150 days, no longer a sissy!

First of all you need to keep your phone in a different room before you lay down for bed. If you're browsing on a computer, install BlockSite which blocks porn content and 3 websites for free (they used to allow 6). I have Reddit, Quora, and YouTube blocked.

By the way, blocking websites hasn't made it impossible for me to access those places. It just makes it a lot less likely.

 

You're story reflects mine in some key ways, so I think you got a classic case of HOCD. Don't be too worried about it because a solid percentage of heavy PMO watchers probably have this condition. I think the best advice I've learned is to not watch porn AND stop reading about it online and in forums like Reddit. I remember one of the worst things is when I would compulsive check Reddit asking "Am I gay because of x?". You'll have some reasonable comments saying "nah, probably not" but then a few comments like "YES only gay people watch or look at this", which were so intrusive.

I successfully "treated" my HOCD by going on this long streak. That should happen too for you. The only place I recommend you read about it is here: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...fetishes-a-complete-guide-for-freedom.283059/

This is a post I read a long time ago and that gave me reassurance that I could figure this out.

 

You got this. Remember the values that you started with at Day 0.

 

I've heard that the older you are the less time you need to recover. Something about how the brain is less plastic as we're older, so perhaps extreme porn doesn't change your brain as drastically. The counterargument is that you could've been watching porn for longer.

I believe you got what it takes to fully recover. I used a Chrome extension called Blocksite to block YouTube. You can easily turn it off, but it reduces the probability that you're gonna be on there in my opinion. And don't give your addiction a foot by using YouTube cause it will take a mile.

 

I think in your case it is not true because you were engaging with AGP activities in your teen years, so that was having a significant effect. But in general, if someone uses porn during their teenage years, it has a much greater chance of impacting the structure of certain parts of the brain. It probably reduces the size and influence of the prefrontal cortex which is important for decision-making, behavioral flexibility, impulsivity inhibition among other things (Prawiroharjo et al. 2021).

In other words, it's literally reducing the size of areas of the brain important for decision-making. We know kids' brains are more plastic and changeable than adult ones.

I just think kids who are doing this are going to have an even more difficult time controlling their impulses and desires.

I linked the study's abstract here: https://www.medrxiv.org/content/10.1101/2021.06.22.21259291v1

 

I think we can see a positive from this: the majority of porn addicts today were watching Internet porn as kids, but many of those 40+ didn't. These older people can get out of this mess much quicker, and in the process help out younger people too.

 

I do understand what you're saying and I think you'll be right after this decade.

But imagine one guy who's 30 years old and started watching at 15. That's 15 years of hardcore Internet porn.

Another guy who's 40 and started watching at 25. He's also been watching for 15 years.

So they have the same amount of "conditioning" and porn exposure.

I think the 30 year old guy will have a harder time with recovery cause the conditioning started in his youth.

BUT I know you will be correct in a few years because almost everybody will have started at the same place - having engaged with porn in their teen years.

 

Keep on going! Can you do some exercise today? Engaging in physical activity kind of gets me out of that "craving" mindset.

 

In a way I understand your argument. In my case, I let my "internal drive" for sexual stimulation nearly take me over. I attempted to change a lot of things to feel more arousal. As a young person, I've had to struggle with self-control in a land of superstimuli.

However, the above streak in this Success Story allowed me to prove to myself that I have the self-control to choose my own actions. And consciously I've always known I don't to want to be a sissy.

I just want you to know though that when I use the term "sissy," I don't mean a person that is regarded as "effeminate or cowardly." I literally mean a practioner of the porn genre sissy porn, who brings certain elements of the porn videos they watch into real life.

 

Why not? I remember reading that "tube sites" started skyrocketing in popularity around 2006, 16 years ago.

I'm talking about Internet porn specifically.