15 DAYS AND STILL GOING STRONG!

Wow has it been a very long time since I have been here. To be completely honest I cant simply remember the last time I made it this far. I am pretty positive if it happened it wasn't in 2020 LOL. We can just forget about that year. Anyways, boy what an experience this has been for me. So I am just going to get to the point of how it all started.

About two weeks ago I was in a pretty dark place in my life. I had fallen into this never ending cycle of complusive PMO for months on end. I started out doing pretty well in 2020 until covid hit. Then around April or May is when the compulsiveness started. It started as every other day or third day. It then went back to the hard core and every other day to everyday. I would then been able to get off it for a while but only like 3 or 4 days. So going back to about two weeks ago I came to my breaking point.

I have been struggling to defeat this addiction for six years now. Up until two weeks ago I thought I had done everything in my mind that would help me defeat this addiction. I just needed to stay strong and fight hard. But boy was I wrong about that. So following a porn watching session one night I decided to click on a how to stop watching porn video on YouTube. Yeah, IK there's a lot of them...... But I came across this guys video his name is JK Emezi I believe. During the video he stated that men often try to quit porn by just using will power and they always fail. If you are truly ready to defeat this addiction you have to except a couple of things.
1. You can not defeat porn with just will power. It gets you nowhere.
2. You can not defeat porn alone.
3. You can not defeat porn by just simply getting rid of or blocking it out.

In order to fully cleanse yourself you best also be willing to do these things.
1. Find an accountability partner
2. Join accountability groups
3. Use therapy if you have too
4. Get rid of all things you have used to access pornography with.

Now there is a lot more but I can share that another time. Back to my story now. I have been a member of nofap once before but never really got anywhere. So after watching this guys video I decided that I needed to bite the bullet and start clean. I had to personally take steps that I was so scared of. Steps like deleting literally all of my social media accounts that I had used to access porn. Deleting all apps including internet from my phone. I even was able to finally get the nerves to come out to a friend of mine about my addiction.

I am telling you that was probably one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. Looking back I don't really understand why I was so afraid to just let those things go and actually go out and get the help I needed. Now I am 15 days clean and still going pretty damn strong. I have had off and on temptations but I have been able to ignore them and keep fighting. I hope that December 28th, 2020 was the last time I will ever watch porn again. I also hope that you guys give me a follow or a like to follow my journey.

Oh and for those of you who are still struggling. You got this!