to sleep at nights earlier so i don't go down the wrong path.
I am now on day 2 out of 14.
I will not keep track daily now, but I will still stick to the streak.
Recently, I realized that I needed to be more proactive in combating my habit of ogling women I see in public since that is usually where urges to use porn originate, so I've started counting in my head the number of times a day that I have started to ogle. Thus, any time I have started to ogle a woman in public, I mentally tick the number up in my head. The goal in doing it this way is that I can quantify my progress to some extent (though exposure to the problem varies from day to day). Even if the number itself is not helpful, keeping track of the number throughout the day means that I am more consciously fighting the issue and ticking that number up in my head does work as a sort of mental slap on the wrist. Maybe there is a better way of combating this particular problem, but the mental counter seems helpful thus far.
Day 7/14, went well, another busy one. I have realized keeping my days productive and busy help me fight against this.
Relapsed, but I'm going to stay strong. I'm confused if I can fight this or not-- wait, I got a porn blocker!
I am so tired and stressed. I was edging a bit earlier. I'm frustrated with school work and discouraged. I miss my wife. I'm going to go try to read a book until she gets home from work.
Day 4/14 and day 5/14 complete!