140 days today

I started this journey after coming to this forum and discovering others doing "reboots" to help possibly fix their sexual anhedonia problems. Low and behold, that is my very issue. After doing extensive blood work among other tests to make sure my body is okay (it is), my orgasmic ability ceases to work the way it used to.

I used to take many different anti depressants among other types of pills to treat my depression (anti-psychotics, beta blockers, bi-polar meds, some natural stuff, and Lithium), all of which contributed to my anhedonia. When I finally stopped taking these meds (and to this day, don't take any medication), the side effects have remained permanently.

140 days later, I still don't know if my orgasms have returned. Some other benefits have arisen since my start such as enjoying little things again; I have a GF now although we are not participating in sex atm since my journey isn't quite over. My goal is 180 days (or 6 months). This kind of is my last hope in restoring my sexual function, and I'm kind of terrified.

Consider this my testimony here on noFap, and also a way to reach out for help for anyone else who knows what I've gone through/going through. I really just want to be able to have an orgasm again.

And for anyone wondering, meditation turned out to be the best thing for curing my depression (it's hella boring but it sure does work).