145 Day - 5 Month - Anecdote

So, last night I finished the Netflix series "13 Reasons Why" with my girlfriend.
For those who are unfamiliar with the series, basically, a girl commits suicide and leaves behind tapes of why she did and who influenced her suicide. The last episode shows her killing herself.

After it finished, I just blankly stared into the screen, and just broke down crying. I have no idea where it came from, I literally cried for about 30 minutes. All while my girlfriend was holding me and asking what was wrong, and I just couldn't answer. I just felt sad, and it felt amazing. I went home, and I cried awhile there too. These new emotions are amazing, it felt great to just cry and not be ashamed or apathetic.

Also, I'm coming up on the 5 month mark. I may make a separate post for this, but these last 5 months have been the best and worst in my life. Half the time, I'm anti social and depressed, and I am looking into getting professional help. However bad it has gotten, I would not trade it for a life that I once lived. Keep on keeping on, life is so much better when you're free from shame.