Day 8 My wife and I determined a consequence for relapse and reward for reaching one month of sobriety. The consequence is not being able to have homemade pizza on Sunday -- I love our homemade pizza (it's family recipe I grew up with) and spend a good part of the week looking forward to it, so it will hurt pretty hard. The reward for reaching one month is a bag of freshly roasted coffee from a local coffee roastery. I'm hoping that stakes like these will further motivate me to get and stay clean.
Today is day 0 of the two weeks. Everything is going well so far, I haven’t felt any urges today or in the previous. I think it will be beneficial to me in focusing on things of more importance.
two rules I say to myself that I took from this site: 1. Don't touch yourself. 2. Don't look at provocative stuff (that covers just about everything). Working so far. I also am taking a closer look at how often I move into fantasy. My fap habit is preceded by a thought habit. At least that's the way it seems. Sexual thinking is the go-to, brain default mode for me much of the time. I am working to break that up a bit...
Day zero after a long bout of apathy regarding many things. For me, it all starts with the demon alcohol. It becomes an incredibly slippery slope once I start drinking. I've definitely got to redefine my motivations and start taking myself more seriously.
