Hey Guys, As you can see in the title i'm 18 years old and still a virgin. I've kissed quite some girls and gotten erections from them but never have I gotten a HJ or BJ. I discovered having PIED about 8 months ago when I was kissing a girl and had no movement whatsoever downstairs. I thought it was the alcohol. But the second time kissing a girl and not getting a erection about 1,5 months ago, I was sure it was PIED. Little background: I started fapping when I was 12. At first soft porn like pictures. When I was 13/14 I watched real porn. At 16 I started watching extreme porn to keep my dick working just till 53 days ago. And I would fap daily. Sometimes more then just once. So that's around 5/6 years of porn usage. The bad thing is, I knew about NoFap for 3 years already and I knew a little bit about PIED for 2 years. But I always thought that my libido was so high, that PIED would never hit me and I would simply click away that terrifying article/site. Yet here I am, 2 years later, having PIED and not even getting it up with a girl while kissing. I was so naive and stupid. So yeah, I started right after my exams were over (HARD MODE). (I GRADUATED!). On May 23rd. I did however start earlier with kinda doing nofap (8 months ago). I thought that masturbating (to pics) just two/three times a week would already heal me. (NOT!). I would relapse so many times (to porn), it really was unbelieveble. On May 23rd however I started doing HARD MODE. While I am writing this I am on my 53rd day, July 15th. I have the feeling that I am in a flatline, my symptoms of a flatline: Random Boners are rare maybe once a week and I do not feel any sexual attraction/desire to girls even while clubbing and mostly my dick looks like a dead noodle. My flatline started around day 10 and is still going I simply hope that my dick will function again after 6 months (180 days) in, yeah I know I still have a long road.... But I haven't relapsed yet and my urges to fapping and watching porn are gone (I guess? Maybe because of the flatline). And I really want to get this shit over with once and for all. My goal is 6 months but after that I will stop the streak and live a life without porn and masturbation. Because it is holiday now. I am spending a lot of time talking with my friends, socializing and going to the gym. Especially working out and socializing are the two things holding me from relapsing. But on the other hand lying in bed all day, watching Netflix is one of the cons of a holiday and makes my whole body feel like a dead noodle. The reasons I started NoFap: 1: I do want to get hard erections again from real life girls. DUH? 2: I literally thought I was gay? (It's one of the worst feelings ever if you think you are straight. Not getting it up from real life girls made me seriously question my sexuality. However I tried fantasizing about guys and even watched gay porn. I could not get it up either.) (Thank god) Side effect: I also started to think I was Asexual because of this. Well luckily I am not the only one and we all know it is because of the PIED. 3: I really want to get deflowered. I hate my friends asking why I am still a virgin.. It's normal they ask that because they don't know what is bothering me and I don't have the balls to tell them. Also there are many girls and guys who think of me as a good looking guy, who should've been deflowered in his 16's. (Not to brag whatsoever.) I also hate it when my friends make jokes about my virginity. Fortunately I am not the only virgin in the group so that's what's keeping me going. 4: Even though I graduated I was doing bad in school. I had no problems at school at first, because I am a smart kid. However in my last 2 years I started failing classes due to porn use and procrastinating, which is a symptom of porn addiction and lack of dopamine for other things than porn. I really want to succeed at university, so I have to stop procrastinating and start a healthy life. I know that because of the lack of real sexual experiences like BJ or Sex, my cure is not only rebooting but also REWIRING. Since I started HARD MODE, I haven't tried kissing a girl, just the fear of not getting it up while kissing or going home with her and still having no movement in my dead noodle is terrifying and makes me shiver. And I know that at some point in the near future this is going to happen, because it is all part of the process of rewiring my brain to real sex. And yeah I am preparing myself to my first failure attempt at sex. I really hope my dick will work again by then, but I fear not. My streak makes me stronger. And I will try to rewire at aproximately 90 days. I will try to give an update every now and then. PS: I am not a very good storyteller so it may sound a little mixed and English is not my mothertongue, but I hope that everyone understands. If you have any questions, feel free to ask them. EDIT: I must also state that I have been having depressional thoughts in the last 2 years. I can say that I wanted to commit suicide multiple times, or just wished I would die the next morning. Not having to go through this shit anymore. I feel less a man because of this bs. I must also say that I enjoy life more since nofap and I enjoy life again.