Well I've been thinking about what to write next, after my 90 days post I just tried to pay attention towards how my life was playing out and I think this is the first time I feel this kind of happiness. This week, I had to study a lot, gave my last 2 finals on thursday. Now i'm an architect. This last month I officially introduced the girl I was dating to my parents, the rest of my family and all my friends. Now I can call her my girlfriend, the first one I ever had. I also went on small trip to the west of my beautiful country with her and another couple of our age, we camped it the middle of the mountains in one of the best nights of my life. On this trip I reconnected with photography, my strongest passion and understood that it is something that I never have to give up. I'm having a lot of sex, with someone I really trust and it's the most fun and intimate I've been with someone of the opposite gender, it's beautiful. Sex with my girlfriend improves each day. I had a crazy party with all my university friends who graduated with me, here I invited my long time school friends. Both groups came together and had a great time. I had a lot of people come to me and tell me how much they appreciate me and told me how valuable I am, lifting my soul and spirit. I've also had the courage to tell them how much I value them, and how much I love all my friends. I'm feeling very connected with my body, with my emotions, good and bad. And it's been amazing to express my happiness and let myself feel pain. Both emotions burn brighter than ever. In the most beautiful way. I'm feeling very excited about my future. Where to go next, what to do with myself. In times of great tension, before I would crawl into my bedroom with my computer to masturbate and try to forget, I now just feel great tension and nervousness, what I'm supposed to feel, and it's fantastic. Going through life feels like a rollercoaster. Emotionally it's real, pure. My feelings are as strong as ever. I feel young. The year is ending, before I would start thinking about a way to fix my life, how to stop porn use, how to quiet my mind, "another year flies by". Now I proud to say that 2017 was one of my best years and I cannot say that I didn't enjoy the hell out of it. Christmas is coming, due to my losses it was always a very painful holiday, Now i'm looking forward to it, thinking about how to enjoy my family and friends. I feel confident about my body and about my personality, I can now be almost naked in front of anybody and not be conscious about it. Most importantly I forgot what porn was all about. I don't miss it, I sometimes crave it, but those thoughts fire up so weakly that I cannot understand what I was thinking about before. I could speak for hours about each thing, but it's too much. I just can't understand how much of my life changed in so little time. 150 days without porn, and now I can't even recognize myself. I look in the mirror and feel proud. I wish I could go back and give myself a taste of this feeling. I'm sure that it would convince me to just quit for real and in a number of days start feeling life like never before. Good luck everyone, wish you the best. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.