150 days monk mode

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Free your mind, Jul 19, 2020.

  1. Free your mind

    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    The milestone, but not yet healed.
    - Still flatlining, but I believe it is because not great emotional state (3 days ago the woman Im in love with finally said that she does not want anything with me - partly connected with my PIED).
    - sleeping issues (I was never a good sleeper)
    - rare morning wood
    - almost no spontaneous erections
    - noone to test my PIED state (I have to work on that)
    - started again with dating apps (which arouses me so I am worried about that - tonight I even had erotic dream about the girl from the app)

    On the positive side, my confidence is slightly rising. Started working out again. My skin is cleaner. I became more direct and aggressive during conversation (I was very mild before). I care less what others think.
    I believe that my PIED is better and would like to try it.
     
  2. Shuffledude88

    Shuffledude88 Fapstronaut

    Great work man! Every day is one day closer to full recovery! Hang in there. Can relate to strong emotions. It’s tough! I try to allow then and handle them like one should, talking to people and being open about them instead of isolating myself which I have done through PMO in the past.

    Have a great week and keep up the work!
     
  3. Free your mind

    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    Thanks!
    Something weird happened today.
    I matched with a girl on a dating app yesterday..8 years older then me. Started chatting and it was really nice and fun..then I felt strong sexual attraction towards her.
    Today, we are chatting on whatsapp, everything goes so easy, we arranged a date on Wednesday. And I am HARD each time she sends a few messages. We didn't even mention sexual topic, just regular small talk and a slight teasing. My balls slightly hurt and my pants are full of precum.
    What is going on?
    Is that my libido or again cravings from porn addiction?
    I feel incredibly positive, happy, confident and can't wait to meet her.

    Any advice?
     
  4. Envoy-ofthe-End

    Envoy-ofthe-End Fapstronaut

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    Hey bro congrats on reaching 150 days. I believe your body is anticipating meeting a women so that's a positive reaction. Dont indulge too much in sexual thoughts though. Oh and dont think of the outcome of the date so much, try to enjoy it and let it flow.
     
  5. Free your mind

    Free your mind Fapstronaut

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    I hope so. I really hope this is a suddens sign of recovery. We will see in 2 days how my body will react to a woman.
    Cant wait :)
     
  6. Mr doctor

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    Yes bro this is a sign of recovery go sex with her but do foreplay really well to make your libido and erection hard.
     
  7. Free your mind

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    Cant wait.. :)
    Today I was not so aroused..
    But tomorrow evening we will meet.
    Will keep you updated.. :)
     
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  8. Bonhart

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    I feel similarly I don't know if I'm still flatlining or feeling depressed. Lockdown has taken a toll on me, but man, I just have 0 libido.

    I believe that what you are experiencing are sexual desires towards that woman. I envy you, I want to feel those feelings again. To lust(in a healthy manner) after someone. I hope you do well man.
     
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  9. Mr doctor

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    Only thing u can test your self is with the real girl do foreplay and u will get ypur answer
     
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  10. TonyTokoyo

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    Keep moving forward man. This is the right path.
     
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  11. TheRetainer

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    Sounds like you are doing really well.

    Maybe you just wasnt that into the girl you was in love with. Everyone gets bored with long term sexual partners.

    If your getting aroused by talking to girls in apps, I would say your working just fine.

    It is my experience that I would loose interest in long term girlfriends, but get aroused by new woman. ITs part of life, doesnt mean theres anything wrong with you. We are meant to spread our seed and have sex with different woman. Its unfortunate that being in love doesnt always equate to sexual attraction.
     
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  12. Might_Stag_Beetle

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    Today is my 120th day and I'm pretty much in the same boat. I wish you well, dont give up
     
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  13. Free your mind

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    Heres an update..
    We were on a date and..not compatible.
    I didnt quite like her irl and we didint end up in bed. But never mind. Lets go harder
     
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  14. Shuffledude88

    Shuffledude88 Fapstronaut

    That sucks, but that is how it works! Stay in the game and Don’t Give up. You Will find someone :)
     
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  15. Free your mind

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    Update..
    I'm binging on dating sites..Its not that picures arouses me but communication with all the girls. And confirmation that a girl wants me is so arousing for me, I feel the dopamine. Thats not good as I am aroused for a prolonged time.. Im slightly scared.

    On the positive side, I was horny and drove 200km just to make out with some random girl.. I knew we will not have sex. And she wasnt attractive, but she was available. I was hard during making out, thats good. And I felt that I could fuck her.
    I was hoping for a blowjob, but it didnt happen. Even better because I should save orgasms for later.
    Strange experience but what the hell...its good for my experience and confidence.
     
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  16. Free your mind

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    An update...
    187 days no PMO. Still binging on dating sites which arouses me, I know it's not a good thing.
    I had one night stand, thats good. The erection was solid with a condom, with a little help of ED pill.
    I couldn't orgasm so she finished me off with mouth. I had my first orgasm after 170 and something days.
    Thats also not perfect, but at least my confidence rised a bit.
     
  17. Free your mind

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    254 days..
    Not good.. Still very low libido. Rare MW, my confide ce dropped, erections not good.
     
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  18. Free your mind

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    The same day.. reset after so much time..
    I guess I'm starting all over again.
    It was M and O, without P and without fantasy, just mechanical, but still..
    I will try to do it properly now.
     
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  19. FrenchOliver

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    You are not starting all over again bro.

    Your brain remember those 254 days without PMO. It will be easier this time.

    You are doing great. Don't quit. You the man.
     
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  20. Follower of God❤️

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    If you get indulged in those activities never ejaculate.
    Well, if you s*x then you are not doing Monk Mode from now.
     
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