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18 Y/O I JUST RELAPSED! FEEL TERRIBLE PLEASE HELP!

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Deleted Account, Apr 26, 2020.

  1. Hi, NoFap community!

    I feel like absolute shit...

    Before today, I went 30 days without porn and fetishes. I felt like I had put that side of me behind, and was working towards a better life. I had no urges, AT ALL.

    I couple of months ago I wrote a forum post about how I was addicted to being a sex slave, and have been in contact with numerous men, sent them dirty pictures, etc. etc.

    This forum really helped me believe there was a way out, a way I could return to a normal sex life were normal women still turned me on.

    Today I relapsed and got in contact with my old "master" and right after cumming, I felt terrible. It only turns me on sometimes, and when I cum I just feel so embarrassed.

    Please, someone, help me get on the right path. Why is this happening to me?
     
  2. matt2k12

    matt2k12 Fapstronaut

    we all struggle my friend, it is what makes us human. but we stand up again with fresh motivation and a hard learned lesson! no one - i repeat, no one has succeeded on this path without one fail/relapse. you are already on the track to freedom, just keep going. take this opportunity, see it for what it is: an inevitable fail on your inevitable ultimate success story - and learn from it, this way you will gain wisdom. think about what made you fail this time: think about it real hard, write it down, and think about how you could prevent yourself in the future if a similar situation would arise. new temptations will come 100%, thats why we need to be 100% committed and vigilant! you can do this
     
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  3. StonePlacidity

    StonePlacidity Fapstronaut

    If you don't encounter any urges, then I have to tell you that, unfortunately, you're brain isn't really rewired that much. It is the process of rejecting porn and MO that lessen the connection between pleasure (fake happiness) with PMO.
     
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  4. jt850

    jt850 Fapstronaut

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    Please don't give up. Don't quit. Good things take time and effort. Any effort is good effort. Stay strong!
     
  5. ccml

    ccml Fapstronaut

    If you want to quit PMO, simply don't allow yourself to chat with those people! Change your email address, delete your nudes, and say no to curiosity every time it comes around. It gets easy after a while.
    Nothing wrong with being bi or gay tho. I hope you become at ease with it.
     
  6. lion95

    lion95 Fapstronaut

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    I am so happy for you!! becoues you are in there right path. great that you feel embarrassed you know this is not you. and we all now this is not your desire. However filling one time does not mean you DONE. it's mean you will become stronger. we LOVE you and we believe in YOU.

    Cheers,
     
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  7. Thank you so much for the repomse!

    I know i'm not gay, that is the problem.. I have been in love with a couple women in my life, and men don't turn me on at all... It's only when I get caught up in that stupid fetish stuff that I think about men..
     
  8. Thank you so much for the support
     
  9. PopularLoner

    PopularLoner Fapstronaut

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    It happens to all of us you just let your guard down and got too relax don't worry start again today, don't count your days just do this because you want to stop it and you want to get better and this time no matter the days you get be it 30 or 300 always stay vigilant. Thanks for the share man you can do this!
     
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  10. Thank you so much! I really need this
     
  11. PopularLoner

    PopularLoner Fapstronaut

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    You know how people say that you should make a pros and cons list? In this case, make a CONS ONLY list. Think of all of the reasons how this is hurting you. Think of how bad it makes you feel after you've done the deed. Think of of the shame, the guilt, the pain, the... emptiness of it all. You didn't just have sex. You didn't just experience a beautiful, intimate moment with another person. It wasn't love. It wasn't connection. It was just an empty release. It improved nothing for anyone. It didn't connect you to someone on a deeper, spiritual level. These are just some of the things that come to my mind. What are some the negatives for you? What are the cons? Make a list of nothing but the cons and build a negative association to it. As for pros, what if the truth is that there are none? Build a lost of cons and any thoughts that you have that there might be any pros can be decimated.
     

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