17 years of addiction

Hey guys, I'm 26 and have been consuming pornography since I was 9 years old. I've heard of nofap through reddit and have tried a reboot several times. The longest I made it was 4 days. I've read the research countless times, and I know how much damage I've already done. It's made me extremely sexually conservative, fearful of, and uncomfortable around women, and I have virtually no control over my sexual functions. I've decided to join the community because I don't think I can do this without a support system, and I'm far too afraid to talk about it with any of my friends. Day 1, attempt 12 at a reboot starting today. I really want to beat this, get my life, and sexual health back.

 

The thing I know about habits is that you can't just do away with one, it has to be replaced with another. So I'm starting by making a list of things I should go do in the event I get an urge to relapse. All of which involve putting as much space between myself and my computer during an urge. Going for a walk, meditating, or practicing guitar are all on my list thus far. I'm going to be bookmarking the NoFap panic button when I get home. Finally, I'm hoping that logging my progress here in a public forum will help me remain accountable. Thanks for saying hello!