No what I mean is that ever since relapsing on and off I've never been cured. I didnt even know about PAWS back then, I thought I had diabetes and fuck knows what else looking at google too much at the time. I only made the Withdrawal connection since the beginning of my current run now (380 days). So just after a year. I know this process is working, my mind feels clear at times now. Dude I can't even begin to comprehend the amount of racing thoughts I had in my pmo days its seriously fucked up.